I've had insomnia for at least 10years. I used to get maybe an hour of sleep a night. They diagnosed me autistic from how badly affected my mental ability was until while prescribing various antidepressents and antianxiety meds I started sleeping more as a side effect. Finally everyone realized my main problem was sleep deprivation but noone has found the cause of it. For the past 2years I've been taking various sleep meds including seroquel, lunesta, ambien, and rozerem.

I didn't know there was any kind of dream besides lucid. I've always known when I was dreaming and while I usually don't try to control the dreams I often... cancel... dreams I don't like or that start to go beyond logical. I always think logically even in my dreams. If it can't happen I automatically stop the dream and start a new one. I suppose it comes from the fact that for years the only way I got any sleep was to induce dreaming. I'd start out making up stories and places in my head that would slowly turn into dreams and I'd go back and forth between controlling it and just watching a dream unfold. I probably started that around 4th grade (I'm 23 now) and as my insomnia started and then got worse I'd spend more time in my head than aware of my surroundings. I'd go through entire school days just reacting to the bells and then immediately going back to the stories or dreams as soon as I sat down in the next desk. It was the only rest I got and the only way to stay sane from the lack of sleep. I got to a point my body felt so tired and weak I thought I might die if I actually fell asleep.

So now I'm on sleep meds and I'm having weirder dreams. Dreams that I lose control of or that seem so real I almost question whether that event happened. It's little stuff but I dreamt about some work I had to get done at the stable and then the next day was surprised for a second when it wasn't done. Then remembered that was a dream. I wonder if my sleep and therefore my dreams are just becoming more normal but it's kind of worrying me that reality has blurred like that on occasion lately. Which prompted my latest internet search.

You guys seem to know a lot about sleep so I think I'll hang out here for awhile.