Thread: Queen Zukin's Dream Journal

swamp life

in the marshy warm wetlands where the frogs still croak
i'm standing on an old brick bridge
watching your life go on
those who I love are standing around me
I jump off the bridge and plummet into the water
the seaweed between my toes
I rise up anew

This is not a dream, but a personal rant. I'm posting it here, because maybe I'll finally understand.
I need to stop with this self-doubt bullshit. It's gone out of control.
I told myself, and I tell myself over and over again; if it works this time, it's for real.
and every goddamned time, I still don't believe myself.
My heart stops every time I see/hear someone having the same dream as me
even though I should totally be expecting it by now??
And I don't even tell them, for some weird reason.
I decided to do Nomad's RV experiment, to test myself
Immediately, I thought:
SCISSORS, TAPE, TAPE, SCISSORS, TAPE.
And I couldn't get the goddamned thought out of my head.
I was 100% certain, without a doubt, at at least one of those was an object.
But I thought no, it can't be. So I remained silent.
Oh look, I was half fucking right.
What the serious fuck, Zukin?
I already know it doesn't even matter how much I prove it to myself
I'll just go in circles of doubt.
^Also the prologue as to Why Zukin Never Posts Outside her Domain
[/end of psychotic rant]

attention span
I'm chilling out, looking at something in a bedroom, when I decide to become lucid. Whatever the hell I'm looking at really has my attention, because even though I'm clearly lucid idgaf about doing anything else, but staring at what has my fascination. I even look out the window, think about flying out of it into the clear blue sky, but nope, I'd rather stand here and stare at this thing (ironically, I don't remember what it was).

back again

I was back in Schwabisch Hall, enjoying myself. I was running up the little alley ways and the stairs and the cobblestone roads, so happy to be there again.

sweet love

I was making out with a dorm-mate, feeling the sweet touch of his lips.

face kick

I was talking with my ex, Izam, about why he left me for a midget (I kid you not). He said that she was amazing in bed. I told him that if she ever annoyed me at LARP, I would kick her in the face.

Later in the dream, I was practicing my high kicks (teheehee), and then discovered that if I kicked hard enough, I could get enough momentum going to actually do a backflip. That was pretty badass.

Spoiler for Nomad's RV Experiment Week 2 :

I forget when the results are going to be posted, and I don't want to visit the post since I don't want any subconscious influence.
This is what I've got so far:
One of them is some kind of rock. Or, at least something hard like a rock. I keep seeing white, but I'm not sure where that's coming from.
I'm having a really hard time seeing the second object, like I'm being blocked from it or something.

Back, again, Happiness

I was in Tübingen, Germany again. I couldn't believe it, I was so happy. I wanted to run up and down the streets, eat a döner kebab, eat the best ice cream ever again, visit the bookstores...I did like five reality checks, bursting with excitement when each of them failed indicating that this wasn't a dream.

I just want to take my final

I was stuck in an apartment with a bunch of hardcore druggies. I had a final exam that I had to go to in an hour. These weirdos were running in circles and getting high and just being strange. The apartment was so dilapidated that I had to crawl out the window to get out, because the front door was jammed shut with insulating foam.

ohhh back, I got two new piercings sp I couldn't sleep well for a few nights but whatever
also a little zukin tipsy

The corpses

I lived in this bigass mansion with my mom, and it was evil as fuck. Around the mannsion was a giant stone fence, like 3 feet in diameter. The neighborhood kids told me that our stone fence was totally haunted, so of course I went to investiage. I went inside the stone fence, because it was that big, and there were corpses of children inside of it!! There was also a secret door and a bunch of curses written on the wall. Well my mom wanted to renovate, and everyone knows that renovating totally awakens spirits, so I told her she shouldn't mess with that part of the stone wall. She didn't believe me that there were corpses inside of our fence, so she had to check it out herself.

