Right, first of all, I know that the reason for this forum's existence is to help people become lucid. It has fulfilled that purpose for me. Now I need help to never become lucid again, or more realistically, as few occurrences as possible.

WTF, right? No, not WTF.

I must be a special person or something, since I'm apparently the only one who is not having fun with this little experiment. I've been becoming lucid many times in the past months. Every time I become lucid, bam - nightmare. Anytime I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep -> sleep paralysis and BAM. Nightmare. Wake up, still in paralysis - wait, what do you know? No I'm not awake, it's still a nightmare! I'm being sucked face first onto my bed while my chairs are sliding around the room with a demon face in my television.

I have classes, very hard classes right now. I have recombinant DNA lab in exactly five hours and I can't go to sleep because every time I fall asleep it's like SP takes five seconds to fully set in, I start seeing flashes of light, hearing noises, and suddenly I'm awake again. Then I'm freaking out because I'm really not sure if I am or not and I know that if I'm not then in three to five seconds of asking that question...all hell is going to break loose.

I've got the website on one hand telling me that everything is normal and that all I have to do is remember that it's not real and it will go away. No, that doesn't work for me. Nothing does. Then there's the other hand, with my mother and father telling me to see a pastor because they think the devil is trying to get me and that toying with dreams has opened some sort of gateway.

Now that sounds like the fuckest baloney shit I've ever heard, but I'm not going to completely rule it out.

NO. Seriously. This is not fun, it is not pretty, it is not entertaining in the slightest bit and I want out - by any means necessary. I can't deal with this bullshit right now. I'm not bashing the site, and I'm not saying I wouldn't love to stick around for years to come to read people's stories and things like that, but I dread going to sleep.