Thread: Mydera's Workbook

I need to catch up!

5-11-12 - Another night of insomnia, so only two really short dream fragments... but considering I only slept 4 hours, it's totally expected. I copy pasted these straight out of my journal. They were short enough not to need shortening.

Dream One (Fragment): My mom owned a shop of some sort and I was helping her stock. A guy was there, I want to say it was K. There was also a girl there, I think maybe my bff?

Dream Two (Fragment): There was something about colors, and I needed something of a certain color for a festival. Then I was in the basement, and we'd already started working on it so the wooden frames for the walls were up. I must have been under the living room where the floor is lower because someone was showing me how low the ceiling was and how no one was going to be able to stand up straight in that room, we'd all have to bend over. It being the laundry/utility room, I didn't find that a problem as it would be used once or twice a week at most.

I reality checked that day the several times in the hours I was awake while the kids slept since that's unusual for me to be without one or the other or both on my heels. I also checked out those videos on the 5 layers of lucid dreams, reality checking during them because I've had those dreams where I'm talking about or reading about dreaming in dreams. There were also some more reality checks during the day as well.

5-12-12 - Slept a bit more than the night before, but still woke up before sun up unable to go back to sleep. These dreams were longer though, and had hints of lucidity to them, yay! These were my normal longer dreams, so I'm shortening them for the work book as usual.

Dream One: I was on a hill looking at a building. I thought it might be a dream, and jumped to see if I could fly. I did fly, so I flew in a big circle. I didn't get really excited like I normally do during a lucid, and I only passively cared, so it might be a layer 2 minor?

Dream Two: I'm waking up from a nap outside, and 2 members of YFM are painting american flags on my house. They later become the neighbors kid painting a firestation, and I tell him he's vandalizing and could go to jail

Dream Three: A lady is teaching me and a guy about magic battles. The guy looks really familiar but I can't place him. The lady in the dream refers to him as "Kay" and I reference a few books during the dream thinking he might be a character from them (of course, in the dream I don't realize they're only book characters and not real.) I finally realize at the end that I'm dreaming, and who the guy is, it's K! (Apparently calling him K in my dream journals is causing me to think of him as K in my dreams now ) I tell him his name isn't really K, it's Kurasawa. He replies that he knows that and isn't sure why his name is different in this dream. Then the dream crashes. I'm not sure what to call this, maybe level 1 since the dream crashed literally a minute or two after I realized I was dreaming. I also didn't even bother RCing in this dream, I think seeing Kurasawa was reality check enough since he'd not a real person.

My brain is seriously toying with me, lol. But it's nice to have something close to being lucid to counter act the trouble I'm having sleeping. If I'm only going to sleep a little, at least it's productive sleep/progress

Now, for reality checks today, I had a bunch more than usual since we did a lot of out of the norm stuff. Family came to visit from out of state, we went out to eat, I went to a mother daughter banquet with my mom, and I was in the car all by myself while my husband took the kids into a store to buy me my secret mothers day gift. Each even got at least 5 reality checks, the longer events like the family visiting and the banquet got more like 10 because they took a few hours.

Dream Three: A lady is teaching me and a guy about magic battles. The guy looks really familiar but I can't place him. The lady in the dream refers to him as "Kay" and I reference a few books during the dream thinking he might be a character from them (of course, in the dream I don't realize they're only book characters and not real.) I finally realize at the end that I'm dreaming, and who the guy is, it's K! (Apparently calling him K in my dream journals is causing me to think of him as K in my dreams now ) I tell him his name isn't really K, it's Kurasawa. He replies that he knows that and isn't sure why his name is different in this dream. Then the dream crashes. I'm not sure what to call this, maybe level 1 since the dream crashed literally a minute or two after I realized I was dreaming. I also didn't even bother RCing in this dream, I think seeing Kurasawa was reality check enough since he'd not a real person.

That's awesome! It totally counts as lucid, the dream just crashed before you were able to start controlling things. That my have been either a layer 1 major, or layer 2 minor.. I have to review the videos but I'm leaning toward the latter. Either way, congrats on earning your extra credit again this week Mydera!

