Twoshadows' Lucid Dreams

Because my Dream Journal is getting quite huge, it is becoming difficult to go back and find certain dreams. I have decided that I would really like to have my LDs all together in one place.

I'm taking these from my current Dream Journal and will continue to add them as I have them.

My first LD:</SPAN>

April 19, 2006 4:50am

I just had my first Lucid Dream a few minutes ago.

In the dream I was lying in bed. Suddenly something felt funny in my mouth. I felt my teeth with my tongue and, sure enough, my upper left bicuspid was cracked and loose. I pulled a piece of the tooth out of my mouth, thinking, "I can't believe this is happening!" Then I thought, "That's it ! I don't believe this is happening. This must be a dream. This always happens in my dreams." [NOTE: This was the dream sign I kept telling myself I needed to recognize because it happens so often in my dreams. And I have now started using this as a reality check during the day...to feel if my tooth is loose]. Nothing else strange happened, but at that point I knew I was in a dream, and I realized I was lucid.

As one might expect, I got very excited. I then thought about this website and how it says that when people first start having these experiences, they get so excited that they wake up. Well, as soon as I thought that, I felt myself wake up.

Next thing I knew I was lying in bed saying, "Darn." But then I reached up and felt that same tooth. It was still loose. I had had a false awakening. I was still in the dream. I finished pulling out the tooth, and took a moment to sit and think about what was happening. Some of my thoughts were: So this is what it feels like to be in a dream and know it is a dream. It feels amazingly like real-life...yet there is a difference that I can't quite pin-point. Okay, what I really need to do is to try to float".

I concentrated on the feeling I have had in dreams where I have floated. Next thing I knew I was floating (horizontal...because I had been laying down). At this point I really wanted to get outside. Too many of my recent flying dreams had taken place indoors (what a waste). I wanted to fly high.

I floated out of the bedroom. Suddenly there was a little neighbor girl there pulling on me and asking for her ball. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a little pink bouncy ball and gave it to her. She took it and went away. [Note: Since this makes no sense to me, it shows that my subconscious mind was still doing its thing. If I were more lucid I'm sure I would have noticed that this was strange-- or that it wouldn't have happened at all.]

I floated to the back door. As I reached for the door handle, I thought, "I don't want it to be cold outside...I can control that too, can't I?" I pulled the door open and floated out and took off flying. The weather was perfect. It was early morning...cool, but not cold.

All around me the music from Peter Pan started playing, "You can fly...you can fly...you can fly...". I was feeling so happy that I started singing along. [Note: I remember thinking "I hope I am not singing in real life in bed and waking everyone up". I think that shows how lucid I really was...not forgetting that my real body was still laying in bed somewhere else.]

I flew up over some trees, and grabbed some leaves off the top of a really tall one and told myself to fly higher. I did for moment, then the next thing I knew I was back near the ground. I told myself I had the power to go higher. And I was then able to go quite high. I looked down and could see the roads. I remember thinking, "I'm glad I have done Google Earth so much so I know what this is all supposed to look like from above".

I decided I wanted to travel. I started following the highway, but realized that I was going to have to learn to fly faster or I wouldn't have time to get anywhere before I woke up. And sure enough, at that point I did wake up.

But I didn't really mind. I was truly excited. I now knew that lucid dreaming was possible for me. And that this was just the beginning.<!-- / message -->

First WILD attempt....a Success!!!

May 1 2006 2:00am

I just had an amazing experience. I wrote it down on paper when I first got up, but then decided to get it right on the computer. Here it is:

I was awaken at about 12:15 and was having trouble falling back asleep, so I got up and did a few things and then laid back down in bed. Laying awake in bed at night has always frustrated me. I feel like I am wasting time, yet I know I need to try to sleep.

But this time I thought I would make use of this time. I decided to try to WILD. It had been quite a while since I had read about WILDing, so I wasn't really sure what to do. I did remember something about counting down back from one hundred while laying real still. I figured it was worth a try since there was nothing to lose.

So I got in a comfortable position on my back and slowly counted down from one hundred. But I kept having itches and found myself scratching them. I got down to one and started again.

At about 50 I thought, "This isn't working. I must be forgetting to do something." So I stopped counting. I laid there for a few more minutes and then I suddenly felt very sleepy. I figured I'd try one more time.

This time I didn't even count. I just laid there staring at the ceiling and focused on the feeling of myself becoming more and more "detatched" from my body. I heard a noise that was like a "hum", and I saw the ceiling "bouncing". Or maybe I was the one bouncing. Which ever it was, the ceiling would come closer then go back, then closer and then back, until finally I reached out my hand to see if I could "physically" feel it. Sure enough, I could feel it...even the texture of the plaster. When that happened I knew that I had successfully WILDed and I was in a Lucid Dream.

I did the first thing that seems to come naturally for me in LDs. I flew out of bed and down toward the door. This time it was still dark outside. I remembered that in my last LD I was able to control the weather so it wasn't cold outside. I did the same in this dream. I opened the door and flew out in the not-so-cold night.

I could see the house lights and street lights around me as I started to fly higher. Finally I looked over toward the city and saw all the city lights. I realized that this was not my city, but a much larger city. I decided it didn't matter. In this dream my house was on some sort of hill overlooking the downtown area. I had to fly across the hill before the ground dropped away, and I was over all the city lights. That was pretty cool.

But then everything changed. I wasn't expecting this. My last LD seemed so perfectly real except for the fact that I was flying. But this one got a little strange. I was suddenly in a big dark room flying over these board games. Everything was huge, like I was the size of a fly in comparison. I didn't like it. I wanted to go back outside. I tried to change that, but was frustrated that I couldn't. I also wanted to see other people, since my LDs don't seem to have other people in them (except for that little girl that just passed through in the other one). But I couldn't make anyone show up.

I decided to try one more thing. I remembered that the Lucid Dream task for April was to swallow a goldfish (It didn't dawn on me that I was now at least an hour into May). So I decided that I would fly into the next room, and that I would see a fish tank full of goldfish by the wall. And....yes.....this time I was able to do it.

So there it was...this fish tank in an otherwise empty room. I landed on the floor beside it and looked at the fish. There were about 8 in the tank. They were a little more like Koi than the typical goldfish, but I figured that I had done pretty well considering this was only my second LD. They were all about 3 inches long and white in color with little spots of gold and black.

When I had read about this task I had wondered if "dream goldfish" felt or tasted anything like real goldfish. I was actually very curious to find out. I stuck my hand in the water and grabbed one. To my dismay, it felt exactly like a real fish...cold, wet, and slightly slimy. Without looking at it closely, I popped it in my mouth.

I stood there for a moment not knowing what to do next. I had hoped that once I got it into my mouth I could wish it into a cookie and chew it up and swallow it. But instead I had a very large, very real goldfish wiggling around in my mouth. It was too big to swallow whole. Yet the idea of chewing it was too gross to consider.

I finally thought, "If I can make myself fly in a dream, I certainly can make myself swallow a goldfish!" and with that, I swallowed.

The huge goldfish went about halfway down my throat before stopping. I started to gag. Unfortunately, the gagging made me wake up.

But again, I wasn't upset. I suddenly realized the significance of what I had just accomplished....my first WILD....and how easy it had come.

I had felt slightly frustrated that a week and a half had gone by since my first LD, and I had nothing else close to an LD since then.....until now.

I am definitely going to try this again.
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5-3-06

I had my third Lucid Dream</SPAN> last night. Last night marks the two week anniversary since my first LD. So three in two weeks...I'm happy with that.

I am slightly frustrated because recall wasn't very good on this one. I didn't think that that would happen to me on a lucid dream, especially this early on.

I had awakened at about 5:00, and had decided to WILD. Wednesdays are a sleep-in day for me, so I thought it might work. But it was hard to concentrate. I had the window open, and it was already getting light, and there were dogs barking, and the birds were all singing so loudly. I finally decided that I wouldn't WILD. But as usual, I was hoping that I would DILD.

So I did fall back asleep and start some normal dreams. In one of the dreams I was flying. Not by myself, but in some sort of open topped flying car. And I was with several other people. Recall on that part of the dream is poor.

