Had some lucids while on vacation
Aug 27th: I accidentally summoned a pretty decent looking Lome and got busy...finally. Not posting details this time, sorry. HEY, it's privaaaaaaaate.
Aug 29th: Had 2, forgot the first one. But in the second one, I summoned Robert. I kissed him on my bed, then his face disappeared, then I woke up. Dernit.
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Then last night I had this really depressing dream. Robert spent the night (irl) and it was the first time I got to see him in a little over a week, so I guess I was just purging some left over insecure crap in the dream. Anyway, it went like this:
Robert and I were shopping at some retarded Steinmart looking place. We were just talking when I felt the pocket of my jeans and I could feel something in there. I knew what it was, dreadfully, and I reached inside only to pull out the shiny, glittery carved rock heart I had given to him yesterday irl. I knew right away that he had slipped it back into my pocket without me knowing. It hurt TREMENDOUSLY knowing that he had just arbitrarily given it back, especially since it was without explaination and he had tried to do it all sneaky. Oh, and before that, when we were looking around, he told me "Hey I think I'm going to go into work today afterall" when he had just said we would spend the day together. And for a split second I thought I would get to go with him, but then he said "And I should go alone so I can get some work done, so you should stay home." And then the heart-rock thing. So, when I realized he gave back the heart, I ran out of the store, but I could see him running behind me, trying to catch up. So then I ran faster, then darted out a side door without him noticing. I ran down the road as fast as I could, until I knew he was no longer behind me. I then apparently moved to a different city without telling him. Then later on in the dream, we were emailing back and forth, and he was trying to get me to tell him where I had moved. I wouldn't tell him, but I agreed to send him pictures of my new place. He said he would figure out where I was based on the pictures. I said "Yeah right, good luck ." Then he said he'd never give up trying to find me. Then I woke up.
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAWP

Like that but a bit darker and glittery and smooth. I had originally bought it for a friend, but never gave it to him. So I just kept it in my pocket. Kinda like, wearing my heart on my sleeve as it were. Kinda retarded. But it became like, something that was just always there. Then I just spontaneously gave it to Robert last night. All I knew is that I just really really wanted him to have it.
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