Did lots of reality checks today since there was a lot of out of the ordinary stuff with it being mothers day and all. Reality checks at the inlaws, reality checks at my moms, even a reality check when I saw a frog climb a window Reality checks when I thought I'd already posted this and apparently hadn't too, lol.

Dream One: I'm leaving one job to go to another, and I'm pretty sure someone is controlling the weather and about to make it rain. I go home to change, but then go to a city wide story time instead of work!

Dream Two: I go from being a dress maker to being a party planner and looking for Chuck E Cheese.

Dream Three: Lady problems

Dream Four: Shopping at target where I run into a friend. Then I go to one of my Ex's parents house and talk to them about lucid dreaming... failing to realize I was in a dream So that's Layer 0 major I think.

I'm going to use my last half hour or so before bed to re-watch those videos and write down the layers and descriptions for quick reference in future work book entries

Originally Posted by Mydera

Then I go to one of my Ex's parents house and talk to them about lucid dreaming... failing to realize I was in a dream So that's Layer 0 major I think.

Haha I hate the layer But at least it's a heading for the right direction.

I'm going to use my last half hour or so before bed to re-watch those videos and write down the layers and descriptions for quick reference in future work book entries

Yeah I'm watching them again before chat classes tomorrow. I really like them and I think they help make things more concrete. Good luck tonight Mydera!

I'm going to dust off my workbook real quick and report on my progress since I stopped posting in the class. I've had three lucids, all in the last two weeks. Before those though, I hadn't had any since that short one on the 12th. I'm still having control issues, but I think I'm getting a bit better, or at least figuring out how to work around things I'm also getting past the excitement thing we had talked about before where I would get really excited and wake up every time I got too close to Kurasawa. Last night I actually was lucid, and when I woke up from being too close to him, I kept my eyes closed and remembered what it was like to get to that point of the dream, successfully re-entering the dream, and then kept my distance from him to prevent waking up again... at least until I started losing lucidity. Without Ophelia's advice to distance myself from the situation, I would probably never have gotten that far!

My goals this time around are:
*To increase my number of lucid dreams, I'd really like to get at least one a week but two or three would be great too
*Improve my control so that I can summon things and DCs myself without having to ask DCs to bring them to me

And now for my reality checks of the day, I've been reality checking when I am in the car, when I'm practicing w/ glow sticks, and any other time I can remember. I've still only reality checked about ten times today though.

Dream 1: I dreamed of trying to pick a water park to go to.

Dreams 2 and 3: A lucid that I was shooting dinosaurs, then decided that wasn't what I wanted to do and went to find Kurasawa instead. When I found him I woke up and went back into the dream, then lost lucidity and watched the water rippling on a river.

Dreams 4,5,6: Fragments in which I'm buying pony figurines at yard sales.

Dream 7: I fight a demon with a dagger and a kitchen knife.

Dream 8: Talking to some guy with long brown hair about how he punished someone or something. The we talk about a year book.

Dream 9: Talking to a friend who is playing Call Of Duty online with my husband.

Now that the dream journal system is working, here's my dreams from the night before last and last

6/2/1

1: Dressed up in a pony costumes

2: I'm on an island with mermaids. There's a sick guy there who needs to be rescued, all the mermaids are in love with him.

3: I'm hanging out with ton cruise and he's telling me he does his own remodeling of his apartment.

4: I find my pokemon cards from when I was a kid.

6/3/12

1: Playing some sort of role playing game similar to warcraft but with real people and figurines instead of just figurines.

2: I spent the night at the church I went to as a kid.

3: A man who looks like a Kitsune builds a ritzy apartment complex, then blows it up for the fun of it.

4: People tell me I'm fat at an anime convention even though I'm not.

5: A picnic at a park

6: I find a bunch of food on the road and it has bugs in it.

Reality checks for yesterday were every time I got on Dream Views or talked about dreams, when I practiced glow sticking, and when I rode in the car
Reality checks for today so far have been when I got on Dream views and periodically while I've been on here replying to messages and writing in my dream journal. The day is still young though

So good to see you again Mydera!

Question: what exactly is "glow sticking"?

Here's a pretty good video I found on youtube:



My kids and I saw some people doing it on our vacation and now we're trying to learn off from youtube videos. It's actually a lot of fun

I'm glad to take the class again, it really helped, and I find that the more I am lucid the more questions I end up having, lol.

