Thread: Need advice from anyone knowledagble and experienced in the chakras!

I know this is not the forum for this post. I have been here long enough to know that for this sort of thing I need a yogic forum of some sort. But this is an emergency, and I'm hoping perhaps someone here can help me.

I have been meditating on the chakras per the instructions from the book, "Deep Meditation" by Michal Levin. Moved up to the second or sacrem chakra. This is a confusing place for me, crystallized, not frozen. Ayhunna, my spirit guide (a fox) helps me by barking at things and breaking up or weakening the crystals. I can't use my energy on the trees to release them yet. I tried once and it fell apart, turned into dust - whatever phrase you would use here. Like something that has had access to no water for a long time and has had its shape held, but it's really quite fragile.

Anyhow Ayhunna led me to the nearby stream for my first meditation here, and I used my energy on the water, to free it and begin to break up the crystals. Today we worked on 3 (I think) waterfalls. The last came from a huge, very wide, very deep, crystallized lake. Ayhunna barked while I tried my usual kneeling down, placing hands on it, sending energy into the water to free it. I knew somehow it was not enough. So I stepped back and formed a ball of energy in my hands and sent that down into the lake, expanding the energy from there. Cracks appeared, but I had the definite sense that it was still not enough. The other times I knew that what I was doing would work. It wasn't just me seeing it working, I felt it. Very hard to explain. This time it felt like I was being told that it's not enough, it won't work, not an inner criticizing voice, nothing like that, a sense that what I had, in essence, brought a hammer when I needed a wrecking ball.

I went to the waterfall that came from here and, with much use of energy, freed that, causing water to go around the edges of the lake, breaking up the crystal, letting the water do the rest of the work. I knew somehow this was how I should do it. I flopped down and rested with Ayhunna, who was also exhausted. I sensed he wanted to be scratched behind the ears. I know he, whoever, whatever he is is in an animal form, a wild animal form at that, and is not to be seen as a pet. But this felt wanted or perhaps needed this afternoon.

I tried to bring the sacrem chakra back down, but for the first time it had expanded. It was a huge ball compared to its original size. I think maybe the energy I used expanded it somehow. I focused on it for a while, seemed to compact it back to ts original shape in some way, brought it down, had some trouble turning it and the root off, sense the root needed work, but I knew somehow I had no energy to work anymore on either of them. Managed to get them all to shut off after a few attempts.

This is where the trouble happened. I tried to do my usual energy sending/projection mental movie. In it I see the faces of my family and closest friends, as well as three people here in the forums I try to help. I see their faces, pull back to reveal a crowd of connected people, and focus on a sign that says, "Friends and Family." Then I come back to myself, forgive and ask forgiveness as needed, tell everyone I love them and want the best for them, then I come back to the sign (this is important, I can't do it from where I am standing, because it feels wrong, like I am depending on myself or something), and from there I go up into the "sky" (it's usually dark in the area and the sky is always cloudy) to go into the light, where I can direct it down into everyone, including myself, and through the threads of negative energy, transforming them, to anyone connected in some way to my group of family and friends. I feel like what I am doing here is actually going through the astral realm to the higher, what are called vibratory states, and drawing down the light energy from that.

Anyhow tonight, for the first time in the months since I started doing this, there was no light to draw down. Recently I've been taking Ayhunna up with me. Tonight he was attacked by lightning bolts. Now I think I have felt some resistance to bringing Ayhunna up with me before, so I will not bring him when I run this movie anymore. Since I felt he was in danger, I sent him back down and went alone. No more lighting bolts, but no energy whatsoever. I know something is wrong here. I used a memory of sending energy to finish the movie, sending some to Ayhunna as well, then ended my meditation. But I feel slightly dizzy, strange, nothing I have felt before. I feel something is wrong but I do not know what it is. I had always assumed I was directing God's energy to everyone, showing positive, loving intent. Now I am wondering if I have been drawing on my own energy all along.

There isn't any book covering this that I know of. I am very lost here and need to figure out if I have done something wrong, and how to correct it. Normally this question would be directed to a yogic teacher. But I have no access to one here. I will look for a forums where this sort of thing is addressed by a yogic teacher, but I thought I should give this forums a try since the need for assistance feels urgent right now. If you happen to have a teacher in the yogic tradition who you think could help me please send me their contact information, with their permission, via PM.

Thank you, I really would appreciate your help!
- DreamBliss