Queen Zukin's Dream Journal

Dream #1: Camping Misadventure

I was at a music festival whose parking & camping strategy was...interesting. The parking/camping areas were alongside a narrow, curvy mountain road. There were probably only 5 or 6 spaces at every bend of the road. Kestrel and I finally found a space to park and then set up our things. We discovered that down the side of the mountain there was a beautiful beach - the only problem was getting there. The edge of the mountain was very steep and the path down was often blocked by falling trees. There was a set of stairs down the mountain but it had not been maintained and they were falling apart.

When we finally got down to the beach, we met with some other people but then I suddenly realized I was having a....feminine crisis. :paranoid:

I darted for the restroom to take care of the impending crisis. The port-a-potties were set up so that there were multiple toilets per stall (this should be a dream sign by now...) and I really wished that I could have some privacy, but alas there was none.

Dream #2: Hallway fragment

Sitting in a hallway with at least 10 other peers, waiting on a professor.

My thesis is coming up in about a week so I'm taking a short leave of absence as my mind can't concentrate on both being anxious and remembering my dreams. :p

THESIS COMPLETE

Dream 1: Work Fragment

I dreamed I was working at a male fashion model company with Dom, except the entire building was quickly filling up with water. Though no one really seemed to care we just went about our work day swimming from office to office.

Dream 1: Advice from my Subconscious

I was watching a movie from within the movie. It was supposed to be a very famous action movie - but it was taking place inside my grandma's house. I thought this was super strange and interesting, she never told me that a movie was filmed in her house! That - or by some extreme chance the movie set looked exactly like her house. Thinking about these odds made me do a reality check and I discovered that I was dreaming.

From the window I could see that it was night time outside, which meant it was going to be dark and bleak AF outside, which is significantly less fun than when it is sunny in a lucid dream.

I walked over to the door, and noticed that there was writing on it in cursive: Your dream is what you make it.

I realized that this was some solid advice from my subconscious. I have some problems finding myself trapped in dark places in lucid dreams (which I have been wondering if this could be also my subconscious trying to tell me something - is there something "dark" in my life that I need to face?). I opened the door, and of course it was night time outside. I flew up to the sky, but I was taken aback in amazement that there was a pink aurora hovering near the ground!

I flew closer to the ground and near a castle that was sitting next to a dark sea. I decided I wanted to summon a dragon and ride it. I summoned it from the depths of the black sea. It was beastly looking. I climbed upon it, but woke up.

Dream #2: Aubrey

I fell asleep again after awakening from the last lucid and fell into a new lucid dream. I was standing in front of a beautiful girl and I decided to kiss her. She kissed me and told me that her name was Aubrey - but then seemed taken aback. Suddenly I was surrounded by dream characters that I had "wronged." I was still lucid, but intensely interested in the dream plot that was unfolding around me. I admired how intelligent and real all of the dream characters seemed.

I got bored with that after awhile and hooked up with a mildly sexy man.

Wow it's been awhile...I can't say for certain if I'm back, but there are some things I would like to work on, that need to be worked on in my dreams. The craziest, busiest parts of my life are over (cheers, residency!), so maybe I can take some time again to get back into doing what I love. Since I got into lucid dreaming at a younger age I've continued having lucid dreams despite not practicing, but since I haven't been working on recall my dreams have been blurry and my lucid dreams dark [nothing has changed from my last post here 2 years ago...]. During my residency I saw darker aspects of myself that I try to keep hidden, but now I feel like I am suffocating part of myself instead. My plan for the next few months (or years) is to work on going into the darker aspects of my dreams. What makes me tick? What can my shadow self teach me?

Going into the void...

No lucid dreams last night, though I did have a dream about going blind in my left eye. I think that this dream was induced by some concern of some visual issues that I have been having with that eye (I'm getting old, man...). It was a very restful sleep overall though, so despite not a lot of recall I am still thankful for the sleep that I got. <3

OK it finally happened, the journey has begun

In the first part of the dream, I was at my grandmother's house with my friends. I don't remember entirely what we were doing, but I tried to flip on a light switch but it wasn't working. This is my ultimate dream sign - I did a reality check - dreaming. Of course it dreams like this, when I can't turn on a light switch, it means it's usually dark and mildly scary, and this was no exception. I know that there is something out there in the dark though that I need to see, I can't just fly away like I usually do. I walk outside, where it is darker and I can't see much. The dream destabilizes. I'm over by the fence now, but I'm also floating in a space-like void. The dream further destabilizes, sometimes I can see things clearly, and when I do, I see that I'm thousands of miles above the earth. I summon a pink surfboard, and surf around the planets.

Some other dreams:
-In an airport-like structure, but watching a rocket take off right next to us

~At a small Halloween festival for children - need to collect a certain amount of eggs. Festival started off with concert - wanted to dance but everyone was sitting and the attention was focused on a dancer on the stage. My 'parents' were uncomfortable with the festival.
~At work, not able to log in correctly, was the only staff member there so things were backing up
~Dancing while flying, having a blast
~Staircase, upside down

Task of the Year: Task 1

I was in Germany with Kes, I was trying to take a picture of her in front of an old building with trees. I was struggling to get the frame right and took a dozen or so pictures. We decide that we want to eat a small lunch somewhere, so we go to a double-decker restaurant that sits on a pier off of a river. I am feeling like getting a drink too, so I offer to buy us a round of drinks. Kes decides to get a white wine and I select a brown ale off of the menu. There aren't any prices listed, but they must be reasonable, right?