It was doing this flying that triggered lucidity. I remember thinking, "This is a dream. I'm Lucid." And the next thing I knew I was out flying on my own.

Yesterday, I had made it my goal that if I had an LD I would work on changing scenery...and if that didn't work I would patch a hole in a bucket (May's Lucid Task).

And this is where I wish I could remember details! I do remember being sucessful to the point of changing things so that I was instantly really high in the sky. I have never been that high in any dream. Comparing it to Google Earth, I would say that I was about 15,000+ feet altitude...which is pretty amazing for me since my normal flying altitude in dreams is a couple of hundred feet tops.And that is basically all I remember of the lucid part of that dream. I somehow lost lucidity and went to other dreams that involved my grandma and having a toothache.

But knowing I had a lucid dream at all makes me happy, and it makes me realize that this is starting to become more natural. And that it will only get better from here.
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5-10-06

Fifth Lucid Dream</SPAN>

This makes LDs two nights in a row. Pretty cool.

I went to bed at around 11:00 and got up at 5:45. I wasn't planning on going back sleep, but at 7:45 or so I laid down again for a little power nap. And I had this dream.

It started as a non-lucid dream. I was driving up a hill in my car. I was looking for a graveyard. (I have a friend in Rhode Island who I have been doing some research with involving graveyards in RI. And this had to do with that research.)

As I was driving I suddenly thought, "Wait a minute--how is it that I am acutally in RI ????"

At that point I realized that I was in a dream and that I was now lucid. I remember thinking "Hey, this is getting easier. It doesn't take much to get me lucid these days".

I looked down at my arms and hands holding the steering wheel and noticed I was wearing my red long sleeved shirt.

In all my past LDs, as soon as I find I am lucid I take off flying. But I was in a car this time driving down the road. I was actually curious about what I would do.

I decided to focus on the windshield with the intent to change the scenery outside. The road in front of me become fuzzy and then changed to clouds and sky. I was proud of myself.

I now needed to get out of the car (for some reason opening the door didn't come to mind). I wanted to make the car around me disappear. I focused again on the windshield and made the windshield disappear. That was good enough for me as I now flew straight out into the sky. I noticed it was strange that I couldn't feel the wind or the coolness of the air like in my first two LDs (That's something I have to work on. Flying isn't the same without the wind in your face).

The thought now hits me that it is not the middle of the night for my sleeping self, but somewhere near 8:00. I was afraid someone would disturb me and I would wake up, and I wasn't ready to wake up.

I knew I needed to hurry. I decided that since this dream was originally about finding a graveyard, I wanted to fly to a certain graveyard in RI (EX022). I knew from my first LD that I couldn't fly the traditional way or I would never make it in time. In fact I didn't even know where I was at the moment. I would have to instantly make myself appear there. So I concentrated once more on the sky ahead of me and tried to make it appear as Exeter, Rhode Island. It started to get fuzzy and change.Then I woke up.

I am never ready for these dreams to end.


This dreams gets me excited in several ways.

First, it is the second lucid dream in two nights.

Second, I didn't have to have one of my traditional dreams signs to get me lucid. It happened without a lot of thought.

Third, I was able to remember my goal of trying to learn how to change scenery.

Fourth, I was actually able to do some scenery change. I'm hoping that with practice I can master it. I am getting better, and more confident with this ability.
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6-13-06

FINALLY......

I had another Lucid Dream</SPAN>. I went to bed thinking about how it had been a long time since I had had an LD, and how I really wanted to have one...tonight. I also thought about what I wanted to do if I did have an LD. I usually like to fly, but I had been a little disappointed by the lack of details in some of my recent LDs, and I was wondering what I could do to be more observant. I fell asleep thinking about that.

I woke up at 2:30 and realized that I hadn\'t had one. I decided to WILD. I tried for a while and an hour went by and I was frustrated. I finally decided I really just wanted to go to sleep. I did....and LDing must have been on my mind.

My 7th LD:

I was in a car. Jeff was beside me in the back seat, and one of the people in the front may have been Marie A. We were driving on a road that winded though a canyon. We passed a place where there were two waterfalls. I looked closely at the rocks by the waterfalls. One looked just like a big Triceratops head. I mean, exactly like a triceratops head. I suddenly realized that things like that just don't happen in nature....this was a dream.

I looked around at everything. Here I was in a car again like my last memerable LD. I thought about flying. But everything around me looked so intensely real, I wondered how I could possibly make it disappear like the time before.

I looked at Jeff. I reached out and took his hand and felt his skin and touched the hairs on the back of his hand. So very real.

I touched the leather seat in the car. It was a tan color. I could feel the light shiny texture.

I touched the shiny metal door handle...and wondered how I could possibly be in a dream when this was so real. Everything was so solid...so touchable.

I looked down to see what I was wearing. I had on a grey sweatshirt. I also had on some grey sweatpants. The color of the sweatshirt was a lighter grey color and the material was much heavier than the pants.

I laughed and said to Jeff "Why am I wearing sweatpants??" (I never wear sweatpants, plus it was the middle of summer).

He shrugged and I think I told him at this time that I was having an LD with him in it.

I'm not sure where the dream went from here. I must have lost lucidity. I remember going on to other dreams. But I found it interesting--this was my first LD with other people....and the first I didn't fly in. My mind remembered that my main goal was for details. And I feel I got quite a few details.

This wasn't a very long dream, but I feel every LD is practice for better future LDs.
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7-3-06

I'm back.

I had a Lucid Dream </SPAN>while I was gone.

It wasn't particularly long, but it was an LD, nonetheless.

I was in the backyard of my old house and Philip was there, and he had these magic powers. One of the things he could do was to make things float. I remember I was on this bucket lid-- or something of that shape and size, and there was a rope attached and Philip was pulling me around the yard and I was floating behind him.

At some point I said to myself, "This is really odd. How can this be happening?" And at that moment I realized that I was dreaming.

I then said to Philip "Hey, I'm dreaming! Let's fly!"

And we took off up into the air and started flying straight up--super high. But then I realized that I was losing the dream. I could feel myself wake up. I was aware enough to know that I had just had a false awakening, but I lost lucidity at that point and went on to other now forgotten dreams.
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7-8-06

I had a good Lucid Dream </SPAN>last night.

Before I went to bed I had remembered that I had still not read the Lucid Tasks for July. I went to bed with this on my mind.

It started as a very long normal dream. But I can only backtrack it to a point where I was standing in line in a building with a bunch of other people. I knew some of the people there: Jeff, Jeremy H and Marie.

I looked over the rail beside us and saw a huge pool of water (like at Sea World). Marie had her feet dangling in the water, and Jeff was leaning toward the water. I suddenly saw something snake-like coming through the water at us. I realized it was a sea snake. I remembered that they are one of the most venomous snakes on earth. It started swimming around Marie's legs. Then over to Jeff who was holding his hand out to it. It stuck its head out of the water and "sniffed" Jeff's hand. I was waiting for it to bite him at any second. But to my relief it then swam away without harming anyone.

I then realized that we were alone and that we had lost our group. We started to run ahead. And I started doing cool things like jumping down whole staircases in one jump. Or jumping over obsticles that are in my way...and staying up in the air a very long time. It was a very satisfying feeling.

I finally ran out the door to the outside. Everything was beautiful. It had been raining and the sky was still overcast except for a strip around the horizon. The sun was shining through that gap and everything was glowing a golden yellow (like it does in real life under these circumstances).

I thought it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I saw that I was at Disneyland, and I could see the Matterhorn not too far away also glowing in the golden sunlight.

I'm not sure what triggered lucidity, but the next thing I knew, I was lucid and flying toward the Matterhorn. It felt so good to be flying. But suddenly I could feel the dream slipping away. I felt myself wake up. But instead of finding myself in bed like most of my False Awakenings I was just back on the ground.

