I don't know how to describe it.. but I always know I'm dreaming. It's not good, I know, but my whole life thus far, ever since I was 10, I've always looked forward to sleep because that's where I could finally escape my life. I don't really fit in at school.. Not to say I'm wierd or anything, just that I share no common intrests with my fellow class mates. I don't really care if you know how old I am, because I am not about to give my personal info out, I just want help, and this help isn't from psychiatrists or psychologists, as my mother belives: I am 16, and I have had control of my dreams ever since I can remember. I'm afraid of reality, and honestly I don't even know what the word reality realy is. To me, it's what ever you belive in. I'm not sure and I'm alway wanting to absorb new knowledge, so that I can base some form of idea on life, but there is no end to the possibilities of this world.. God, I feel like some kind of freak that doesn't fit in with society. I WANT TO KNOW ALL ABOUT THIS "Lucidity" in dreams. Please help me. I want to learn, but not let this consume my life. Thank you so much.


-Beth