You also seem pretty convinced that you are not going to be able to have any recall. Your certainty about the problem can help fuel it.

If there is anything we can learn from practicing lucid dreaming it's that expectation is everything. If we expect to see something in a LD, we see it (sometimes ). But the same goes for this. If you expect that you won't remember, you won't.

Try taking it easy. -Know- that you can recall and that there is nothing wrong with you, and you will make it easier to remember. When I started trying to LD recently, I was working so hard at it I was having terrible dreams that were boring and of course non lucid. Once I stopped focusing so much waking energy on the matter, I had a lucid dream for the first time in years. If you are so uptight about the recall problem, try just relaxing and not worrying about it so consciously.