I saw a house and flew up by its roof. I remembered that I had wanted to do one of the Lucid Tasks. But I hadn't read July's Task yet. So I fingured the next best thing was to try to do some old tasks. I looked at the house next to me and wondered how hard it would be to destroy it with my bare hands. I had never tried anything like that before. I pulled back my fist and gave it a hard punch. Nothing happened except for giving me sore knuckles. I focused my mind and picutred making a huge hole with the next punch. I punched again. And again. But I was unable to do any damage (except to my knuckles). I didn't worry too much. I figured destroying things wasn't one of my strengths.

I then thought of catching a butterfly. I wondered how hard that would be. I started floating out from the house and looked around. As I was flying I felt something tickle my nose and I looked and saw two butterflies....one large one and a smaller one. The smaller one had beautiful wings--the upper parts were orange and the lower parts black. I slowly reached out my hands and cupped them around the little butterfly. I could feel its wings brush the insides of my hands. I was surprised how easy that was. I then let the butterfly go.

I then decided to fly very high. I was having problems getting higher than about 30-40 feet. I remember there was a tree beside me that I couldn't get any higher than. I would suddenly slow to a stop and hover. I then really put my mind to it and got another 10 feet or so higher before stopping again. I wasn't sure why I was having such trouble.

Then I was back on the ground and I decided to climb this wooden fence so I could get high and then dive off and fly. I climbed and climbed this fence. It went up and up. There didn't seem to be an end to it. Finally when my leg muscles could take no more, I saw that I was at the top. I looked down to see how high I was. But to my surprise and dismay, I saw that I was about five feet off the ground. That was quite frustrating. At that point I seemed to lose lucidity. I went on to other dreams. One was about being with roommates. One of them liked the same guy that I did. I think he was a garbage collector. Then we were dressing up for this dance. My roommate was putting on blue stockings.

And that's all I remember.

Goal: Look up July's Lucid Tasks!!
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8-3-06

I think what I said in yesterday's post is true. After writing in my journal and getting lucid dreaming back on my mind, I had a lucid dream. Plus my night was full of many other dreams that I remember quite well. This was my best night of dream recall in a couple of weeks--about the time I went away and stopped writing in this journal.

My Lucid Dream</SPAN>

It started with me being in a room that I didn't recognize. Suddenly Jeff walks in with a kitten.

[Note: This is the same kitten I saw in real life two days ago. This was an odd thing, so I'll share it. I was walking in to Safeway and right inside the door was a little Native American boy 4 or 5 years old with a kittten. He was sitting on the floor and swinging this kitten around quite roughly by its front paws. I stopped in alarm and was about to say something. But I didn't have to because I had walked in the door at the same time as a German couple. They saw the same thing and started scolding the boy in German. Even though he wouldn't have understood the words, like me he knew they didn't approve of what he was doing. He stopped swinging the cat and held it to his chest. The German couple and I then slowly walked further into the store, wondering what this boy was doing without parents in a big store with a cat and no one seemed to care. It was really odd and I probably should have done a reality check. ]

Anyway, in the dream Jeff had this same kitten and it was quite injured. He had it wrapped in a bloody blanket. I took a closer look at the cat and saw that it was really cut up. Its abdomen was actually cut open and it looked like someone tried to stitch it up but did a very poor job because it was pulling back open. I realized that the cat couldn't possibly live. It was too hurt. I was about to tell Jeff what I thought when I looked back to where the kitten was and saw that it was suddenly a baby. A real baby. I was now quite alarmed. We had to get this baby to the emergency room now.

But then I suddenly stopped. I knew the baby had been a kitten a minute ago. How did it change? Could it be that I was in a dream. Yes! I was finally having a lucid dream again after I had not had one for a while. But I still felt this need to take the baby to the hospital. There it was in front of me looking so real and helpless. But I knew that if I was in a dream, then the baby didn't actually exist. So I pulled myself away and started to float. Yes, that was proof enough that the baby didn't need me. I floated higher, then suddenly felt myself slipping away. Dang it, I was about to lose my dream.

But I suddenly popped into a different place. I was now in my old house in Los Angeles where I grew up. I flew out the front door. I wanted to really enjoy this experience. I turned on my back and flew feet first, letting the wind blow between my toes. It felt so nice and relaxing, yet exilerating. I turned back so I was flying the normal way.

I looked around me the colors were so bright. I could see the details of the houses below. I saw the playground of my old elementary school as I flew over it. I saw some fog ahead I was going into it. I thought, "This would be a perfect opportunity for scenery change. I'll come out further across the United States so I can go somewhere I have never gone before".

Sure enough, when I came out I was somewhere I didn't recognize. There was a lake or bay. I could see a road below and I could see the cars driving along below. The flying in this dream was effortless. My arms were out in front, yet I didn't need then for steering. I felt the wind in my hair. I was going quite fast and high. This was the most realistic flying I remember ever doing in a dream, lucid or not.

But finally I realized I was losing the dreamand I woke up for real.
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8-4-06

I had three lucid dreams last night!!


Now let's see how well I remember them.

The first one was earlier on in the night, and I can't remember how it started. But something didn't seem right, and I questioned my state and decided that I was dreaming.

I wanted to do something different in my dream than just fly--like I alway do. I remembered that I wanted to look at my hands. I had read in other posts that sometimes you can make yourself have 6 fingers on your hand. I was with some people (who I can't identfy now) and I said to them, "Hey check out my hand". I lifted it up fully expecting to see six fingers. But to my surprise (and theirs) I had about ten fingers growing out of that hand. To make it weirder, on the last nuckle on each finger were two separate finger tips. So it was quite the sight to see about 20 little finger tips. I waved them around at the people I was with, telling them I was lucid dreaming, and that's why my hand was so weird.

And then to prove my point further I reached up and grabbed a tree limb. I did several one armed pull-ups and said "I can't do that in real life. Isn't lucid dreaming cool?"

And then I said, "But this is the best...." And I took off flying.

I flew for a while and then realized that I didn't want to spend my whole LD flying. I wanted to complete July's Lucid Task (I hadn't read what August's was yet) I needed to find a cemetery so I could raise some one from the dead. I looked all around. I got frustrated because I knew all I had to do was to create a cemetery. Then I started worrying that I would wake up before I found one. That thought is almost always fatal to my lucid dreams. And sure enough, as soon as I thought that I woke up.To this minute I don't know if I was truly awakened or if it was a FA. But I felt myself laying in bed. I refused to open my eyes. I kept telling myself to go back to sleep and go back to the LD.

I don't know what happened. Recall is poor. I think I went on to other dreams. BUt then at some point I remember flying again and saying"Hey! I'm having another LD. That's twice in one night! Totally cool."
I lost lucidity at some point because I then had one of my classic reoccuring dreams. I have this 4-5 times a year. The most recent was.....the night before (I know, I never got my other dreams written up from yesterday). So not only did I LD two nights in a row. But I had one of my favorite stressful dreams. The theme: "It's Halloween And I Have Forgotten To Decorate".

I know...it sound like a bizarre dream to have so often. But you would have to understand me and Halloween. Ever since my earliest childhood memories Halloween has been the coolest most exciting time of year. My mom always made a big deal of decorating the house. And as we grew, my sister and I have had great times making our house the coolest one around. We would go all out with music cobwebs, a graveyard, lights...and last year we had over 50 jack-o-lanterns glowing in the front yard...etc etc....

So back to the dream....first, the one from night before last: It was Halloween. I didn't seem to remember it was until about 3:00 in the afternoon. I then remembered. At first I got very excited. I thought "Oh yeah, I can finally get out Halloween boxes out of the garage!" Then I thought, "Oh wait. I have an errand to run...oh no...by the time I'm done it will be too late to decorate" And I got quite stressed out.

Last night's dream was similar. I was frantically trying to get things out of the garage in time for the trick-or-treaters to come by. Next thing I remember I was with two guys (I don't know who they were supposed to be). We were wearing these costumes that were kind of like the Dementors from Harry Potter but white instead of black. As I walked along, I suddenly realized that I was in a dream again. I thought it would be really cool if I could just float along in the air --like the Dementors do in the movie. But I was having some trouble with dream control. I was able to get in the air a little but I kept coming down and couldn't get the effect that I wanted. And after that I lost lucidity again.

