hello everyone! my name is mel. i'm 21 years old and i hail from NY, USA!

lucid dreaming was an old hobby of mine (i was a beginner who mainly resorted to flying around whenever i had the chance lol) which i wish to ressurect because i remember it being so fulfilling.

unfortunately, going through college has been putting me through a lot of stress these past few years, which has significantly affected my dream recall. i used to remember my dreams every night - now i can remember one a month, if i'm lucky.

i've always had particularly amusing dreams. part of what has always hindered my advancement in lucid dreaming was my fear of a lot c dreams. i have depression and a lot of repressed emotions which makes me have very dark, gloomy dreams. i rarely have nightmares, but my dreams aren't happy "places" to be in. there's a lot of tension and fear in the air. it's kind if held me back because i'm afraid to go back into that gloomy world, although i'm well aware that lucid dreaming will help reduce these negative feelings in my dreams.

ah well, anyway, that was my introduction. i just wanted to get myself back on track and i'd appreciate it if anyone had some advice to offer me! particularly in the stress and dream recall area...

glad to be here