A bit of history in chronology order.
Couple of years ago I had a discomforing experience in bed. It's been with me in the back of my mind as "what the hell was that?" and never seemed to get an answer to it. It basicly went like this:
I sense something in the room, it aproaches me, its all black because I cant see anything; my eyes are closed and I cant open them, I cant move, Im shaking mad, grinning my teeth and it feels like Im being sort of mildy electrocuted. It all lasted only for a few seconds.
I figured I must be ill or something and dismissed it as a freak of nature, something missfired inside my brain.
Skipping fast forward to about couple of month's ago, I had another very similiar experience, some minor details changed, but pretty much the same tho this one lasted longer, about 5 or few seconds more. Oh btw, the overwhelming sence of fear is unbarable. (tossing in a brave smiley there)
At this point Im slightly worried, what the hell, sort of. 
So I google it up and learn more about "Sleep Paralysis". Tho Im very confident my "problems" have been a product of this sort, or something in the same realm, its still very comfusing.. What is specificly is I mean.
Going further from that, I learn more about "Lucid Dreaming" and become VERY intrested. 
I immediatly start a dream journal and let it hang by my bed. I've always had the "ability" to remember my dreams, almost atleast one dream per night, usually two. So getting started wasnt much of a problem.
Now, the intresting bit happens, wich Im here to ask you guys about what you think. Only after a week or two Im having two serious "paralysis" incidents, first one was just terryfying, very short, only a few seconds. But felt as if someone was litterally choking me. At this point it becomes real fussy, I do remember dreaming that I checked in the mirror for the choke marks and found them, but offcourse I didnt have em when I woke up. So, am I paralyzed when Im sleeping and wake up, or paralyzed knowing Im sleeping and continue sleeping? Its all a mess.. 
Second one happened yesterday infact (been wanting to make this post for some time, but put it off, now seems a good time to ask tho).
I was having a nap at the couch in my office, the building is completely vacated so I lock up all doors. I know the door next to my couch is locked. I settle in to go to sleep. Sometime later I sort of wake up and turn, noticing the door is open, at this point Im thinking to myself; "it cant be, its closed.. I better wake up and check it", its now I get a paralysis betwen 15-20 seconds, it was sick.. I even touk pauses trying to move my body.. I could hear a crazy ass sound in my ears, like a factory humming sound.
Quesiton.. What the hell? 
Sleep used to be king, now.. its not..
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