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Although the second two LDs were short, I still think it was neat that the thought to become LUCID stayed with me for the remainder of the night. This is what I have been hoping for all along. Maybe this will start the pattern for more LDs for me in the future.

I remembered that I wanted to look at my hand like I had read about. The results were....interesting.

I also remembered that another of my deam signs was one armed pull-ups. I love to do those. This was the first time I have done them in a LD.

I remembered to try to find a cemetery. Although I wasn't successful, I still glad I remembered to try. To remember at all and attempt it is at least half the battle. One of these times I'll remember and be succesful.
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10-9-06

Lucid Dream!!</SPAN>

It's about time!

I had thought I had missed out on having a good dream last night. I had awakened at 3:30. The only dream I had had to that point that I remembered was one about a guy I knew in high school (G R). And I was seeing him while visiting. (I think I am anticipating this coming weekend in CA.)

So I laid in bed for the next few hours trying to get back to sleep so I would have not only a good night's sleep but something far more interesting to put down in my dream journal.

Well, I got my wish. My alarm had actually gone off. I had pushed snooze...

I was talking to Jeff about a car accident--supposedly about one he/I/we (?) had. At this moment he was in the car, and I was standing on the sidewalk about two blocks from home. It was night or very early morning...fairly dark. I was about to ask him to give me a ride home, but he took off.

I decided to run home. I was running very fast. But as I look back on it I didn't have very good control. There was this building I was going to have to pass. I wanted to veer away from it a little so didn't come blindly around one of its corners (you know, in case someone was standing there waiting to mug me). But I ended up almost running into that corner. Luckily no one was waiting there to mug me.

I got to where I thought my street should be, but I realized I had gone a block too far. I turned around to go back. I still couldn't find my street. Suddenly I had that feeling I had in a dream a couple of months ago where I was also trying to find my house/apartment, but couldn't find it.

I questioned this feeling. Could I possibly be dreaming??

I was still on the move. But I was riding my bike now. I was heading to a place in the road where there was a very steep hill that came back up to another hill. I decided that this would be a good place to give dream control a try. I decided that when the hill dipped down I would remain going (flying) straight across.

I remember thinking that I was pretty sure I was in a dream, but that things seemed so real. This was going to be quite the test.

The road started to slope down. I concentrated on not going down. Yes.....I was doing it!. I was definitely in a dream. I flew across toward the other hill. I remember music playing. It might have been Africa by Toto.... LOL. I remember thinking that there was something significant about that choice in music...something that Tito would have appreciated [in retrospect, I have no idea what I was thinking]. I do remember thinking that I rather enjoyed music in my LDs, and that I would make an effort to always create it.

Suddenly I was in a store. I don't know how that transition came about.

I walked passed an aisle and caught a glimpse of Carl. I almost walked past because I seemed to be in a hurry to get someplace, then thought that would be terriblely rude not to stop and say "Hi". So I went back. He had seen me. We said "Hi" and hugged. Suddenly I realized that he was very very tall. I looked up at him again and realized that he wasn't Carl anymore, but Daniel.

I thought, "Hey, this is cool. Who else can I make this person be?" I gave him another hug and concentrated on him turning into someone else. I think it was working, but my alarm went off.

All this had happened in the ten minutes between alarms.

Alright!

I'm so glad this happened. I was starting to wonder what my problem was....why I couldn't LD anymore. But I have really been trying hard to think about it lately and I guess it paid off!!
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10-29-06

Lucid Dream!</SPAN>

First of all, I had awakened at about 2:00 thinking about the stress of my responsibilites. I had a really big day the coming day and I desperately needed my sleep--so I pretty much knew I would lay in bed the rest of the night not able to sleep. But somewhere close to 4:00, I went back to sleep and had this dream.

I was in what was supposed to be my mom's house. I was in my mom's room talking with her. She was sitting on the bed. I suddenly noticed that she looked very young. Also she was quite thin. It started sinking in that this was not right. My mom didn't look like this. Then --BLAM--"I must be dreaming!!"

At that very moment my alarm went off--at least what I thought was my alarm went off ("false alarm"...kind of like "false awakening"). The music I heard coming from what I thought was my radio alarm was the Christmas song "What Child is This" (My dreams have such an interesting variety of music.)

As soon as I heard the alarm, I thought, "This can't happen. I have to stay asleep." So I stared at my mom's shirt (a white tank top...yes, definitely a dream) and concentrated on staying in the dream. The moment of danger passed and things were stable again.

The first thing I did to check that I was really in a dream was to float. And yes, I could do it. I love that feeling when I realize that I am in a dream and then do the "float". It's just magical.

I decided I wanted this to be a really useful LD--not just a "flying around" LD. So the next thing I did was to stare at my hands. At first I had 6 fingers. But as I looked it would change. The number would increase. Then I noticed that one of my fingers split into two finger tips (similar to the first time I looked at my hand in an LD).

Then I even noticed that my hand was split--like when you look at a straw in a glass full of water--the refraction makes it not match up right. Well, that's what my hand was doing. And I also noticed that I was wearing my long sleeved brown shirt that I was wearing in the picture I posted holding the giant cockroach.

Then I decided to be even more thourogh. I lifted up my foot so I could see what my toes looked like in a lucid dream. I saw that I had a lot of toes, but I didn't take the time to count them all.

I then walked over to the balcony--I was on the second floor. I decided to see what would happen if I let myself fall off. Would I float? Would I hit the ground?

I had a funny feeling backing up to the edge even though I knew that I couldn't hurt myself in a dream. I got to the edge and gathered my courage and let myself fall backward. I felt a very real falling sensation. I kept going long past when I should have hit the ground. I looked around me. Everything was white. I was falling into this white void. It was very strange. But the falling sensation actually felt kind of good.

I'm not sure how it transitioned, but I was now flying around outside. I could see clouds. I noticed how completely fake they looked. They looked flat like a painting. I was quiute disappointed because I remembered being on the plane and how I had looked forward to seeing very realistic clouds in future LDs

I then remembered that I wanted to fly underwater. I needed to create the ocean. As I flew I told myself that I would come to an ocean. Ands sure enough, I came to a bay (close enough) and dove down into the water. The water was cool, but not too cold. I couldn't see well under the water so I didn't stay down there very long or go very deep.

Somewhere around this point I woke up. I really wanted to get out of bed and write it down while it was still fresh in my mind. But the sensible part won. It knew I would never go back to sleep and that tomorrow would be an exhausting day. So I went back to sleep. Somewhere in my next dream I wrote the LD down. Wonder if that helped me remember it.

I do remember quite a bit. I just wonder what I have forgotten. I hope this means my dry spell is broken and that I will have many more LDs to remember and share. And I haven't even gotten the vitamins yet...
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11-08-06

I just awoke from doing the Tasks of the month</SPAN>!!!!

It was at the end of a super long dream.

Dream:

I remember being at a gym with my sister and one of her friends. I had never gone to this gym, so I wasn't sure what all the machines did. But I got on them anyway and tried to be creative.

Next thing I remember is that they are interviewing someone and I hear him on the speakers. It is another old friend of mine R.S. that I haven't seen since high school and that I have lost touch with. I look at him from across the room. We make eye contact. He smiles at me. I hurry across the room so I can see him.

But before I can get to him I bump into E, who is the friend I stayed with in LA. He pulled at my arm and took me aside. He looked very handsome. I decide to just hug him. He them tells me something important. But I don't remember.

The dream transitions again and I am what I first thought was a dentist office. I later realize that it is a mental institition and that I am being held--against my will, if needs be. I thought, "Screw this. I can't stay here."

And I took off flying over everyones' heads then out the door in back. I flew over the grassy area and then some trees before I realize that I have to go back.

I remembered that E was still there. I had to get him out. And then I remembered...."The Book". We had to get The Book out with us. In it were all the secrets that I had...secrets like Why I could fly.... There was no choice. I had to go back.