6/4/12

1: Chatting with a spiritual "friend"

2: I visit a strange zoo

3: I'm on a mission to save the foxes

4: I transform into a unicorn and fight a tentacle monster

5: I'm in a car about to be hit by a bus

6: I'm hanging out where I used to work, and asked to help out when they get really busy

So far with my reality checks, a few while I was on Dream Views is it, but the day is only half over for me, so there's plenty of time to work on them

Awesome recall Mydera, as usual.

So what are you plans now that the kids are out of school? Is it going to change your sleep schedule? What about your induction technique, and your approach to attain lucidity in general?

I'm just curious about your take on it because I'm currently in the same boat.

Well, My kids aren't actually in school yet :p But we're going to have to start making sure we get them used to a school like sleep pattern (because the whole family is up until midnight, and then me and the kids sleep until about 10 in the morning, lol) I'm finding that with insomnia every couple of weeks, WILD is just not going to work for me because I struggle so much to go back to sleep. I have managed to DEILD a few times though, so I'm looking forwards to trying to DEILD more. I think the new sleep schedule will help with it because I'll be going to be going to bed much earlier, and will be woken by my husbands alarm just an hour before I'll have to get the kids up. If I can train myself to not open my eyes when the phone starts vibrating that should make an excellent DEILD opportunity. I'm going to pour into the reality checks too, especially when I'm doing something likely to bleed into my dreams since most of my lucids so far have been dream induced. Also, even if I fail to wake up during my husbands alarm, as long as I'm dreaming there's always the chance for a DILD.

Sorry I haven't kept up with my work book, I'm going through one of the insomnia periods again, so I'm not dreaming much. I am looking for dream signs and trying to reality check extra during times of the day I'm involved with such things. Now to play catch up

6/5/12

1: Glowsticking, then pulled away by my husband. When I get the sudden urge to go back outside, I find Kurasawa is outside glowsticking in my place. He's way better than me, and he smiles at me and asks, "Miss me?" then I wake up

2: I'm on the street again, this time I realize I can just leave my husband where he's at and do what I won't because it won't have any repercussions. I walk to a house, and think that I can open the door and the inside of the house will look however I imagine it. I don't realize I'm dreaming though, and a guy walks out and completely distracts me from controlling anything else.

3: Swinging on a swing set in a strange yard, then a couple guys tell me to go inside the house. My mom has sculpted a Christmas tree out of jello inside.

4: In a class room, where I'm supposed to be learning Japanese but instead end up stealing a puzzel and making a dude cry about it. I also decide my teacher is a horrible person to learn Japanese from.

5: Watching a youtube video of my bff's sister washing her hair o.O

Reality checks for that day, it was pokemon night at the local card shop, so I did a lot of extra reality checks then but also some when on dream views and in the street since it had been a strong dream sign in the previous night.

6-6-12

Two fragments of playing Pokemon cards. but Insomnia was bad, so I didn't sleep but a few short hours.

Reality checks were when I was on dream views and while watching my DVRd E3 stuff, also when I was playing a video game that I've dreamed about often.

6/7/12

1: I'm on a boat moving things and thinking it was my job

2: I'm in a wagon being chased by several somethings, then I jump off and get back on to find my companion has run off to fight the things chasing us without me. The cart driver won't stop so I can go back though. My bff and i try to enlist in some sort of army, and are assigned the job of spying on faerie. A woman who I think was a teacher (but don't recognize in waking life) tells me about following what I believe and not fighting for causes that I don't believe in just to be with my friends.

3: I'm in a hotel with a woman who is magic, there's a car wreck and she heals the lady in the car. A man walks me to a whole different dream area where it's day not night and the surroundings are totally different. I realize he's Kurasawa, but this doesn't make me lucid. He tells me about his job and some old lady that taught him dreaming or something, then takes me back to the hotel where it's night again and everything is back the way it was before we left. He disappears and I go to find breakfast.

For reality checks so far today I've reality checked every time I've gotten on dream views or talked about a dream to my friends. We're about to leave the house, so I'll be reality checking a lot where we go because most of my dreams take place outside of home.

