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Hey all!
My name's Meidi (yes, for real), I'm 19-going-on-20 and I live in Sweden. My LD history is a bit strange; the first lucid dream I had was when I was 9-ish and I had a dream that I realized was a dream. Then I jumped from the balcony and flew around a little (since I thought to myself that I could do anything I wanted without getting hurt) before eventually waking up.

Then, years passed...and sometime in 2004 I watched Waking Life (which I'm sure many, if not all of us have done). This triggered my interest for lucid dreaming even more, but I found it hard to have one on my own (though, it happened sporadically). I've always had a very active dream life, which is good AND bad - at the same time as I can have beautiful dreams in which I play music with colors or visit other, spectactular worlds, I'm very prone to gore-tastic nightmares. Think: watching people you love die over and over again in a time-loop, pulling charred bodies out of kitchen ovens, being horribly mutilated...etc. I see this subconscious activity as something fundamentally good, anyway (even though it made me want to not ever dream again for a while), since I can often remember my dreams very vividly and in great detail.

Now, I'm not that great at routines, so back in 2004 I never really started keeping a dream journal or started checking for dream signs in real life. These past two years my LD interest has been on and off, until some time a few months ago when I started having lucid dreams all by myself. At first they were horrible, as I kinda went lucid in the middle of a nightmare and didn't really know what to do. I tried to wake myself up several times, but failed (it never occurred to me in that mindset that I could actually control my surroundings, I was too terrified I guess). But something's definitely happening in my subconscious right now.

I've had two lucid dreams just this past week, a couple of false awakenings, and a number of near-lucid experiences. What I call near-lucid is talking to a dream character about how "this may very well be a dream" and them basically saying something along the lines of "bah, humbug". Damn you, DCs! Lol. Anyway, it's come to the point where I regularly ask myself in dreams whether I'm dreaming or not (most often I come to the conclusion that I'm not dreaming, wtf?). I really want to try and investigate this newfound ability further, et voilà - here I am!

Sorry about the ginormous post. You'll survive. :D

Hi Meidi.. :)
WELCOME.

It seems with your avid recall you have set in place some good lucid dreaming to come.
In these past weeks it seems that you have gained some confidence and had many different experiences as a result. >>> Keep it going.
Nightmares can almost be entirely eliminated.
I used some recurring bad dream signs to spark my lucidity. As I gained confidence I sought my way around these horrible dreams.
Everyone works in a different way.

Have fun!

Thanks for the welcome! :D Yes, maybe I should start seeing dead bodies everywhere as definite dream signs, lol...

'hola!

Hope you enjoy your stay :)

Welcome!

Nice, two lucids in your first week and some more near lucid is experiences very good. I have been trying to have lucid dreams for a month now, and I have only ever had one short one that isnt even really a lucid dream.

Good Luck with more LD's!

Thanks Shadow Wolf! And don't worry, I'm sure you'll get there soon enough. You have 6 SP's on your record! Unless they come to you naturally they require a lot of self control, right?

welcome to dv :) thats about where im right now. 2 lucids a week.

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Then, years passed...and sometime in 2004 I watched Waking Life (which I'm sure many, if not all of us have done). This triggered my interest for lucid dreaming even more, but I found it hard to have one on my own (though, it happened sporadically). I've always had a very active dream life, which is good AND bad - at the same time as I can have beautiful dreams in which I play music with colors or visit other, spectactular worlds, I'm very prone to gore-tastic nightmares. Think: watching people you love die over and over again in a time-loop, pulling charred bodies out of kitchen ovens, being horribly mutilated...etc. I see this subconscious activity as something fundamentally good, anyway (even though it made me want to not ever dream again for a while), since I can often remember my dreams very vividly and in great detail.[/b]

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that must suck :( i havent had a nightmare (more than being in a room with spiders, i hate those things lol ) in like 6 years.

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for some people they do, some they dont. i dont even get sp.

anyway good luck! :)

Welcome!

Keep practicing. I suggest getting some reading material: "Exploring the world of Lucid Dreaming" by Stephen LaBerge will tell you everything you need to know, not that you can't get everything from the knowledgeable members here.

I've had a lucid in a nightmare before too, and tried pinching myself and just about everything else. The best plan in those situations is to jump through a wall or do anything that might change the scene and the emotion involved.

The fact that you've had two in one week is great! Try telling your subconscious ,picturing yourself in a situation where your talking to a DC, that you'll gain lucidity the next time that happens. Sounds like a dream sign.

Also, a quick note to Shadow. When I first started I had about the same luck. Funny enough, the moment I gave up trying is when the lucid dreams started coming. Maybe you should take it easy for awhile?

- GA

Hi! :content:

Give up trying is an excellent way to have your first LD, specially when you have tried to induct it and have NO success!!

It has hapened to me... I've been trying for 1 month and I've only improved my Dream Recall (it's good but for me it wasn't enough)... So I stop thinking about LD during 1 week... and after this I've had my first one! And 3 days later I've had another one :bigteeth:

So, if everything is wrong, just give up for a while! But do not give up trying forever (because one day you'll have yours)

Bye!

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