Hello everyone. For starts I am 25 years old, married mother of one daugthter, I stay at home and lead a basic conventinal all be it boring but pretty satisfied life. That said no matter how I have led my unusual life these 25 years I have suffered from beyond realistic dreams since as long as I can remember.

I'll admit that my dreams even though they are realistic, they are not all neccessarily bad, but, i never get rest from sleep, I just end up waking up exsausted and feeling like i got no sleep at all. I remember all dreams VIVIDLY, I envy my husband who remembers nothing or very little. Even though I dont commonly dream of monsters or mahaem, I still have deeply confusing and disturbing dreams that make sleep something i would rather avoid, i tend to stay awake for 36 hours and then I finally crash out for about 6 hours of annoying dreams , i have tried usual sleep schdedules and it does nothing to prevent the amount I dream, I function rather well on 5-6 hours of sleep i have done that for at least..well since i had my daughter so roughly 8 years.

Most of the times I don't know im dreaming, but i am intensly aware of everything around me, in short I feel alive and well and normal, so when bad things happen in my dreams, I in short feel everything is absolute and there is no way out of it and the panic or emotions I feel is intense and overwhelming, in other cases If even for a moment I notice i am dreaming i tend to wake up right after that which is ANNOYING cause its the only moment i feel maybe sleeping can be a fun adventure

Any way, the main reason I am here Is to discover the meaning of this particular dream , a reaccuring one I have been having, it has caused me to fear sleep even more and its becoming a real problem, I have included details to that dream in another thread . I hope to get some answers here, so that I may for the first time in my life, not be afraid to sleep