Queen Zukin's Dream Journal

Fuck OFF!

I was with an ex of mine, we will call him Raphael.

I was in my campus house, showing him around and having a decent conversation. We went up to my room and he started trying to make advances towards me but I kept turning him down. I could see he was getting rather frustrated so I thought this might be the time to say goodbye for him today.

Before I could get those words out, he grabs me and throws me to the floor. I try to push him off but his weight against mine is overpowering.

I scream and claw at the floor trying to get him off.

"GET THE FUCK OFF!" I scream as loudly as possible, hoping a housemate would hear.

He smirks and tries to take my pants off.

I scream a blood curling scream again, still trying to claw my way to the door.

I keep screaming as loudly as I can. My throat aches from the pain. But it seems like no one can hear.

With all of my strength, I reach for the door knob and yank the door open, still screaming for help.

Down the hallway I can see some of my housemates talking to each other, but they seem impassive to my screams.

Ferris Wheel

I was driving randomly on some unknown road. I didn't know where I was going, but it really didn't matter anyways.

I saw an amusement park and decided to visit. Everyone was with their friends but I was alone. I didn't seem to care.

I had never heard of this amusement park before. It looked really old and the rides looked as if they had been there for ages.

I went on a couple of roller coasters. Their tracks were thin and rusty and the curves were jolting.

I saw a ferris wheel, so I decided to take a break from the rollercoasters to ride that.

I expected it to be relaxing.

The ferris wheel took off quickly, slamming my body into the side of the car. The speed was increasing and I couldn't stay down in my seat.

I grabbed onto the railing as the speed increased. The g-forces were causing me to fly out of my seat. I was hanging on to the cart with just one hand, seconds from death if I let go.

While in this peril situation, I looked around. It was actually beautiful.

I could see the grassy horizon twisting and turning out of control as I flew upside down and back up again. I felt like a bird out of control, or an acrobat falling to her death.

Minecraft Mountain of Hell

I was in a minecraft city, and on the far end of it was a giant gray mountain.

I climbed up the mountain and then realized that there was a mine cart leading down it. The mine cart track was rough and had a lot of quick turns and steep drops.

I went back into the city, now driving a car, and kept getting into car accidents over and over again. I realized that I could score extra points if I crashed into the ambulances that were coming to save me.

I think I slept like 16 hours last night...

I remember one dream about being lucid. I achieved lucidity because I realized that I had dreamed this before, and it was actually a long term recurring dream, but I forgot what it was.

You got your chemicals wrong

I realized I was in some kind of psychiatry office. I had been blabbering on and on for awhile, just now regaining normal consciousness. The psychiatrist was looking at me, very concerned.

In front of me was a blue pill and a pill container labeled ADP. I asked her what this was.

She told me it was a new kind of drug that they gave for their patients that didn't have phosphate in it.

I gave her a confused look at examined the ingredients. ADP, adenosine diphosphate.

"There is obviously phosphate in this drug, it's clearly in the name," I pointed out.

"Oh, so I guess your right," she responded and then told me it was time to go. Her office opened up into a giant cafeteria.

Dense Gelatin

A scientist and I had discovered how to enter into outer space using a "super low frequency super compact energy" portal. If you used it, you would travel threw a square blue vortex. I put my hand close to the super compact energy rings and it felt that it was super hot.

The scientist touched it. He was immediately electrocuted.

I ran for help when I began to hear a faint moaning noise in the background.

The super-low-frequency-super-compact-energy portal had killed the scientist, and then resurrected him from the dead.

He was now a zombie!!

So of course the first thing to do about this situation was to call up some friends and hang out with our new found zombie friend.

We realized he wasn't capable of any emotion. Except he was REALLY good at throwing things. At people. And trying to kill them.

We started running from the scientist zombie, who especially liked to chase after people riding bikes.

I'm not sure where he was getting them, but he loved to kill people with sledgehammers.

My friends and I hopped the fence to a party and started dancing.

I listened to the words of the song, and it went like this:

THIS PARRRRTTTYY

IT'S - IT'S LIKE
DENSE GELATIN

IT'S - IT'S LIKE
A MATTRESS

THIS PAARRRRTYYYY

Sexy dreams

I was at a party and was passing out from being so drunk. I fell asleep on someone's bed, and then woke up to watching people having sex in the closet.