I went in the back doors past my friend BC (who had helped me a lot last week in real life). He was working there but doesn't try to stop me. I see E, and on the closest desk is The Book. I grab the book and shout at E to follow me. He runs out the door, but as he sees me flying, he takes off flying, too. And in a minute he is ahead of me. I try to catch up. I look below us and I see that there is a big group of children following us. C is with them. Suddenly I'm so low that they are almost able to grab my feet. I know that they are not there to hurt us, but I worry that they will slow us down. We really need to get away. I tell myself that I have the power to fly higher and faster. It works a bit.

Next thing I remember is that we went into some sort of building, maybe a library. I run across to the far side with E. There is a lady standing in front of us. I am sure she is there to capure us and take us in. But then she asks if she could help us. I look at her, and say, "What we really need is to take this off." I grab a wooden grate that is covering a slit on an outside wall. She seems surprised, but I don't wait to see what she will do. I squeeze though, so does E and then we fly again.

But now we are close to the tops of these mountains. There are trees with beautiful fall leaves, mostly yellow in color (aspen?).

I look over and suddenly see a group of young people. I say to myself, "These are my old friends from high school". But they weren't. They were people I know now from my current life. Most were kids.

I don't know why that was the thing, after all the other crazy things--but that triggered lucidity.

I landed by the kids. I told myself that I would hang on to this dream no matter what. There were some important things I needed to try. Amazingly it all stayed clear.. I looked over and saw S and K. I decided to ask them the Simple Task of the Month.

"Am I dreaming?" I asked K.

"Yeah you are, but it's not how I thought it would be."

"Am I dreaming?" I asked S.

Yeah, but it's not what I thought it would look like."

I went over to a group of younger kids.

"Am I dreaming?"

Their responses were very typical of little children.

They all responded with "Yeah, but...." And each of there ending part of the response was something really silly that didn't make sense. And each kids was getting sillier and sillier to outdo the kid before him.

I wish I remembered more of the responses. They were things to the affect of "Yeah, but I got to go to Disneyland last week." Or "Yeah, but I have a loose tooth." Irrelevant stuff.

But I was surprised, though, that they all said "yes". I wasn't sure if it would be "yes" or "no".


Then I remembered the second Task of the Month--to witness the End of the World.

I looked around and found another adult..someone else I know from LV. I tell him, "In a few minutes it will be the end of the world. We need to try to keep the kids safe." I think I was saying the last part so that Dream Character didn't to anything that would stop me from finishing the dream as I needed to do.

We kept the kids together on that high spot on the mountai. The the other adult and I got in the car and drove down a road until we could see off the edge and down to the rest of the world.

At first I saw volcanos erupting. Smoke and ash filled the sky. The I saw huge floods come in and swallow up the city before me. I thought, "They are all gone...."

We drove again. I remember seeing all these wet kittens in the road just standing there trembling.

That really got to me. I started to cry. What had I done.....?

Then I woke up.
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11-9-06

Yes! I just awoke from yet another LD. I hope this means that they are back to stay.

Lucid Dream</SPAN>

I remember driving with my mom. We came to this train crossing. I had this feeling a train was near, but the arms were up. I looked right and saw that a train had just passed. After we crossed I looked left and saw that another train was coming. The arms weren't going down, and there were no flashing lights. I was afraid the cars behind me were going to get hit. But then we were too far ahead to see.

We came to this big and very busy intersection. Next thing I remember my mom and I were out of the car. She told me she hated to drive through that intersection.

Next I remember we were on top of this fairly high concrete roof on a building by that same intersection. I was at the edge...I was falling off. As I went over I told my mom that I would be ok. I wasn't lucid yet...but I was getting close.

Then my mom and I were both on the ground level again now. I was thinking that what just happened was weird. I looked at my mom again. She was wearing an Old Navy flag shirt that was pretty low cut. It was so not my mom that --just like the tank top in the other recent LD--it triggered lucidity.

I said, "Mom, cool, you are in my LD! This means you can come flying with me--won't that be great?"

Then I said, "But first we need to feel the texture of this brick planter next to us." I reached out and felt the bricks. They were fairly smooth, with flecks of rough spots. [It was exactly like a type of brick that I know from real life--the texure was perfect.]

I then said, "We need to look at our hands". They looked almost normal exept for a small finger growing out between my third and fourth finger. I remembered what Ranma said about trying to keep it from changing--to keep it stable. I told myself to make my hand right. It went to completely normal. But when I stopped concentrating, the little finger came back. I did this a few times and never was able to keep that 6th finger from appearing again. I'll have to keep working on that one.

Then I told my mom, "Now we can fly." I took off and heard my mom flying behind me. I went out into the street area. There were these decorations strung out between the street lamps in the center of the road. They were at first like white sheets, then turned into those fake spider webs you buy for Halloween.

As I was flying under these, I noticed that the music from Peter Pan was playing again "You can fly, you can fly, you can fly....". I thought, "Wow...just like in my first LD....I like it." Once I started listening, it played louder...and I hummed along.


But then I was having trouble getting past all the spider webs. They were all over now and I couldn't fly any higher because of them.

Suddenly I was in a mall. I decided to land.

Things get fuzzy here. I had some sort of plan/goal. But I don't remember what it was. Then I saw a guy I knew from high school (D Lopez). [We had been in a lot of classes, and he was friends with another of my friends, but I always was under the impression that he didn't like me too much. So I'm not sure why he was the one to show up here.]

I landed next to him and said, "Ha!...You're in my LD."

He looked at me and said, "You are not going to kiss me, are you?"

I laughed and said, "I think I will."

So I put my arms around his neck and started to kiss him. I suddenly realized that I didn't remember ever kissing anyone in my dreams before. It felt quite real and kind of good in spite of the fact that it was D. http://www.dreamviews.com/community/.../a_chuckle.gif

Then the dream faded and I woke up.

And this all took place between alarms (5:50 and 6:00).....so the whole thing was less than 10 minutes. They always seem so much longer. But in spite of the length it was a very satisfying LD.

Edit:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awZ0f4cCs0I

That is a link to the song for anyone who doesn't know what I am talking about. It had been a while since I had seen that myself. Interesting to see them flying..... So familiar...the sensation of flying is very real to me now. It no longer seems like just a dream. It is a magical ability that I get to use in a secret life.

Isn't LDing great? http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ilies/grin.gif

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11-15-06

Lucid dream</SPAN>

I actually don't even remember how this dream started because it was sandwiched in between two non-lucids.

It started like I was watching a movie. There were all these flying robots that were flying over LA to do something. I was seeing them as if I was flying through the air with them.

For some reason I became lucid (probably the flying). I was sitting in this small flying car that was a bit like a kayak because I was out on top holding on to the sides using that to steer.

I spent pretty much the whole dream just flying around in this little car enjoying the ride. At one point I thought, "Now what were next month's tasks?" Then I remembered it was not next month, and I shouldn't worry about trying those just yet.

I tried to focus on details as I was flying. I could feel the wind through my hair and hear the wind in my ears. Very very real. My mind did a great job of making the wind stronger and louder as I turned and swooped.

Then I saw Disneyland in the distance. I wanted to fly there. I headed toward it. Right as I was getting close to the Matterhorn, I could feel myself start to wake up.

Now this is what I found most interesting in this dream. I felt myself wake up. I was even seeing what I thought was my real life (FA) but I was able to pull myself back to the dream, and focus back on the feeling of the wind and of Disneyland in front of me.

This happened several times until I finally got to the point where I thought I was fully awake and not able to go back to the dream. Unfortunately it was another False Awakening. But I was so intent at this point to run to the computer to write it down. I was surprised to find that my computer had been taken down (but not so surprised as to become lucid again.) and for the next few minutes of dream I was just trying to find a way to write the LD down. Because that happened, I don't feel I have the details on this LD as well as some of my other lucid dreams from the past.

In fact, I remember thinking that in the dream I was hearing music playing. But I couldn't tell you now what it was http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...smilie_178.gif But maybe it will come to me.