I killed some people, all while naked

I was watching on the news that someone last night went totally wild and killed some people on a train track. The news station didn't seem to care about the murder victims though, the only thing they seemed to focus on was that the murderer did it while she was naked. I recognized my hair in one of the scenes and realized that I killed those people. I wasn't sure how I felt about it.

pissing off the gods

I was in a minecraft sort of dream, where I moved to a new town on the coast and decided to make a house on the water out of old car parts. Well when nightfall came, Poseidon came out from the ocean and apparently he was really pissed and so he decided to knock our house down and eat my friends. Well that sucked, so I flew away. I flew across landscapes until I came to some beautiful mountains where gnomes lived. I settled down there with the gnomes, but then the Lorax came out from the forest, but it wasn't really the Lorax, it was like a zombie-human Lorax with blue flesh rotting off his face. Despite that, he was actually pretty cute. So we made love in the shower.

I don't know why I only remember to post my dreams when I am half drunk. this needs to stop.

love to be assassinated by you

I was a store owner of a small shop that sold all things glass. Glass trinkets yeah all that jazz. Two assassins walked into my store, two very sexy assassins. They broke all of my glass waving their swords around (heh heh heh), but I wasn't even pissed. i knew they were here to kill me, so I was like, ohh my honor . I made out with one of the sexy assassins and then was killed, but the feeling of dying in this dream was pretty awesome actually.

vanishing away

I was walking along a path in the woods with a friend when I felt something amiss.

Something, physically nudging me to turn around and go in the other direction. I resisted. I started seeing glimpses of spirits and hearing their voices and the nudging became stronger until I could barely pull through. I fell to the ground. He picked me up and carried me, but it was only getting worse.

I was taken home, but I knew that there was something inside me. I was losing control of my body, but I was also able to move stuff with my mind. I started getting violent towards other people and violent towards myself. I wanted to go somewhere safe, so during a brief moment of lucidity I flew to a mental hospital and tried to restrain myself, but the spirit inside of me undid what I did and went berserk. I think I died here, but I started traveling with spirits of different colors, green blue red etc.

wrong shade

I was getting my hair dyed, but it came out the wrong shade of red. In fact, it wasn't even red at all. It was brown. I was pretty disappointed.

yuckiness

I was at my grandmother's house when I noticed that my ear piercings were looking really yucky. In the dream I had a dermal cartilage punch, and it wasn't looking good at all. It wasn't helping that I didn't have any of my jewelry in either and all of them were going to be a pain in the ass to put back in in this state.

machu picchu

I randomly woke up in Peru, at the machu pichhu. I was in a temple, I looked out the window. There was another temple on a really tall mountain, connected by a sole swinging bridge. I decided to go walk to it. As I got closer, I realized how high I was up in the air, like pretty much at cloud level. I could look down at the rest of Peru as if I was in a plane. Yiiiiikes. The swinging bridge was really long, but if I could make it to the over side, that temple looked really interesting to explore. There was probably a mile or so drop from the swinging bridge if I fell, and did I mention that the swinging bridge didn't have any hand rails? I probably got a solid 5 feet through the bridge before my right foot fell through one of the planks. I decided right then and there that I shouldn't go any further.

flying

I woke up from the last dream covered in writing. WTF? And it definitely wasn't my own writing. I did a reality check - dreaming. I went upstairs and out the front door. A layer of snow blanketed the back yard. I flew up into the air and through the very very chilly clouds. The clouds looked dark and spooky. I went further and there were people in the clouds haha. And then I saw a giant Jesus sitting in a rocking chair sewing lol.

magic postcard

I DEILD'd into this dream

A man was sitting in front of me writing a postcard. He gave it to me and there was a message on the back saying that this was a magic postcard that could communicate with inanimate objects. I got up from the desk and decided to play around with this magic postcard. I held it up to a plant, and the picture on the front of the postcard shifted to a garden and the writing on the back of it changed too. Sometimes the picture was pretty unrelated and often hilarious. But it was pretty funny to see what each object "had to say."

stringy lavender

I also DEILD'd into this dream

I was sitting on the back porch. There were long strings of lavender-like seaweed hanging from the sky. It was actually really beautiful, and I walked up to touch it. It felt magical and I pulled off a piece. It was still really wet from the storm.