More people were joining so I thought this would be an opportune time to slip out of the room.

In the next part of the dream I was with Izam. We were heading back to campus and when we got home, for some reason, we were just fornicating all over the place and we were trying to last all day. :chuckle:

Trapped at the Mall

I had gone with some girls to the mall. It was already the evening when we left.

They were looking at clothes and I think there was some tensions between one of the girls and I. I started running and then she started chasing after me. I wasn't sure if I was about to get the shit beat out of me, or if this was just for fun.

I hid in the bathroom, which I discovered was also a hotel.

A few hours later, I realized that it was already one in the morning, so I called up my friends to see if they had already left.

"Oh, we left along time ago. Are you still there?" She asked.

"Yes, and I'm trapped here too because the buses don't run this late into the night."

"Stay there, we'll come to get you," she replied. I already knew she wasn't coming, so I decided to walk around and get into trouble.

I walked out into the middle of the mall and saw that the roof opened up into a giant archway and lead to an amusement park.

It was daytime again but there was nobody at the amusement park. It was kind of creepy.

Oh shit, it's nearly been a week. :embarrassed:

Too Many Dogs

Izam wanted to show me his new apartment. When he opened the door, a bunch of dogs came out. There were dogs, cats, lizards, birds, etc. It was really overwhelming. He asked if I wanted to move in, but I was really hesitant due to all of the animals.

Red Dragon

I was on an edge of a mountain and it was raining really hard. Around the corner I spotted a red firey dragon. I had to either turn back or fight it. My friend and I fought the red dragon, nearly dying ourselves. There was a weird snake monster in the cave too. I feel like I've dreamed this a few times.

pneumonia

grr

Haven't been sleeping much mainly cause I just can't. I have found a new shared dreaming partner though, Izam, so hopefully this can get underway soon.

Spoiler for HH1:

HH1

endeavor
will of the wisp
batman
come with me
drink you up
[sunset] no, maria, stop. please, maria, don't, please.

Dreaming of something very far away...white...

Slender

I wanted to try out a new video game with some friends. It was a horror-based virtual reality video game called Slender.

We started off in a white hallway that was underground. Everything was white.

There was a door at the end of the hallway. It had prison bars on it, but we couldn't open it because we needed a key.

We saw a woman that kept walking back and forth from inside the door to the hallway, but she wouldn't respond when we tried talking to her.

Finally, we realized that there wasn't an actual ceiling in the hallway that we were in, so we took turns giving each other a leg up into the adjacent room.

It was easy to see that this is where the game really began. It looked like the beginning of an old, haunted house.

We were in some kind of study.

I opened the desk drawers and found many notepads. Many pages were scribbled with the word HELP. Others had sketches of slender on them. Black sketches of slender eating peoples hearts.

In the other drawer were knives and blades. I told everyone to equip themselves with a knife.

We began looking around the house, staying together as one big group.

The wooden floors creaked and the wind hit violently against the house. We could sometimes see silhouettes of slender hidden in the shadows. We'd look away and when we looked back he'd be gone.

While looking through some old documents, I suddenly saw slender standing in front of me. I instantly looked away, but when I turned back he was still there. A wicked smile grew on his deathly white face, and I knew it was now that I needed to run.

I ran as fast as I could but felt like I couldn't run fast enough. I eventually made it back to the group. They could sense the terrified look in my eyes and knew that the game had stepped up a notch.

My friend sensed that I needed a break before I continued on, so we went up to the attic and sat on a wooden bench.

"I feel like it's going to find us up here, especially since we're remaining stationary," I whispered.

"No...it's a game. It will only appear if we're making progress," he quietly replied.

After about five minutes, I decided to join the group again. They had continued their quest.

I smelled weed.

"Did you guys smoke in here?" I asked.

"Uhhh...yeah," some of the guys replied.

"Shit's going to get real intense for you soon. How much further into the game did you get?" I asked.

"We're about to hold a seance," he replied.

I watched as they sat down at a table. They had prepared something in front of them that looked like foil. One of them lit a match to the foil construct and then all of them joined hands.

