Since i signed up here on the board,im keeping my dream journal updated every day. The last couple of nights,i didnt rememebr so much anymore (only like 1 pages in the journal..when i started it was around 3 pages) so before i went to bed,i started saying in my mind that it will remember my dreams when i wake up over and over.

I got woken up by my cat,jumping on my back..it was around 5 am. After the first confusion was gone,i was remembering if i can remember my dreams...but there was nothing i could remember at all...which was really weird.

So i tried to go back to sleep and then the first weird dream happens. I was dreaming something about my time in the military and i wanted to shoot with a rifle but the silencer (dunno why i had one) was closed and nothing happened..then after 3 or 4 times,it exploded and i was able to shoot....but of course the 100 enemys in the forrest ahead of me,saw and heard my shot and tried to exchange bullets with me. Then suddenly i was saying "Hey..this is a dream i cant die or get hurt" and i stand up and see one bullet going to my stomach.
That wasnt that bad,but what the REALLY uncomfortable thing was,i had a REALLY loud beeping sound in my head,which got louder and louder and i mean really loud.
I have a very light tinitus (the beeping in the ear) and it sounded like this,but MUCH stronger..also it felt like when you have a headache or a hangover,when you hear something really loud..it feels like your whole head is vibrating. Well,thats how it felt ...in the dream i wanted it to go stop,but nothing happend. Then i thought that maybe this is the entry to a LD or something and normal ..but it got so loud and it was scaring me and i wanted to wake up and I did...the sound gradually got quiter and eventually dissapered. When i woke up,i couldnt move for a couple of seconds...must be the sleep paralysis.

That was not a nice experience at all,but still i was thinking if i had a LD or not. The sound happend 2 or 3 more times in other dreams,which made me awake again....i remember in one i was falling down a skyscraper...not aware that im in a dream.

Then the last one was TOTALLY different..there was no sound there ..it was just like a normal dream. But i dont know when exactly,but i suddenly knew it was a dream..i think figured it out before in this dream,but forgot it again. Well anyways when i was aware of it, i didnt made a reality check at once becasue i was in a dark grey empty room,without windows and i wanted to go to a nicer sunnier room. I was thinking that this room gets nicer,but nothing happened.
So i tried to rememebr what i read about LD etc and i was thinking that when i walk through this door,theres a sunny nice warm room there. So i walked through there and indeed,a nice summer afternoon and a warm sunny room waited me. At this time i was like wow and did a reality check I moved my hand into the other one and it worked..i could grab through my own hand. My hands looked ok,but my finger were kidna blurry/misty only sometimes solid objects. I did the same reality check later that dream with same results also another one at the end,when i moved my hand into my tummy.

Anyways then there was my wife..even though she didnt looked like her..dunno was weird. Anyways at this time everything looked blurry, unsharp and i rememebr thinkign to myself why all the ppl on the board here were so exited about this,becasue it doesnt even come close to reality. But then i walked around the room and it suddenly became sharp,crips and extreme real.
I would say,that in all my other dreams,i was watching it a a small 15" TV,this dream suddenly turned out to be like a Plasma TV. Well maybe because i rememebr it more and it was much more intense,but well the blurring was gone and the erotic part starts here.

I dont know why it was a sexual dream..I actually planned to fly a jet in my first dreams,that i can control...but even though i had control over the enviroment, it still was like the dream still had main control about what the mainplot is. I also remember only the voice of my wife and mine...but anything else was totally quiet,which really bugged me so i was was thinking of some music...some seconds later i heard the gipsy kings playing ...soudned like a neighbour listening to them loud. Dunno why all this latino ambiente..my wife is latina,so that may be the reason.

Thats pretty much it..i think a train or something disrupted the dream,because the whole time i was thinking i hope i dont say something in my dreams or make noises and my wife hears them. I thought i was able to hear the sounds outside my windows in the dream and feel me laying in the bed,while still being in the dream.

Oh yes and i think for a second i had a fake awakening,becasue i rememebr for a second that i woke up on the wrong side of the bed ..and then i woke up on correct side.

In the dream,everything felt empty around me. i mean there were no ppl ,onyl the two of us and it felt liek there is no one else in the world. A weird feeling.

Ok then i woke up and remebered my whole dream..i was sleeping for an hour or so,so the dream wasnt that long.

I told my wife about it,becasue she can LD and shes not jealous at all,so no hard feelings there. She told me it soudned like a LD..but didnt know what the loud sound was i heard earlier the night.

Im still very confused and also skeptiacl if i had a LD with some dream control. Is it possible,to dream that you know youre dreaming..but its just a normal dream? Anyways,it was a very intresting night for me and i hope you guys can advide and feedback if this really was a LD and maybe what or why i heard the loud noise in my head.

Thanks for reading this.