BUt anyway--another Lucid Dream!! http://www.dreamviews.com/community/.../a_biggrin.gif


Edit:

I need to write up the conditions leading up to this LD. This was a sleep in morning. I had awaken at my normal time of 6:00. I knew I didn't have to get up yet. I got up and went to the bathroom and got a drink...and on a whim took half of a B-6 vitamin (50 mg). I was kind of cold. I crawled back into my bed and got under my wonderful micro-fleece blanket and my also wonderful big down comforter. It was so wonderfully cozy that I was able to drift back into dreamland.
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11-29-06


I just had my longest Lucid Dream</SPAN> ever.

I had awakened at exactly 6:00. It was a sleep-in day, so I got up did a few little things, took a B6, then lay back on my bed and listened to U2 for about a half hour, then turned off the music and thought about what I wanted to LD about. I came up with a few ideas, but decided I might just go with the flow when the LD started. At exactly 7:00 I laid back down to go to sleep.

I started dreaming. The first part that stands out was I was at my friends' house. They had moved and were building their own house. The house was like a big castle--but painted white with red trim. There was a tunnel though the house, and I could see a large train engine sitting there.

I told them, "Wow...I see you are actually making your dream house. It's so cool!"

I talked to them for a bit about the house. Then I got distracted. I had this ball of rolled up chain that I was holding. I realized that I could make it float, and if I hung on real tight I could come up off the ground a few feet.

I'm pretty sure it was that that triggered lucidity. This was such a long dream that I don't feel that I can get it all in order. But I don't feel that for this type of dream order will make a huge difference.

I believe the first thing I did was to fly. I don't think I went far before I decided I needed to try some things out. So I landed.

I looked at my hands. I wanted to get as much detail as I could. The fingers this time were all normal. There were a few purple ink smudges on my hand (in the dream I blamed them for some I had gotten in real life, but I actually didn't have any IRL). The spots would come and go, kind of like when you look at a bright light and for the next minute you see a spot of color in front of your eyes that moves around as you move your eyes.

I could also see the ridges and finger prints on my hand and fingers. I felt satisfied at the detail I was seeing.

I looked at my clothes. I was wearing my long sleeve brown shirt (again) and my blue Levis... and blue flip flops (which I don't own in real life).

I flew around again and did December's Basic Lucid Task...which I just wanted to try and see if I could. I guess I have to leave out the details here, until the Tasks are made public. I was surprised how easy it was and knew that if I became lucid in December it would be no problem to repeat.

Then things get fuzzy.

I think I flew around some more until I came to two guys. I thought, "I'm wasting this LD. I need to do something interesting". I looked at the guys again. They were both old-ish. I looked at the younger of the two. He was in his late forties, balding and had crooked teeth. And he didn't look to happy to see me hovering in front of him and staring at him like that.

But I thought, "What the heck." So I came close to him and thought I would give him a little kiss. But instead, our teeth clanked and he pushed me away.

I thought , "Okay, that was a bad idea." and flew again.

I eneded up in this large castle like building. I can't remember details, but I remember walking out of a room and out on a balcony. I looked over the edge. I was up many stories. There were rocky fields below. I thought about letting myself fall off backwards like I had done before--because it is really a test of courage to just fall back like that.

But instead I took this moment to stop and think. I thought back on this LD and was afraid I would never remember all I did. I thought about finding a paper to write it down, thinking that maybe the review in my mind might help when I woke up. But I decided not to because I thought that might take too long.

So I looked back off the balcony again. And that's when I remembered I owed CoLd BlooDed a flight. I looked around and hoped he would just show up there on the balcony with me. When he didn't I stared at the stone wall and concentrated on making him materialize out of nowhere. That also didn't work.

Frustrated, I looked back down at the ground and focused on a rock. I then picked it up with my mind and threw it as far as I could.

I did that to a second rock...and a third. I was rather impressed with myself because I had never remembered being able to do that in a dream. I thought about other powers I might want to try. I thought about how Oneironaut gathered all this energy in him and did something cool with it...but I couldn't remember exactly what he had done (decided I would read about it again when I woke up).

I think I just decided to fly again. I realized that there was music playing. It was a lot like Handel's Hallelujah Chrous--but not quite.

I decided I just wanted to fly fast and high. I sometimes have trouble going either fast or high. So I did what I read about on this website about picturing rockets coming out of my feet. As soon as I thought that I heard a low roar and left myselt surge forward a bit. But then it slowed again.
And it was somewhere around here that I woke up. And when I looked at the clock it said 8:04.
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12-16-06

WILD and short Lucid Dream</SPAN>

I just want to quickly mention that I had a very interesting experience last night with WILDing.

I did WBTB. I wasn't actually going to WILD, but hoped to have a LD by DILD. But right as I lay in bed thinking "I'm not tired enough to sleep", I realized that what I thought had been my own conscious thoughts were turning into dreams (Will write the details later. Notes: dog, jumping, wall, T-rex)

I then thought "Wow, I guess I am tired--maybe I should try to WILD". I then relaxed completely and focused.

What happened next was really incredible. When I had my first WILD I went straight from consciouness into the dream with out any --I can't remember the correct terms--the lights and sounds. (HI?)

Well, this time I instantly saw green lights and heard and indescribable sound. It was a middle range tone...slightly digital sounding. The lights were crazy. I thought I saw a face in the lights and got a little scared. (I had heard people talking about getting scared in this transition. And now I know what they mean.) Then the sounds started sounding voice-like.

I actually started praying because I was freaking out and felt really out of control. And then slowly everything faded and I was laying back on my bed. During that time I didn't dare try to move because I know that if I found that I couldn't I would have been doubly freaked out. This whole thing probably lasted less than a minute. But it was so very intense. It was a really good exprience to have. Gives me more of an idea of what other people go through, and what might happen in the future when I try to WILD again.

I think I went to sleep after that. But I remember finding myself in my old computer room and lucid. I was sitting cross-legged on the floor and facing the North wall. It didn't feel very stable, and I knew that I didn't have long in this LD. Last night as I went to bed I decided that the next time I went lucid, more importanly than me completing the Task was for me to focus on detail, especially on myself.

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12-29-06

On the verge of being Lucid...

I don't remember anything but the very end. It was also a very very short DV member dream.....about pj--who I really don't know except that his dream journal is always up there with mine.

All I remember is holding some kind of electronic "thing" It looked a little like a cell phone, but wasn't. It belonged to pj. Suddenly I spilled something on it and totally ruined it. I was horrified at what I had done.

But then I thought, "Wait a minute. This is a dream. I don't have to deal with this." So I woke myself up.

Duh!!

It all happened so instantaneously that I didn't have time to realize what I was doing.

This is what I used to do in my youth. I think that's why I was able to pick up on LDing so fast in my adulthood.

1-1-07

Starting the year off with another Almost Lucid</SPAN>. Can't decide if that is a good or bad thing.

It is so typical that it almost hurts that I didn't instantly become fully lucid.

I was looking in the mirror and noticed one of my teeth was brownish in color. I touched it and it was loose. I looked at it closer and to my horror, I noticed that it was hollow. I could see inside a hole and see that it was completely decayed on the inside.

I also noticed that another tooth on the other side was also brown and loose. This really drepressed me. I knew these teeth would fall out. I thought of how my smile would look with these teeth gone. I would no longer have a pretty smile. I would never be able to smile at people again.

Again I looked in the mirror and this time I noticed that all of my teeth were crooked and that there were gaps between my teeth. I looked terrible. I thought, "No matter what it costs I am doing to get major work on my teeth until they look nice again."

Then suddenly it hit me, "This is my dreamsign!! There is a very good chance that I am dreaming!. I just need to do a reality test. Let's see...what do I want to try?"

The first and only thing that came to mind was that I needed to try to float. I concentrated and nothing happened.

Then I decided to fall backwards and see if I could float. I fell backward and right before I hit the ground I caught myself. But for some stupid reason I didn't count that as floating.

"Hmmm....nothing is working. Everything is too real. I guess this time I am finally going to have to accept that I have bad teeth. I can't always be saved by having it turn out to be a dream."

And so I came to the wrong conclusion that I was not dreaming... and the dream either continued or faded out. I do remember waking up at some point and saying, "Dang--that was a dream...and I totally missed it. Stupid!"