The chandelier began to gently rock back and fourth as purple sparks began to fly out of the foil. The microwave behind them turned on and in the hustle you could hear it whispering, "you stupid idiots. don't use nitrogen."

We didn't really know what that meant, but we assumed that we did the seance wrong. They were frustrated that they did it wrong since they had put so much effort into setting it up. They refused to carry it out again, and moved on to the next part of the game.

The next part took us into a grocery. I had a twin sister. We both knew that slender was watching us. We held hands and kept alert.

We saw his silhouette in the dark shadows. His thin tentacles reaching out. We looked away and looked down at the floor. No eye contact.

The grocery store was a maze and we couldn't find our way out. And slender was beginning to appear more and more often. His appearance was becoming threatening.

Suddenly, he stood before us. My twin sister let out a blood curling scream, and we ran. His long tentacles grabbed her by the abdomen and drew her near.

"RUN FOR IT!" She screamed.

I was at the check out line with my mother.

"Where's your sister?" She asked, slyly.

"I...don't know," I quietly responded. She let out a wicked smile and continued to unpack her groceries on the conveyor belt.

She had bought so many bananas. All of them were rotting.

On an intuitive guess, "...are you....slender?"

She looked up at me and smirked, "yes."

She let out her true form, which then became the writhed body of slender.

"What happened to my actual mother?"

"Her spirit is caught between two dimensions," he cryptically answered, "don't fight this now. You and your sister are mine. It's too late."

I had no idea where my sister was, but his statement made me realize that she must be alive somewhere. I had to wait for her, and then we could escape together.

The scene shifted and I saw my sister sitting with the other gamers that had been with us originally. They had been inflicted by Slender, but managed to escape. They were sitting in a dark, stone tunnel. They were exhausted and covered with dirt, but they were quietly discussing their escape plans.

Slender slowly creeped up on the group and his tentacles wrapped around the necks of every escapee. He released his anger, and all of their hearts exploded.

Blood went everywhere and in a matter of seconds, everyone was dead. Including my sister.

Slender looked down at the catastrophe he had created and smiled. But there was something there that he had not anticipated.

Laying on the dirt stone floor was my sister's beating heart. He looked back into her eyes. She was dead. But her heart was still beating.

There was some kind of emotion there. I can't identify it, but it was there. Slender placed her heart back into her open chest and sealed it up.

She was alive. But different.

She radiated with green.

She was now slender's "child". The original soul vanished, but in return a piece of slender's spirit was there instead.

Slender smirked at his creation.

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I had this dream about three more times before I finally woke up.

I had a dream that I figured out that my lost phone was making calls to an "international lost phone center" in California. I was really glad that someone turned in my phone, but I wondered why they bothered to send it all the way to California.

slept from 4am to 8am, no recalled dreams.

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:sleepmeditate2:

David

I was with Izam when a housemate told me that a guy named David needed to talk with me. He apparently lived across the street.

I knocked on the door and David answered. He ushered me in and lead me to his bedroom.

"I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me, Zukin. I really think we might have something. Do you think so?" He whispered with puppy eyes.

"...I don't know you..." I replied back, puzzled. He looked vaguely familiar, but other than that I was sure that I had never talked to him in my life.

"Stop playing. Yes you do. And you mean so much to me, so please stop that nonsense. Kiss me," he whispered and tried to learn over for a kiss. I dodged the kiss and got away from him.

"Look, David. You have a great personality and all, but I am already with someone else."

He pouted and then replied, "come with me."

I followed him and his friends into a shady bar. After that I knew it was immediately time to leave and went home.

Unfortunate

I was with Izam when he started manically speaking nonsense. He was talking fast and his thoughts were really disorganized. I had never seen him like this and was really shocked. I was really disappointed that this was the second time this has happened to me in a relationship.

Dream from 19th November -

All of my housemates got herpes. That wasn't too fun.

Slash

I just remembered this dream, so I thought I'd write it down now before I forgot.

I remember a really dark scene. I see a man dressed in a black cloak. He has a long silver scimitar. The scimitar has really intricate patterns engraved on it.

