My name is April but I go by Zhaylin in cyber-space. I'm 34 years old, the mother of 4 kids (Ray- age 16; Myles- age 14; Destinee- age 13; Zee'Arra- age 12) and I'm married to a man 30 years older than me whose an Ophthalmologist.

The father of my children has been out of our life since they were babies.
And because my dreams are sometimes about my past and people may read them and wonder- I worked as an exotic dancer for about 4 months in 1998.
I'm also one of Jehovah's Witnesses... I started studying with them in 1999 and was baptized in 2001. I am currently disfellowshipped (or "excommunicated") which means members from my congregation won't associate with me. This happened February 2008. They were right in doing so and I look forward to rejoining the congregation in the (hopefully) near future.

While I was on a business trip with my husband this past November, Social Services picked up my kids and placed them in Foster Care and later placed my boys in a Shelter and my girls with my half-sister and her family (which may change tomorrow). I was so distraught that I tried killing myself and I'm fighting to get my kids back. I go to court tomorrow.
My dreams also sometimes feature that theme....

I started smoking when I was about 13 years old. By the time I was 18, was smoking 4 packs a day. But in 2000, I quit. This past April 28, I started again. I cannot rejoin the congregation until I quit again.

Other than all that- I am a very boring person. I enjoy reading and in the past I wrote stories, poetry and songs. Now-a-days I spend a lot of time on-line playing WoW or DOMO or spending time on Yahoo Answers or here

I'm going to be off-line from 01/15-01/25. I'll try to check in, but can't guarantee it So, no worries if I don't check in.