This was the first time that I have missed becoming fully lucid after questioning my state within a dream. Very frustrating. But now at least I understand what some people have to go through in order to determine if what they are experiencing is real or just a dream. I hope I have learned my lesson and won't give up so easily again.


Edit:

I just wanted to add that the "falling backwards" thing... it is something that I have done often in dreams. I don't think I have written about it. But I enjoy falling backwards and "catching" myself before I would hit the floor. I kind of bounce a little on my back before I am able to go right back to an upright position again. I will often do this again and again. It's it actually very fun.


Edit 2:

Oh and get this-- last night before I went to bed (after watching Star Wars ep 2) I had just read the section in the Lucid Dreaming book about....yep....Critical State Testing. Yes...and I still blew it.


And...no Star Wars dream..... http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...s/icon_sad.gif
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1-31-07

Lucid Dream!</SPAN>

I read out of my Lucid Dreaming book about MILD before I went to bed-- and this is the dream I got.

The dream started out nightmarish. I was becoming aware that this huge monster/creature was getting into my room at night. I never saw it, but I could see from evidence it left that it had been there. It was really starting to freak me out to the point where I no longer wanted to go to sleep. The thought of something so big being just a few feet away while I was completely asleep made me feel so vulnerable. I couldn't believe that I wouldn't wake up with it there. I am normally not that deep of a sleeper.

The scene jumps and I am climbing a very big tree with Jeff. We suddenly see men that look like hunters in down in the next field and decide that they are the ones we need to talk to to see if they know anything about a huge creature that may be in this area and if they have any idea of what to do to keep it out of my room at night.

It takes a while to get down from the tree. I hadn't thought I had climbed that high.

Jeff started talking to the men. I noticed that one of the men looked just like Jeff. It seemed so odd, that I missed the entire conversation.

Then scene changed again and I am with my sister in my bedroom. I had slept through the night, but my sister had seen something. She saw a huge unidentifiable shape, but it had dropped something in the trash and toilet before it left. I looked in the trash and saw what looked like tiny mammoth bones. Like a small mammoth fetus that hadn't grown properly. The bones were all soft and the consistancy of gummy worms. I realized that this was a wonderful clue. The mystery monster was really a mammoth! But how was it getting in my room.

The next night I was determined to stay awake to find out. As I sat in bed I could see the opened bathroom door. Suddenly I saw a shape coming out of the toilet. So that's how it was getting into my room!. I watched as it grew bigger and bigger as it came through the toilet. It didn't grow full sized. It was a baby mammoth...only about two and a half feet high and three feet long. It didn't look real. It looked like a sketchy drawing.

As I was watching it I suddenly started thinking, "This is just a little too weird for me...a mammoth coming out of my toilet...and being all sketchy.....Could this possibly be a dream??" I needed to find out so I said, "Okay, Baby Mammoth, if this is a dream, will you come fly with me?"

Next thing I know is that the mammoth and I are both circling in the air. And I laughed out loud and said, "I knew it. This whole thing was just too weird. Yes! I am finally Lucid again!!"

I circled my room a little more and decided to just fly through my wall. I end up bumping against it. I decided that that is no big deal--I'll just go out the front door. I flew down the hall and to the front door. I opened it and flew outside. It was early moring. I said to myself, "Early morning...just like it is in real life." [Note: it was actually 2:15 am].

I flew down the street and passed a lady. She points to this man's car that is filled with junk and make s a comment about it. I remember commenting back, "Yeah, he is very unreliable,"..and then flew on.

I flew toward the school. I was flying quite slow and had trouble getting very high. Instead of flying "Superman" style, I was flying "swimming" style--breast stroke to be exact. I was going about as fast as I would be if I were actually swimming...or maybe a little faster. But even though I was a little frustrated, I thought to myself that at least I was moving and if I was patient I would get to where I wanted to be.

The street slooped down into a hill. This would be a good chance for me to get some height. I just flew straight while the street sloped steeply down.

By the time I got to the school, I was quite a bit in the air above it. I looked up. It was no longer morning, but night. The light of a very full moon shown on a layer of clouds overhead. I wanted to go up and through those clouds. They looked so magical, so I started flying upward. I finally got to the clouds and started to go through them. They were very thick clouds and I started to feel a little claustophobic. So I told myself that I needed to create an air bubble around me. So I did. It was a very interesting feeling to be surrounded by that thick cloud. Finally I broke though to the top of the cloud.

I looked around. The cloud stretched out forever and glowed in the moonlight. It was beautiful. I wanted to lay down on the cloud and rest and just take it all in. But at this point I could feel the dream fade and I woke up.


Edit:

I want to point a couple of things out.

1. I woke up in the night at about 2:15 with the dog barking. I suddenly realized that I really wanted to recall all of my dreams of the night, so I searched my brain for dreams and was disappointed to find none. I told myself again as I drifted off that I was going to realize I was dreaming in the next dream I had. And it seems to have worked.

2. Also when I woke up the clock said 2:36...so the dream was actually quite short in spite of it seeming to go on for days within the dream. Every dream I have ever timed has surprised me how little time they actually take in real life.

3. Also I wasn't as lucid as I wished I had been. I never really thought about much and really just went with the flow. The flying was really nice and magical, but I never once thought about trying to complete a task. I never thought about my sister's book, or about looking at my hands or making CB appear....http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ilies/grin.gif . So I am considering this a somewhat low-level lucid. But it was still very satisfying to awaken from and realize what I had done.



I actually had two other dreams last night. One was quite vague. I remember something about flying indoors in this great big place. I was flying up to reach something. There were two gys watching me, and it made me feel uncomfortable. I wasn't sure how they would react to my ability to fly.

The last dream was quite perverted, so I am reluctant to say much. So I won't.

Edit 2:

I keep remembering things. When I woke up from my LD I had a false awakening. I remember talking to Jeff about my LD. But then he started reprimanding me. Telling me that I had talked in my sleep and that I had given away important secrets. I asked him to tell me what I had said. As he told me I wrote them down on a can on coconut milk. The one thing I remember was the phrase "Within three months time...". Apparently there was something very significant about that.
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2-4-07

Short Lucid Dream</SPAN>

I got a lot of sleep last night. I did a WBTB this morning.

Dream:

I was at the elemantary school that I went to as a child. I was walking out on the play yard. First I remember running and then dropping my sweat shirt that I was carrying. Some girls picked it up and gave it back to me.

On the roof of one of the buildings a bunch of stuffed animals that were set up like decorations. I then noticed that two husky type dogs were real. I wondered how they got them to sit up there so still.

There was some kind of event going on on the play yard. These girls were putting on a circus type performance. They were wearing leotards and jumping off the roof of a building and down onto and umbrella that acted like a trampoline. They jumped back up and did a flip before landing on a mat.

I watched them, and looking back on the roof I saw that they were two more black huskies sitting very still. The only thing that gave away that thye were alive was the fact that they were drooling a little.

The bell had rung and I was walking back to the classrooms.

But I stopped again by one of the buildings. There was a cage with plastic walls that had an animal inside. I took a closer look. It was a kitten. I wondered why the school would keep a kitten in a cage like this. Then I read the sign on the cage where it said that although this looked like a pet kitten it was really a wild animal.

I looked at the kitten again and saw that it was quite different than a normal kitten. It's head was larger in proportion, especailly its forehead. And its eyes were a milky grey-white. I wondered if it was blind.

It meowed. I meowed back to see what it would do. It stopped and looked at me. Then I heard it laugh..a laugh which sent chills down my spine. I thought I heard it say something. I said, "You can talk?"

It looked at me and suddenly this creepy smile spreads across its face and says "Yes" in a horrible voice.

As horrified as I felt, I almost instantaneously realized that this couldn't possibly be real.

"I must be dreaming." To prove to myself that I was I leaned back into a backfloat. And started to fly backward. (I think that is becasue I was sleeping on my back which is somewhat unusual for me).

My next thougths were, "I have to find someone to ask to be my Valentine. I really want to get the Task done this time. But I am at a school. All there are are children around." But then I decided I didn't care--if I had to ask a ten year old to be my Valentine, then so be it. I just wanted to get the Task done.