There is someone else standing in front of me in chains. They kneel before the man in the black cloak, and the cloaked man swiftly cuts them in half.

I am next.

I kneel before the cloaked man, and am slashed in half.

Edit: Remembered another dream.

Glass Vial

I was playing Amnesia. I was quietly sneaking through a sewer with a glass vial that I discovered. When I threw it at an object, it would break the object in half. I decided that I would use this against the zombie at the end of the hallway to make my escape.

Instead, a new monster appears. It is silver and looks like a strange alien. One slash and I am dead.

What a Thanksgiving

My housemates and I were having a Thanksgiving day feast. I really needed to pee, so I ran upstairs to a bathroom.

I saw that the shower in the bathroom was flooded with water...and there were fucking fish swimming around in the flooded water!

I started feeling really sick, so I ran to the other bathroom on the other side of the hall. I start coughing violently and found that a long hair of mine was stuck in my throat.

I kept pulling on the hair and more and more hair began to come out of my throat.

Giant clumps of black hair.

The Drop Off

I was in a Minecraft server.

I was standing in very deep snow. I was trying to climb a mountain in this very deep snow. Under the snow there were thorn bushes that I kept getting snagged on, and I would have to pull the thorns out of my skin.

I was trying to climb this mountain because I was told that there was a beautiful big drop off at the top of it that was absolutely beautiful.

Combine

I remember standing in some kind of dark, red and black arena like room. There was a giant circle in the middle and some kind of red orb.

I was looking for something, no clue what, but it was imperative and I remember the words Combine.

There were hallways branching out from this one black and red ritualistic room.

I shouldn't Be a Drunk Triver Truck Driver

Izam and I were truck drivers, apparently. And I really, really, really sucked ass at driving trucks on the freeway. I'm pretty sure, had this been real life, I would have killed several people.

This Relationship Has Gotten too Complicated

Izam and I, for some mystical reason beyond me, decided to open our relationship. Open in a sense of, inviting multiple sex partners over, at the same time. And then these sexual partners we also began to join our relationship. So not only was Izam my boyfriend, but so was this other guy that joined and two new girlfriends.

I was starting to really not like this situation, even though I think it had been my idea in the beginning. I felt jealous seeing Izam cuddling with other women. I thought maybe he was playing games and trying to make me jealous. So I decided that perhaps I should do the same and start nuzzling up to the other guy that was included in our relationship.

But I couldn't. :?

I really loved Izam too much to play any sort of games like that on him. So I was kind of stuck there taking a great deal of emotional pain while refusing to retaliate.

Crazy Driver

I was in the car with my mother and three other people. She was driving wildly down the dirt roads. We were going to be late for something.

Kayaking

My sister and I were trying to convince our mother to go kayaking with us.

No Evidence

I was being raped by someone that I knew and they kept telling me that I should get evidence against them while they were still here. As if they were trying to get themselves caught.

I refused. I didn't even turn them in.

Later in the day, my mother had gotten very drunk and wrote a mean spirited letter to me. It was heart breaking.

It was engraved into a table and other people could see it, but no one saw it like I did, even though there were some very harsh things written in the letter. They just shook it off like it was nothing.

Other Bed

I woke up in a different bed and wondered how I got there...

A collection of dreams from the past few nights

Blowtorch

I was standing on the driveway when a van pulls up to the house. Out of the van come around twenty of my classmates, who are wearing slutty party attire.

"Zukin, come with us to a party tonight!" One of them squealed.

"I think I'll pass," I replied.

My father looked disgustingly at the slutty attire and then pulled a blowtorch out from his garage. He turned it on and aimed the blowtorch at the guests and told them if they didn't leave his property immediately that he would torch them.

"Calm down, you are being ridiculous," I shouted at him. He was running towards a friend of mine with the blowtorch and I stepped in the way. He refused to turn off the blowtorch, so I got my eye fried out of the socket.

No Toilets

Over break, my housemates had decided to reconstruct the third floor. They removed all of the toilets and bathtubs, leaving only sinks.

Flying Away

I was on my plane overseas when the realness of it all began to hit me. I felt really nervous and suddenly very homesick.

