Hello, I'm new to this Website/Forum. I have never talked on a forum before. When I was about 13 or 14 years old I saw the movie Inception for the first time (Absolutely incredible movie, have seen it 16 times on DVD) I just tried to see what would happen if I just lay still, closed my eyes and ignored any scratch or itch urge as I noticed that the team in Inception seemed to to that (although they did use the machine), and after only about 5 minutes I felt as if I couldn't really feel my body and that there were a few images that popped up in my vision even with my eyes closed and then I started to notice I could control these and they weren't just images. After a bit of random internet searches of Inception and background stuff, being a huge fan of it, I realized this was most probably what was called Lucid Dreaming. I did this about 3 times after and then eventually got kinda bored of it. I haven't tried doing it for about 3 years because I just forgot about it and life got in the way. However I've been going through a really tough time this year mainly through not being able to go many places or do anything as I live kind of remote, lack of enjoyment outlet etc... Just this afternoon coming home on the bus after a really crap day I felt really tired and (after remembering it and thinking about it for a while) tried to Lucid Dream. It scared me how easy I was able to do it, got a bit of a fright as soon as I saw something clearly and opened my eyes immediately (causing me to only Lucid Dream for less than a second). as soon as I opened my eyes everything in the bus seemed very clear in vision and I pretty much had no emotion at all and couldn't even think about much at all unless I tried really hard. This lasted for a lot of the afternoon and I got quite worried because I had the same detachment feeling from anything around me as I did when I went through an Anxiety Disorder a few years back.
In summary, after having a crap day, just moments after having a Lucid Dream on my bus I felt ABSOLUTELY no emotion until the worry came to me about how I was feeling. Also that I could think about my homework so much more clear if I kept my focus on it.
From this I have got so many questions that I don't know where to start so if anyone could comment on this or reply to it, however you make conversation on this then that would be much appreciated.
Thanks