so lately i've been having dreams in which i've felt guilty. for instance i steal things in the dreams and later feel totally overwhelmed with guilt. it's weird... furthermore these dreams hit early in the night... in my later REM periods i've been having very satisfying dreams. i'll wake up and feel good about myself... i don't know why but they just put me in a positive mood... then i start to recall the dreams from earlier in the night and i get to wondering what it could mean. the combination of burdening and empowering dreams is setting my mind asunder.

it's been 4 nights in a row so far with the same results.

any thoughts? i'm not really looking for a "cure" more than i'm looking for a reason. i think the guilt could be brought on by my parents... they want so much for me but i'm not willing to live how they want me to... so i'm pretty sure that's where the guilt is coming from... but the combination of the guilt and the nirvana is freaky deaky.

-jane