Driving Lessons

My friend insisted that I teach him how to drive. We drove around the street, but it didn't take even that long to make me realize that he was a terrible driver. I told him he needed to get out of the car and have someone teach professionally him the very basics.

my mother and I both had dreams of having a cardinal as a pet.

Call in

I was called in to take someone's shift at my summer job that I had long since quit. I was surprised that I hadn't forgotten most of the the workings of the cash register.

Later in my shift, I forgot that I was supposed to be working and was aimlessly walking around the store. I realized that I should probably check when my shift ended, and I was horrified to discover that I still had a couple hours left to work.

This dream seemed to literally last all night, and I feel like I had many variations of it over and over again.

Nov 27

Collapsing House

I had just woken up and was looking out the window. I watched as a crow flew from the peak of the roof of our neighbors house when, suddenly, the entire house collapsed.

Holy shit.

I watched as a guy escaped from the top of the house. He ripped out some kind of air conditioning unit from the ruins of the top of the house and used one of the cables to drop himself down to the ground.

A giant shadow was beginning to appear over the house. I looked to the far left and instantly saw a fucking massive bulldozer heading towards their house. The bulldozer was at least 15 times the height of our three story house and just as wide.

I knew I had to get out of our house too, cause we were going to be in the way of total destruction.

Lost in Amusement Park

I was lost in the city and had found my way into an amusement park. I was standing on the roof of a tall building, trying to look out to the horizon to see if I could recognize any tall buildings. I noticed that there was an amusement park ride entrance right next to me. The ride was a simple rollercoaster cart, but without any handlebars or safety bars. The ride advertised itself as a free tour through the amusement park, so I hopped on as the only passenger.

It was a ride from hell. Little did I know that I had boarded a rollercoaster ride that actually shared tracks with some of the most extreme rollercoasters in the park. I was clinging onto life as I went upside down and through steep declines. It was pretty horrifying because it was so unsafe.

When I got off the ride I saw two hispanic children waiting. I told them that the ride wasn't safe and it was obviously still under construction.

I kept walking through the park, trying to find my way out. I got lost in the inner workings of the park, where it seemed that there was one massive control room for all of the rollercoasters. I went into a long orange hallway, representative of the orange rollercoaster that I had seen earlier. The floor was a mesh fabric and above me stood massive orange gears. I began to hear the rumbling of the engine starting up and the gears slowly began to twist. I realized quickly that there were also gears beneath the fabric floor when I began to fall and was nearly crushed by two intersecting gears. Somehow I managed to crawl my way out.

Gun to the Head

I was playing a video game and I couldn't seem to get past a scenario.

I was with some man, and we had something that a gang was after. I was trying to get past them. They had guns that they were firing at us, but it was clear that they wanted me alive, even though I was accidentally shot in a few of the attempts.

In one attempt, I ran into a hallway and found a gun on the floor. This had happened in every other attempt too, but I figured that because they wanted me to be alive, I could give myself an advantage. When they caught up to me and demanded me to give them whatever I had, I put the gun to my head.

They looked very shocked by the move I had just pulled on them. One of the gangsters decided to try to get me to move the gun away from my head by shooting at me, but in the process I accidentally shot myself and died.

No recognition?

I was with Izam, but I couldn't recognize him as my boyfriend. I could see his face clearly, that wasn't the problem, it was just that there wasn't any recognition taking place. This isn't the first time this has happened to me in a dream.

Since I couldn't recognize Izam as my boyfriend, I felt extremely guilty for kissing him and felt like I was cheating on Izam...even though it was him.

I remember thinking throughout the dream, "I can't remember what Izam looks like. I think this is what he looks like. But it doesn't look like him. It looks like someone else. Even though it looks exactly like him. Where is my real boyfriend?"

Little Bloody Parasites of the Past

I woke up in the middle of the night.

I sat up in my bed and looked down. Before my eyes appeared many little scars over my wrists. I watched, horrified, as they grew in number and began to extend all over my body and up and down my legs. I panicked and couldn't believe what was happening in front of my eyes.