Drowning

I was riding my bike on a sidewalk near the edge of a lake, when I had to quickly brake since there was a car blocking my path. I braked too hard, and my bike and I fell sideways, into the ditch, and into the water. In the process, my foot got tangled in the wheel spokes and I couldn't get it out. The waves in the lake started picking up, dragging me out to the middle of the lake with basically a 50 pound anchor tied to my foot. I tried to keep swimming and stay afloat, but the weight of the bicycle was winning.

Out of nowhere, a guy came into the lake after me. He didn't seem to be in a hurry, but knew I needed help. He rescued me from certain death.

cottage cheese ears

My pierced ears were so infected, that they had large holes all over the cartilage. It was so gross. But then I noticed that the infected had spread into the ear canal and there was blood everywhere. Yuck.

always lucid

I was sitting on the driveway enjoying the nice summer heat. I started thinking about the fact that I kind of always know that I am dreaming, yet I really never act on it. I wondered why, and thought how much easier it is sometimes to just go on with the dream...it's sometimes just a bit more restful. I have really bad insomnia, aka I never sleep anymore, so to be asleep is a blessing.

einstricken aliens

My family and I moved into a new house, but the neighborhood was really weird. There was a hippie girl that kept hanging around our house, whispering weird things. She told us that her dead body was stuck inside the house. And then she wrote "einstricken aliens" in the snow. A bunch of black aliens came and suffocated us, then we went to a parallel universe.

microwave doors

I discovered that I had the ability to close microwave doors telekinetically. And then I realized that this was just a dream, lol.

don't kill him

I was with two other friends, standing by my neighbor's house. We saw him hit a dog with a baseball bat. My friend became so angered that he pulled out a gun, I screamed to him not to kill him. The internal struggle was evident on his face. He pulled the trigger.

So, I'm going polyphasic again, because I don't sleep anymore anyways, and maybe it will help with my insomnia. I'm not going to do uberman again, but some variation of everyman. I don't really plan on having a set schedule yet, I'll just sleep and nap in smaller chunks and see where it goes from there, I guess. Anything is better than the insomnia I've been having for these past months.

Loki wants my magical rocks

Loki was stalking my family, and trying to turn them into rocks so that he could harvest their souls. I teleported my family to a public pool, cause we'd be safe there since Loki can't go into pools, apparently.

i've been doing this weird thing lately
called, uh, sleeping
it's totally strange
i havent done this for years

I dreamed that i got the part of Malfoy in the next Harry Potter movie. I was confused at how I even remotely resemble him, but was reassured that this would "totally work."

I must be really desperate, cause I had a dream that I did it with a hobbit. Actually, he was really good.

Ahoy there! Glad to see you're still around, I hope these past few years of dreaming have treated you well.
Also, your last few dreams are hilarious!

Originally Posted by Wildman

Ahoy there! Glad to see you're still around, I hope these past few years of dreaming have treated you well.
Also, your last few dreams are hilarious!

Hey you how've you been?

I just got back from New Mexico. Nothing really intense happened in the dreaming department, though I kept dreaming that I needed to turn in an essay in German.

Originally Posted by Queen Zukin

Hey you how've you been?

I just got back from New Mexico. Nothing really intense happened in the dreaming department, though I kept dreaming that I needed to turn in an essay in German.

Been good, but busy with the whole life thing, so sadly my (lucid) dreaming has suffered . I really need to get back on the horse!

Originally Posted by Wildman

Been good, but busy with the whole life thing, so sadly my (lucid) dreaming has suffered . I really need to get back on the horse!

I totally feel you! University hogs up all my time. I havent kept a physical dream journal for ages :s maybe we could get back on the horse together :p

Eh last night I only remember something about running in a very dark and blue environment. I remember thinking that this was probably a dream.