6/8/12

1: Fragment of the pokemon Dragonair

2: I'm sneaking around, but then see Altair from Assassins Creed and decide my reason for sneaking around is pretty lame and I'm going to create a distraction instead so he can slip away safely.

3: I'm at the beach with my grandma, and she's driving. She's a terrible driver, and a storm comes up. Madness ensues, but lucky no one was hurt... by her driving at least.

4: A green snake is shedding it's skin on my front porch.

5: I'm at a birthday party for a DC everyone's calling mike. He's getting a book that someone he doesn't like wrote as a gag gift.

As always, reality checks when i logged into Dream views, and a couple when I was in the street chatting with the neighborhoods kids. The lazy ones were mowing the grass, and that was a total cause for wondering if it was a dream as it's never happened in the 3 years I've lived here. Also reality checked a few times before going to sleep because we actually got my son in bed before midnight... at 9 o'clock even.

The process of switching to a 9pm-7am sleep schedule is going well save for having a hard time falling asleep so early. Also, I decided it's easier to do my workbook the next day so I can list all my reality checks without wanting to go back and add some in later. As for where I am in the class, I'm thinking I'm going to skip forwards (rewind back?) to the week where we're practicing a method of induction, and I'm going with DEIL as my induction method. Have yet to have any success, but I'm going to stay in this week until I do if that's ok ^_^

Originally Posted by Mydera

As for where I am in the class, I'm thinking I'm going to skip forwards (rewind back?) to the week where we're practicing a method of induction, and I'm going with DEIL as my induction method. Have yet to have any success, but I'm going to stay in this week until I do if that's ok ^_^

Sounds good! Since this class is basically self-paced now, you can focus on the lesson that is most helpful for level. Let me know how the DEILDing goes. My sleep schedule has changed, so now I tend to DILD instead of DEILD. Oh well, better than nothing.

6/9/12

1: Flying with Kurasawa, fragment

2: I go to get my car fixed with my BFF and leave my kids home alone, then realize what a bad idea it was and rush home

3: I'm going to some sort of biker rally and getting shit from a dude because I brought a packed lunch instead of buying concessions

4: My BFF's husband calls me a monster and refuses to let me in their hotel room, then when I get in he refuses to let me sit or nap on the furniture

5: I try to rescue baby bunnies, and nearly get trampled by horses and arrested in the process


Reality checks inclued Dream views as always, a couple times when we went outside, and while playing Hakuouki

Ok I get the kid abandonment dream sometimes too, complete with the panicky "Oh my GOD what have I done?!"

And I also get the dreams about rescuing baby animals, especially wounded ones. I get super panicky about saving the mortally wounded ones too. Not trying to spam your workbook or anything, Mydera, but I'm just curious as to your interpretation to these types of dreams. For educational purposes of course.

Spam away I enjoy the conversation, lol. I think the reason I dreamed of leaving the kids alone was because my little boy is growing up. He's starting kindergarten this fall, and he's going through this HUGE independent and "I'm a big kid" phase. He's constantly trying to take on the role of the parent with his sister. I find him constantly trying to tell her no, and what she can and can't do... We're having to remind him, "Your not the parent! Let Mommy and Daddy deal with her when she misbehaves." He's also told me a few times, "I'm a big kid now mommy, so I can watch Clover and you can go to the grocery store by yourself." and we have to explain that he can not watch her, he's not even close to being old enough to be home alone yet! He sees the other kids in the neighborhood who are in their preteens and teens coming home alone after school, and thinks that school age means old enough to be home alone. I'm pretty confident that this dream is a reflection of this phase he's going through, and my emotions on the whole thing. In the dream, I left him home alone like a big kid, then realized after I left, he's not as big a kid as he wants to think he is and it was a terrible idea. Since we've had a lot of these moments lately where he's trying to be the parent, (it extends to things like wanting to cook lunch his sisters lunch in the microwave and wanting to pour her drinks and take her to the potty... He's really trying to step into that grown up role, though I keep trying to tell him he's not that big and he needs to let me handle it :/ ) that it's just bleeding over into my dreams in worst case scenarios.

