Just wondering if anyone has experienced anything like the following:

I can fairly easily tell when I am dreaming, I do it without a state test. It's just something that I intuit. The problem is, I don't actually attain lucidity, per se. I struggle in my dream trying to feel the lucidity I know is possible, but--even though I know I am dreaming--it doesn't occur. I still feel as asleep as if it were a regular dream. It's like I'm just not oriented to the fact that I am dreaming, even though I say it in my dream ("oh, I'm dreaming"). How can I recognize the state, yet not wake up in dream? It's really frustrating.