Ok so last night I had this dream I was in some kind of army training thing, but it was like I was in high school and the general was making me and these other guys take all these extremely hard written tests. Finally, it was over and I looked at the clock (could have used this to do a reality check) and it was 3pm and everyone could go home. So I'm walking down the hall and after a little while I see this girl from my job, and she comes up and starts talking to me. I can't remember everthing she said, but then she mentioned something really strange. She started kind of making fun of me for what I was wearing. I think she said something like "Yeah I don't understand why you're wearing that. I don't really like it that much. It's a bit simple, don't you think?" Now, when I looked down, I noticed that I was wearing my uniform from work! But in the dream I didn't have any strange reaction to this and I said "Oh yeah, I was making biscuits this morning" (At my job, there's someone who always makes biscuits). But the messed up thing was, I never even had a dream about being at my job at all that whole night!
Now what I really should have been wearing in this situation would have been a military uniform, because everyone else in the "class" I had been in was wearing those. Now when this girl said "It's a bit simple, don't you think?", it's like she emphasized the word simple and gave me this smile like she was saying "Do you understand?", like she was giving me some kind of secret code! It's like she was trying to reach me and tell me how ridiculous the situation was, so I could realize that what's happening just doesn't make any sense. Like she was trying to say "Hey, you're dreaming", without going right out and saying it.
Here's what I believe was happening. I think it was my subconsious trying to get me to see that it was a dream! Now, unfortunately I didn't realize this in the dream, but a couple minutes later I woke up and put all the pieces together. The interesting thing here is, the only subconsious I've ever known is that part of my brain that's always tried to stop me from becoming lucid. But here, I really think it was trying to help me! Why?
For a while I lied awake thinking about this, and then a possible answer hit me. Could it be that my subconsious, through my efforts, had temporarily become oblivious to the fact that it wanted to stop me from being lucid, and had been tricked into trying to help me out, just as with any ordinary skill? Perhaps because of the effort put forth, for a brief time, the subconsious sees that you're trying to learn a new skill (to lucid dream) and even though at first it knows it must try to stop you, you keep on pressing on and perhaps convince the subconsious mind that it DOES in fact need to help you out and meet you half way. Maby there's a point where it's programmed to realize "Wait he's trying so hard here, this must be important", and reverses course from resisting to helping.
I know this may sound a bit out there, but think about it. To balance things out, let me just say that last night I was reading some thread about how victorious the subconsious is over the lucid dreamer. Dreamers who have years of lucid experience suddenly thwarted in their efforts, defeated in new and interesting ways by their subconsious minds, and go through multiple false awakenings, only to loose lucidity. But you see, though that is possibly inevitable, perhaps the first thing that happens is your subconsious mind gets tricked into helping you become lucid, and then when it starts happening all the time, somehow is programmed to say "enoughs enough" and tries to stop you anyway it can. Perhaps this will be my fate. It seems that it can only either help or hinder us, but I think this is fascinating!
This could explain why I always see dreamers with only a few months experience that are seemingly experts. Does the subconscious help lucid ability at first, only to hinder it later? I also remember reading about someone on here that said they have lucid dreams so much that it actually interferes with their daily life. This person kept on dreaming about doing certain things, and then didn't do them in real life because of thinking it had already really been done. So perhaps that's a case of the brain trying to stop lucidity by making it happen too much in an attempt to attack the dreamer! Will this happen to all of us? Perhaps we will become masters of our subconsious mind, only to become its slave. Fascinating!
Anyone else know anything about this, or have experienced anything like this?
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