As for the baby animals dreams, someone suggested that a lot of my dreams sound like sacrifice dreams. Like, the themes of them are me sacrificing myself for others, and I guess that's kid of where this baby animal dream is coming from. I'm trying to rescue these baby rabbits from being trampled by horses with little thought to my own safety. Then a cop comes along and pulls me out of the pasture, but instead of helping me rescue the baby bunnies he threatens to arrest me for trespassing and tells me to give up on the bunnies because he's already cited the owners with animal neglect for having insufficient cages and there's nothing else that can be done. Looking at this dream from the "sacrifice" stand point, I wonder if it's not referring to how in my every day life I take my kids on play dates and to special events, I let my husband go do things like Zip Lining and riding with a cop friend in his car, and to hang out with his friends... but when it comes to alone time for me there's very little. I haven't gone out and done something with friends sans kids and/or husband in months. Even on the days my husband will take the kids to my mother in laws house for a couple hours, I'm usually doing things for my grandmother or my mother that I can't do with the kids at my feet (like gardening, computer work, etc)

LOL, and that's a wall of text, sorry! But Those are my interpretations of my dreams. With wounded animals, I'd wonder if you feel like something important to you is broken and needs fixing or healing. I know when some kids rear ended my first car and nearly totaled it, and my cat got a mouse in the same week, I just couldn't kill the mouse because it was so much like my car that was broken, I kind of felt like the mouse was a symbol of my car, and if I could just nurse it to health my car would be ok too. Of course the mouse died, and my car was fixed eventually, and I'm pretty happy when the cat catches a mouse now, lol. But that was the best example I can think of to what I'm trying to say about something broken.

Yeah I agree with the nursing back to health thing. I get attached to people, animals, things really easily, and when something bad happens I will try to wear myself out trying to repair it. I'll have to see what's going on in my life the next time I have a dream with helpless or wounded animals.

Anyway, glad you had lengthy dreams last night even though your daughter had nightmares. And lol at the cheese grating spoon. Which reminds me I need to get on the ball for father's day as well.

Hope tonight you get enough sleep for a lucid. I certainly seem to have the best luck with them when I can sleep in, and they happen right at the end of a long night's sleep.

6/10

1: Playing Hakuouki, trying to get the "Dream ending" lmao

2: Watching Harada walk through a door frame

3: A trip to the mall with my husband

As for reality checks that day, I did several when I was at church and my moms house because I'm only there one or twice a month. Also RCing in the car, as I tend to remember to RC when I see a lot of scenery for some reason. Last night's dreams were really fuzzy and I ended up forgetting to write them down, so all I have are random notes that I don't understand now, lol. I know in one I dreamed that I put honey in my hair and got it all sticky and clumped on top of my head. In another I was shopping at the mall again, this time for my bff's sisters birthday. Todays reality checks include being in the car, going shopping, and pokemon cards Tomorrows Pokemon card night, so there's a good chance I won't be writing anything for the next couple days as it usually invokes my insomnia.

Oh we don't want insomnia, that's for sure.

Have fun playing cards, and I look forward to reading about your next LD.

last night was the first night I actually made myself NOT write notes when I woke up and tried to remember to keep my eyes closed and go back to sleep. I wouldn't say I had success, but my third dream was "close" or by the "5 Layers" system it was a Layer 0 Major. I didn't realize I was dreaming, but I felt like I was in another world where I had special abilities and a bit of control over the things around me. I didn't bother to use it though except to let myself walk on the wall when the floor became water. It was an odd dream for sure. I reality checked often the last several days, even though I'm not writing in my work book like I should :sorry: Most important ones being whenever I talk about dreaming, when I'm in the car, and out of the ordinary things (like someone's been carving bears out of stumps randomly along the roads in my county.... I have to question reality every time I see them, it's just not something I expect to see, lol) I figure my recall is going to suck with trying to DEILD, but at the same time I'm hoping that I can master this and get lucid more often.

Originally Posted by Mydera

I figure my recall is going to suck with trying to DEILD, but at the same time I'm hoping that I can master this and get lucid more often.

Have you ever tried to pick key words for your DEILDs, and then link them together for recall? I find it helps immensely, and you don't have to write anything, or move, or even open your eyes to do it. It just takes a few seconds in between dreams and you will be amazed at how much more you remember when you wake up in the morning for good.

