I am having this recurring thing where I feel like my soul is literally being sucked out of my body, as if someone is tugging it away from me. This has happened a quite few number of times, and I am pretty sure I am not dreaming while this thing happens. I enter a sleep paralysis kind of state, but not quite. I am able to move, but barely. This is followed by intense vibrations throughout my body, and it is sometimes accompanied by intense tinnitus in my ears. After this, my soul attempts strongly to leave my body, and I have often felt that it has partially gone out, but I always succeeded in pulling it back in, and when I do the vibrations stop. However, doing it once is often not enough. Once I have managed to get my soul back in, I tend to close my eyes again (I am partially awake during this, but surely conscious), and if I even blink, then my eyes is forced to closed shut, and my soul is again yanked by something (although I notice no being doing this, but I do feel an invisible force pulling), the vibrations return, and sometimes the tinnitus returns. I go through this cycle at least 4-5 times, before I am wide awake and can move freely. I need to mention that whenever this starts to happen to me, I am extremely scared of dyeing as a result. I am so scared, that when I am doing the tug of war thingy, if I could move freely, I would call 911 because I always feel like I am dyeing. Although, I have never done so, as when I regain control, I am aware I won't die. Regardless, I am straight up scared to sleep, and usually stay-up for an hour or so.
Note: This has happened when I am sleep deprived and tired, although there were times when this has happened when I was seemingly well-rested. This happens once in a month or so. I am searching for an explanation to what is going on here. It doesn't seem like Sleep Paralysis to me. I have symptoms of WILD, but I thing they differ. I have never been able to let whatever is happening happen, as there is this surety within me that I will die if I do so. Any help is appreciated.
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