Dark Silhouette

It was the middle of the night and it was very dark in my room. I went into the closet and suddenly standing before me was a dark silhouette of a young adult girl. She had black hair and a face of pain. She seemed shocked to see me as well, and then ran to the other side of the closet and hid among my roommate's clothes. She said something to me, but I can't really remember what it was. It was something of a very shy nature.

I knew she was probably the spirit that died here some time ago. I told her that I would like to talk to her, but she had vanished into the darkness.

Mustache

I looked in the mirror. I had a mustache. What the fuck? When did this happen? I began plucking out all of the little hairs with a tweezer. I was surprised that no one had brought this up for so long, considering its length.

Perfection

I was at a woman's house. No idea how I got there or anything, but we had been talking for awhile. She was really hot.

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We began flirting and having a pillow fight. She had her hands all over my body. She leaned closer to me, and we began to kiss.

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Sex, Interrupted

A girl and a guy living with me asked if I would like to have a threesome with them. I asked if my boyfriend could join, making it a foursome. The other girl and I started playing around, I was running from her because she was going to tie me up. She caught my wrist and tied it to the bedpost. I struggled to get away but she had too much experience. We kissed passionately and then her partner came in with Izam.

But something was wrong.

Izam looked really troubled. There was something on his mind. He said he didn't want to talk to me about it. He would prefer to talk about it with the other girl in the room.

Feeling distressed, I untied myself and walked to the other side of the room and sat down in an old armoire. I began to hear strange music coming from within the woodwork of the armoire. Strange voices and strange music. The others didn't seem to hear anything. It was as if this armoire was enchanted.

Cereal

I bought some really tasty cereal.

I've been so busy with university I haven't had any time to update my journal, but I had a nightmare this afternoon that I thought was worth writing.

Arcane

I was at the beach with my mother. We were fleeing though, someone was after us.

Later in the dream, I was in the car with my mother. I received a text on my phone. I flipped it open to find a very strange text. Many more kept coming.

The texts were threatening. They said that they were going to get their revenge, to watch our back, and expect our lives to be in ruins by the time they were finished with us.

They sent us pictures with people who had their faces burnt in acid.

I wanted to call the cops, but my mother said that it was probably just some angsty teenager. We kept driving home. I was a little shaken up, but my mother said it likely wasn't anything to worry about.

A few minutes later, my father calls my mother's cell phone and tells her that when he went outside he found his car had its windows smashed open and everything was torn up. He drove it irregardless, and then it blew up a few miles later. The car had been hijacked.

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We immediately stopped the car and turned around. We realized that they had been stalking us for some time and now could recognize our vehicles and target them out. We needed to immediately get off of the country road and somewhere safer.

They kept sending us threatening texts. I was trying to pinpoint who these people could be and why they were after us. From their texts, I could tell that they were teenagers/young adults and were gothic.

Awhile later, my mother and I decided to try to come back home again. We parked the car in the garage and turned off the engine.

"Wait...listen," I whispered. I heard the creaking of the floor above us. I heard talking. We weren't alone.

"We need to go. We need to call the cops," I desperately whispered. We tried to start up the car, but the engine stalled. The car wouldn't start. The car had made so much noise it was clear that our perpetrators knew that we were home.

"Hide," I whispered. We hid in a staircase. I pulled out a gun and my mother's eyes widened. I am normally a nonviolent person, but when my loved ones are in danger I will fight. I was ready to blow their brains out. These criminals had caused us so much distress. I couldn't imagine ever losing my mother, so I was very ready to protect her.

I tried to call 911 on the cell phone. The dial tone was so loud. I heard footsteps creeping up the stairs.

I could feel their presence lurking, becoming closer and closer to us.

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A figure appeared before us. I aimed my gun at him only to find that it hadn't been reloaded. Fuck.

He smirked and raised his gun, paused, and added, "you don't think I'd let you die so easily? No. Your deaths shall be slow and painful."

He turned around and left.

We needed to get the fuck out of this house.

But our escapes were blocked.

In the process of running, my mother and I got separated.

I found myself alone in a small foyer between two stories. I heard small bombs exploding and could hear the the cracking of burning wood. The house was on fire.

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A figure emerged from the shadows and called my name.

"...Hello?" I called back.The figure of a young adult appeared. He had scruffy black hair. A white, cotton T-shirt and ripped up jeans. He had dark circles around his eyes.

