Bad Experience and Something more
Hi everybody , I just found out about this place and from what I`ve read so far , I found out the names of stuff I was doing unwillingly.
First of all , my big question is , When I realize I`m dreaming I`m getting in the body paralysis state by reflex and feel like I can control my dream , BUT , when this happens , I always feel a shiver down my spine and the dream darkens , get a dark aura , I also sometimes hear an creepy orga [ spellcheck , church piano with big "pipes" ] sound and there is always a creepy person with a black hoodie that tries to get closer and closer , at this moment , I 100% I`m dreaming , I try to wake up , move my hands or anything , but cant , I just feel a lot of fear inside me , I even opened my eyes once in this state , but couldn`t see anything [ I assume my eyes were rolled over ] because of the fear I get. It always seem to happen when I realize it is a LD , just 1-2 times I realized the LD and when I wanted to change the environment the feeling above happened.
Once I dream`t I was in a Vietnam kinda of place , I realized I was dreaming , I saved some villagers from can`t recall what and when I was "Ok , Their safe , time for me to have fun " And I started getting chased by an very creepy old Woman dressed with a black robe/hood and got me freaked out all over again.
I have to say , stuff like this happened to me very frequently , I used to have a lot of lucid experiences but every time I wanted control I got freaked out with fear.
Anybody can tell me how to avoid future situations like this ? I`ve tried to face it once , the fear was so intense I instantly woke up and started breathing really heavy.
Hope somebody can help , oh and , I`m very happy I found a place like this , people would call me crazy around my place if I started sharing this.
It also happened once or twice that I tried to scream but no voice came or could move only one of my hands but only a bit , this gets me so scared and annoyed in the same time.