I walk to the bar to order the drinks. When I order my beer, I notice that it comes in a huge glass container, as if I were buying a bottle of scotch. There is a price tag that states "$121." What?!!

"Wow, I didn't realize this beer cost that much," I exclaim to the bartender, "It's good at least, right?"

"Oh, yes - quite great."

Whatever, I think. We're on vacation and it seems like it contains the volume of several beers. I begin to pay and ask, "What does it taste like?"

"Watered down garbage, it's awful," the bartender slyly replies. By now, my card has already processed the payment and there isn't any turning back. I'm so angry at the bartender for misleading me. I angrily take my stupid drinks back to our table. Kes has transformed into Michael. As we drink, I tell Michael that I have an appointment I need to go to, and he is free to come with me. I need to meet up at a large lecture hall for a gathering of former study abroad students from across the globe.

There are at least 300 people at this lecture - it's huge. The presenters aren't very exciting, but I hear them mention something about a student who was abducted in Africa and later found dead.

Michael loudly blurts out of nowhere, "So wait is she alive or not?" My heart stops as 300 people look over at us and make disgruntled faces. After hearing several side conversations about how rude the question was, someone else shouts, "Who else here is confused about this lecture?" About half the attendees raise their hands.

Side conversations begin developing, with a lot of things mentioned being culturally insensitive. I am so disappointed that these people, who have studied in different nations, continue to hold these viewpoints. But the tipping point occurs when someone says, "Deaf people don't need ASL - they don't deserve to be seen or heard." I get so angry that I spill my shitty beer EVERYWHERE and stand up on a table about to tell them off. In the process of standing up on the table I hover a little, which makes me realize that I am dreaming.

I fly across the lecture hall when I realize that I should do the first task of the year. I fly through several walls, looking for a good environment to cause cheeky destruction. I fly through several offices and decide to start here.

I ask several office workers, "What's my superhero name?" None of them seem too enthused to answer my question and either ignore me or spout gibberish. I decide that I will need to victimize my dream characters individually.

I walk up to an obese, middle-aged, balding man and ask him what my superhero name is. He looks at me unimpressed like I should already know the answer.

"Butts," He said, "But I don't know how to spell it." He walks away to work the fax machine. I giggle and think that maybe I should ask a dream character that has more significance to me, like my dream guide. But also...what the hell...Let's try another random dream character!

I walk up to a lady in a very very tiny cubicle and ask her what my superhero name is. She seems like the lady here to help! My superhero name pops up on the screen: Miran65.

"But it's pronounced Miraz," she states. Whatever, I can take that. Better than Butts.

"What's my superhero power?" I ask

"You can pull boobs out of closets."

WHAT. LOL. What does that even mean??????? I start laughing in the dream, oh boy.

"OK - awesome! Now I need a superhero suit!" I exclaim. She smiles, and points to a device across the room. It looks like some weird exercise machine. She explains that I lay on my back on the floor while she pushes a lever up between my legs. As the lever pressurizes the machine, a superhero suit will appear on my body. Steamy!

I strip down to my underwear while she runs my information with her coworkers. I can see on her screen all of my aliases, including Butts. OMG lol.

I have some trouble escaping my feet from the bottom of my skinny jeans, which I totally expected. I stabilize the dream and continue. The machine is ready for me!

I lay down on the device. She pushes the lever between my legs. A screen appears, counting down from 45 seconds. I was so giddy at this point and hoping that the dream would last long enough for me to see the results.

Steam appeared around me as my superhero suit materialized on my body. I LOOKED DOWN AND COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I WAS SEEING.

I was wearing a shirt - a targeted T-shirt (if you don't know what that is - click here.)

I have created a picture of what my shirt looked like for your viewing pleasure.

https://i.imgur.com/3Erg3Q2.png

I could not believe my eyes. I haven't even thought about targeted shirts in at least a year. Where in the depths of my dark consciousness is this coming from?!

Oh also - I wasn't wearing any pants. Just some pink undies. I guess this is my superhero costume, y'all. A targeted t-shirt and pink undies.

Dream me was literally rolling on the ground laughing. My subconscious has always been cheeky, but this was a new low.

After gathering myself I asked the friendly secretary lady if she could show me how my powers worked. I was lead outside to a steam punky world on top of roofs, but unfortunately the dream ended here.

Also, I'm doing these tasks in order without looking at the next one, so god help me please on what's to come...



Boring Dream

Dream starts on a staircase - I think it's my birthday or something, we are celebrating. There is a mixed drink on each staircase step. We go out to a bar and drink, some friends and I want to go back to the staircase to pick up our unfinished drinks, but we don't want to literally be drinking and driving back to the bar.

A visit from my dream guide

I was camping with a large group of friends in an enormous tent on a large hill. It was the morning, so I went outside where most of my camp companions were already getting ready for the day.

To my right suddenly appeared an intense presence. I immediately recognized this presence as my dream guide. It's been at least a decade since I've made legit contact with him/her/it, but the presence was so recognizable it instantly made me lucid. Recognizing an opportunity, I asked, "what do I need to do to be happy?"

She looked at me, smiled, and said - "you're already there. You just need to be grateful." And then she disappeared.

woah :boggle:

I spent the rest of the dream flying and dancing [at the same time, obviously :P]