"Zukin. I have been watching you, my love," he whispered.

"Who are you?" I pleaded, backing into a corner.

"My name is Arcane. You've broken my heart so many times and failed to even acknowledge my existence. All I want is to be with you, but there are so many people in the way. And so I realized; the only way I could ever have you completely to myself, the only way you could forever be mine, is if we died together that way."

He grabbed my hand but I quickly pulled away.

"Time is running out," he pointed out. The fire was beginning to engulf the exits and I could hear the morphing and crying of the burning, warping wood.

"In any afterlife, or lack thereof, I would still never be yours. You're a psychopath," I exclaimed. A hurt look crossed his face.

"I thought you were different," he whispered, "Normal people call me a psychopath. It's only the misunderstood who understand me. I thought we could have a life together. I've dreamed of it for so long. All I have ever wanted is you in my arms, I would be so good to you," he revealed.

He had the saddest defeated look on his face, "Please. I understand now. You clearly don't want me, and I will accept that. I only wish I knew that from the beginning so that I could have stopped all of this. But there's no time left now. Please, take my hand."

He collapsed to the ground in agony. I told him that we could change all of this if we acted now and made our escape.

"I'm too heartbroken to carry on," his eyes dazed into the distance, longing. I tried to grab his hand to pull him up, but he refused. He really did seem physically weakened. I needed someone stronger to carry him out of the burning house.

"Arcane, please try to get up," I pleaded one last time. The ceiling was beginning to collapse from the fire.

"There is one final bomb that will explode soon. You need to leave before it detonates. Leave me here, go, carry on," he whispered with a voice full of despair.

I couldn't just leave him here, but there was no way I could convince him to go with me. I opted to find someone stronger to carry him from the house.

"Arcane - I am coming back for you. Please, don't give up yet. We can change all of this," I pleaded.

"Promise you will come back for me?" He looked up and added.

"I promise," I whispered back.

I ran out of the burning building and cried for help. I told one of the firefighters that there was still someone left inside the burning house who could no longer walk and he needed to be saved.

But as soon as those words came out of my mouth, the bomb in the house exploded, leaving only wreckage.

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I was struck with sorrow.

After several hours, only ashes remained. I searched through the wreckage for any sign of life. I found Arcane's body, depleted of breath. His skin had remained untouched by the fire, but his spirit was long gone. He was lifeless, his body full of sadness as someone who hadn't had their promise fulfilled.

Metal Wings

I was playing a video game in which there were five small, metal wings laying on the counter. There were evil gnats (don't laugh) that were trying to steal these wings from me. I had a sword and was trying to slash them as they came by. A few of the wings did get stolen, and when they did, I had to venture into a creepy cave and steal them back from a dragon.

Hungry Giraffes

I was standing on a viewing area above a large river. I heard a little girl shout to her mother, "mommy, mommy! I saw a giraffe down the river!"

She quickly retorted, "hunny, there aren't any giraffes here."

And then at the far side of the river I saw a giraffe walking. It was walking in the middle of the river, like a boss. It walked up to the pavilion and reached its long neck out to us. I was munching on something. It sat down, like a dog, and gave me those eyes. I wasn't going to feed giraffes cookies. A wild crocodile then joined it, swimming around the deck hoping that someone would drop something.

Guilt Again

I was at a really interesting shop. I have dreamed about this certain shop at least three times before, I am certain (because I remember dreams about seeing the second story wooden deck collapse).

The ground floor of the shop is a massive pool. The second story is a walkway over the pool that leads into some backrooms. The backrooms sell really interesting things. Some objects for sell are exotic jewelry.

I remember having an important discussion with a man. He was telling me about Hindu gods. I became very interested in this discussion, and wanted to buy a book about these gods.

I had four dollars less than the price of the book. The manager said that I could buy the book, and just bring him over the four extra dollars tomorrow morning.

One of the employees came home with me, to make sure I paid the next morning. We had sex, but then I of course felt extremely guilty for cheating on Izam. I realized it was going to be really hard for me to live with these feelings of intense guilt in the relationship, so I realized that I pretty much already ruined it.