But as I floated down to find someone--anyone--everything started getting brighter and the dream faded.

And I woke up in my bright room.
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2-10-07

I just had Five Lucid Dreams</SPAN>!! Or maybe I should say that I had a very long dream in which I became lucid five separate times. Whatever it was, it was great. And CB, you will like this one. http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ilies/grin.gif


I can't even remember how the dream started. I guess that's the bad thing of five LDs in a row--memory is fuzzy at the beginning.

I think I was flying and that triggered it. I remember flying down some sort of hallway. And I was like "Whoa, I'm dreaming". I remembered to look at my hands. They were almost normal, but two of the fingers were missing at the middle joint. I remembered CBs experience with looking at his hands and was surprised that my mind didn't make them any crazier than this.

I also decided to look at my feet, so I kind of straightened out (remember, I am still flying), and kicked my foot out in front of me and saw that I was wearing pink flip flops. For some reason that seemed completely expected even though I don't own pink flip flops.

CB was still on my mind and I thought to myself that I never did take him flying, and I have never yet been successful at making him appear in a dream, so this became my next goal.

I was in a school, so I figured I would find his class. There was a four story almost circular building. I flew into one of the floors and into a classroom. I asked a teacher how I could find him. I'm not sure how I even asked. I don't think I used his real name. I probably said "CB"--because that is the name I always say in my mind when I see his posts. But since this was my dream, it didn't matter what I called him, as long as my mind could find a way to make him appear that it felt comfortable doing.

The teacher told me that he was on the floor directly under us. I flew down and into that class. I was at the back seeing the back of everyone's heads. I looked for a head that looked like what matched what I had seen from his pictures--light brown hair, slightly longish. I found one. I called. "Hey...CB...."

CB turned around and I knew it was him even though in retrospect he didn't look like his pictures. His friends truned around too. CB smiled; the friends stared. I landed and was about to say something when I woke up.

Except that I don't think I really woke up (although this first time I might have, but was able to drift back into the dream. But whether it was a real or false awakening, I was able to go back to the hallway I had started the dream in. I immediately became lucid again and decided I would try again.

So I flew back to the classroom. The teacher said that CB was out on the field playing Rugby. So I flew out to the field. I only saw people playing basketball. I was about to start to look through that group when I noticed that there was another part of the field. I flew into that part and saw a group of guys in red uniforms playing what looked to be Rugby. I flew over and started going down the team. The last two guys I came to seemrd to have a match, but again he was facing away. I was about to say something when I woke up again.

This one might have been a true False Awakening, because I think I was immediately back in the hallway and lucid. I remember being so proud of myself for automatically becoming lucid again.There were all these curtains that I was flying through. They were blue and white in color. I'm not sure what they were actually made of because I don't remember anyting phycical about them when I parted them. So I kept going through curtains. I was telling myself that they was my mind's way of preparing the next scene--that at the right moment I would part the curtain and end up at the Rugby field.

And sure enough I did.

I flew to the team again, but before I could even start the search again, I had a FA again.

I found myself back in that hallway and was lucid again. I flew through the same curtains but the scene wasn't changing, so I figured that I need to try something else. I looked at my hand again. It looked the same--two fingures missing at the middle joint.

I was inside a big indoor school gym. I decided to hang from the lights and then pretend I couldn't fly and just hang on for dear life. That didn't end up being as fun as I thought...so I tried to think of something else to do. But I wasn't sure what to do. I remembered someone saying how lucid dreaming got boring if you had the ability to do it every night.

I thought, "Surely I'm not getting bored. I mean I should be able to do anything I want. Think!"

But at that point I woke up again.

The next dream I started didn't start as lucid. Something about these black men-- Oh, I can't remember. But there was a scene in a swimming pool. One man was tring to convince the other one go give away some secrets or something like that. And at one point they got in the water. I was afraid that the man would give away the secrets I seemed to be on his side. I needed to to distract them before it was too late.

So I started walking on the water. It seemed to work and the men were both watching me. Then I started to run on the water. I think I became lucid again here, and started to fly. I flew up to this big building. I decided I needed to find someone to ask to be my Valentine so I could get the Task of the Month done finally.

But then I awoke and I realized that I had had several lucid dreams and I panicked because at first I couldn't remember anything about them. Then it slowly came back and I jumped out of bed and immediately went to the computer to write them down. So I am hoping that they are accurate.<!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

2-11-07

I had another bunch of LDs</SPAN> this moring before I woke up. Unfortunately I was awakend by the phone, and it was an old friend I hadn't talked to in quite a while, so we talked for a long time. Now my dream recall is down. Of course I don't want to sound like I'm complaining. I would take the phone call any day over the recalling of lucid dreams.

I will try to write what I can remember. Like the previous LDs I was in and out of lucidity. I had many False Awakenings. At this point I can't remember chronological order real well. So I will list all the things I remember doing while lucid in my typical lucid blue.

I do remember it started with seeing black widows in my garden. I was trying to decide if I should kill them or not. At one point I saw a huge BW exoskeleton. It was far too big to be a BW. And this is what cause me to question my state.

I thought, "Does it feel like I am dreaming?" And I suddenly felt all light and slightly disoriented, and "floaty" feeling. And I knew I was lucid.

At some point I looked at my hands. They looked completely normal. I was wearing a long sleeved grey shirt. But for some reason I thought I was looking at my real hands that I was drifting awake (FA). I thought, "I need to go to sleep again so I can continue the LD."

So I thought I went to sleep again, and in the "new dream" I saw the BW exoskeleton again and knew I was back in my dream.

At some point in the dream I tried to fly. I didn't do a very good job. I would hover and then float back to the ground. I was frustrated. I thought about my LD not too long ago where I had to "swim" to get my flying going. I tried that, and I got a little highter, but I kept floating back to the ground.

Seems like I had another FA somewhere in here.

I have a fuzzy memory of being in a bedroom with my sister and laying on the floor by a bed. I have no idea where this fits into the dream. But I think something about that caused me to become lucid again.

At some point in the LD I remember being able to finally fly fast.

The last thing I remember doing while lucid was talking to Mark and Tim and climbing up this tall metal shed or barn. M and T were sitting in chairs below and I climbed up. I remember it being pretty easy to climb. I got to the top and looked down. I thought about flying off, but was suddenly scared. I felt so heavy--I really felt the pull of gravity.

I looked down below at what I would hit if I fell while trying to fly. There was a structure made of old rusty pipes. It looked like something I definitely didn't want to land on. But I thought to myself, "I can't die--this is just a dream. I can't even injure myself." But them I remmebered past dreams where I was able to feel dream pain--and how real that could feel. So I hesitated again.

But them I thought about the times where I had let myself fall off things. I remembered the "experiment" of falling backward off the balcony--how I was afraid to do that, yet I managed to let it happen. When I did that, I had just fallen into a great white void. I didn't get hurt at all.

I also remembered the Task of the months several months ago where the assignment was to jump off a cliff. I had never completed that, but had thought that that would be fun becasue I had acutally done things like that before in LDs (like my Lake Powell LD.)

But this time I jsut stood with trembling knees at the top of the barn/shed and looked down (about two stories). I actually felt terrified to jump. I really couldn't make myself do it. I kept saying, "But this time it feels way too real. The other times I was all "floaty" and I knew I couldn't fall. But this time I know I would fall. Gravity in this dream is just way too strong."<!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

I see you're franchising. How about TwoShadow's Topless Dream Journal? It could be the Hooters of the DJ world!

But I'm just kidding of course. A good move considering the size of your original DJ.

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I see you're franchising. How about TwoShadow's Topless Dream Journal? It could be the Hooters of the DJ world!

But I'm just kidding of course. A good move considering the size of your original DJ.

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Oh gosh...I wonder how many dreams I have actually had that I was topless in....:shock:.

But, yeah, I felt the need to do this--break my journal into smaller bite sized pieces.

The other one I thought I might enjoy seeing is how many Flying dreams I have had. That would be a really big Sub Journal, I think.