Also, where do you live that carves bears out of tree stumps? I've seen this in the Rockies alot. Just curious.

Last night I had a few alien dreams, thanks to the book I read before bed, lol. The other two weird and emotional. It was definitely one of those nights fueled by emotions more than reasons. And my reality checks for today were the bear statues again, going out without my kids, and as always dreamviews and anytime anyone would even mention dreams. As for the bears, I have no clue who's doing them or why. I live in the foothills of north carolina, so not really IN the mountains where you'd expect this sort of thing... more like about an hour out of the mountains. It's not something we're used to seeing here,it's totally random, lol. I was surprised the first time I saw one, and really had to question if I really saw what I thought I saw, then I saw three more, so now It's more like a scavenger hunt for the kids when we go out I think it's someone from the power company or the DOT because they're in areas where trees are close to power lines and roads, and there are usually several trees cut down and only one bear. I don't know if it's some sort of marker, or just someone's practicing their art, or even if they're doing it for kids too see, but it's pretty cute and a good reminder to RC. Now if only I could get them in my dreams, I'd be lucid in no time, ha ha.

AS for key words, I already do the keyword thing and type it in my phone, but since I'm not taking notes, I can *try* to remember those keywords instead. My memory is surprisingly bad, ha ha. I remember better by trying to "relive" the dream before I fall asleep, but trying to DEILD means I'm doing this anyways, and unfortunately falling asleep before it sinks in I'll give the key words a shot instead, I might surprise myself and remember better than I think!

I'm still having trouble keeping my eyes closed when I wake up and remembering to DEILD. But I had an interesting experience last night that I'm wondering if it was HI or just a dream? I am pretty sure I was asleep, I felt like I had been asleep, but I woke up and my body wasn't shaking hard, but it wasn't soft vibrations, more like something in the middle, and I saw six different scenes in front of me (I couldn't concentrate on any one so I can't tell you what the scenes were of, just that I was baffled that I saw them all at the same time) it was like someone had taken three tv and stacked up on top of each other, then pushed them up against a stack of three other tvs. Only, I felt like I was somehow in all six places at once, I wondered, "Am I dreaming?" then everything faded to black. Then it happened a second time and I rolled over because it was so disorienting the only thing I could think of was I need to roll over and make this stop! I rolled over, and at the same moment my daughter rolled in her bed and rolled right out of bed. I jolted, then jumped up really quick and ran to her, so I wasn't in sleep paralysis. I'm not sure if I had woken up, and then felt those things because I was drifting back to sleep and about to successfully DEILD, or if those things just happened in a dream and I was dreaming I was DEILDing or what, lol. Anyways, I thought it might be progress, and I'd report in

Also for RCs, I'm doing a LOT more now because I was able to find a ring that was given to me in a dream, and buy it The ring has been in a few dreams, so it's like a dream sign, and now that I've finally found one like it and it arrived Yesterday, I'm reality checking every time I see it or feel it. I'm also finding it's really heightening my awareness because I can't help but wonder when I see or feel it, "Am I dreaming? Because this thing was originally only in my dreams..." That didn't give me any DILDs last night, but I'm sure it will soon if I keep up this awareness, lol.

Hey mydera, I've had an experience like your before with the TVs. Only in mine it wasn't 6 TVs, it was like a mini movie screen and it was shoved straight up in my face. It even had an old fashioned sound to it like an old projector, and was in b&w and depicted some old turn of the century scene. Anyway the point is, it was preceded by vibrations, and kept coming and going. I finally did slip into a DEILD chain after that as a result. So I think you may have done so yourself except your falling daughter woke you up completely. Anyway, that's just my 2 cents on that.

As for the ring story, that is so cool! Does the one you bought really look just like the one from your dreams? Can I see it?! I think that is badass that you know own something you only ever saw before in a dream. There's only one thing that I want to have in real life that I dreamed about. It was a treehouse that I dreamed of when I was like 5 or 6. It had a yellow flag on top, and you could get to it from a zip line. And it had teal carpet. Anyway, I thought about building one some day. Talk about a huge RC haha!