Ok. First off I would like to say hello to all here at Dreamviews. I realize that there is a specific section dedicated to greetings, but I thought that I may as well wrap my introduction in with my first actual post anyway. I apologize if this is a long, winded message, but at times it may be hard for me to think of how to properly express everything in words. lol. So before I get to the real question, I thought I should put a little bit of history. I have been practicing and trying to get into the Theta brainwave state for a while. I have dealt with everything from lucid dreams to meditation and practiced both for a while, but my main goal has been and still is to reach the deep Theta brainwave state.
Not only is this a perfect state to lead into lucid dreams, but also access other psychic facilities(remote viewing, OBE's, etc). I have been meditating for some time also, and have used various forms of brainwave entrainment CD's to little or no effect. Well recently I read Jeff's tutorial on here about "Freefalling into chaos" to reach sp, and I thought "Gee. That sounds pretty similar to the meditation of watching your thoughts" especially considering having a WILD is basically just a form of meditation anyway in which you reach the Theta brainwaves and simply drift off to sleep aware, so I had the idea that I would combine them somehow.
So I laid down in my bed last night(I know, I know, having OBE's and Lucid Dreams is a LOT harder at night, but I was more trying to meditate and if I fell asleep, so be it) and began listening to a brainwave entrainment track. I began to passively watch my thoughts. I usually have a big problem with music being stuck in my head, but I just continued to passively hear the music. Ocassionately, it would jumble together or go off track and I would just continue to watch passively. I was expecting to begin to see chaotic thoughts like Jeff explains in his tutorial, as I have experienced those before, but instead, the thoughts just continued to roll in. Suprisingly enough though, I went much deeper into relaxation than ever before thought! I even got to partial sleep paralysis for my first time ever! I was amazed that I had actually gone this deep, but what confuses me is that, even though i felt the unmistakable presence of the "lead blanket" over certain parts of my body, which would indicate a deep Theta(or at least ANY Theta) state, I still had plenty of thoughts rolling in that I was watching passively. Mostly the SAME DAMNED SONG that had been tearing my skull in two for the last hour.
My thought process was definitely slowed, but I thought that at deep Theta(which SP would normally signal) that the majority, if not ALL thoughts would have ceased. Not only that, but I never experienced any truly chaotic thoughts. I have before, but only when I was truly drifting off into unaware sleep. And to top it all off, I experienced NO hypnagogics or visualizations! Neither visual nor audiol. I felt very deep, but was still aware of my(partially paralyzed) body and still had fresh thoughts coming in that I was watching go by all the while. I've never been so close to my goal of Theta before, but I guess what confuses me is that, even though it seemed in some ways like I had accomplished my goal, I was missing most of the other signs of Theta. The partial sp didn't last long at all, and as quickly as it came, it had left. I don't KNOW FOR SURE if it was really sp or not because I didn't try to move because I didn't wanna screw up everything. lol. but I definitely had that lead blanket feeling, and the rest of my body was numb or very heavy. So its like I somehow was in sp without Theta. I guess my reason for posting and my question would be if anybody knows whether or not that could be Theta state, and if so, how can I get the hypnagogics and real effects of it. When I tried to let the sp take over completely, it just went away. I tried relaxing in to it, but to no avail. I'm REALLY excited I got so far into it, but yet stumped as to why most of the symptoms were missing. If anyone has any advice(besides keep practicing, which is a given. lol) or light to shed on the subject, I'd be very greatful.
Phew. That was long, but I appreciate all who took the time to read my rambling and can provide some support.