Hi there. You've probably looked at the title and was like, "why are you doing this?" Well I feel pretty discouraged since I haven't gotten anywhere and I've been working on this for a month. Now I get what you're saying. A MONTH? That's stupid! Well you have to understand what it feels like to me. I'm giving up an hour and a half each night. I never stay
up late with my friends.

I'll go to bed at 10:00 the latest on weekends instead of playing Xbox with my cousin because I won't be able to wake up naturally if I'm too sleepy. I'm not allowed to set an alarm because I'm a deep sleeper and I'll wake up everyone in the house. I tried the alarm clock once and it didn't have snooze so I kept playing until 5:00. It played for 2 hours! I slept through it!

My mom had to wake me up and tell me to shut it off. I fall asleep at 10:00 and wake up naturally at 3:00. I usually pay on my stomach like I normally do with my arms to my side. I never see any flashing lights or geometry figures. (No I don't concentrate I just look under my eyelids passively) I only feel my body tingle and get slightly heavy but only from my breathing and having my body get relaxed at the start.

I never hear sounds or get sleep paralysis. I just feel like I would get more encouraged if I feel as if I made some progress. Like hearing something, anything. Or seeing a flashing light once. I always go to school tired because I lost sleep. Again I go to bed at 10:00 and I have to wake up at 5:50 to get ready for school. Note that I am only 13 years old and in middle school 7th grade. I think that I'm wasting my time doing this.

I was very interested in this at the start and still am. I'm excited every night I go to bed because it means another chance for me to WILD lucid dream. Yes I have tried MILD and DILD. Those seem to never work and the last time I tried MILD was when I still didn't know too much about lucid dreaming. Like what WILD was. But I tried to MILD that night knowing how to do it.

I feel asleep and then I had a terrible nightmare. An old lady (who I think was the devil) asked me my beliefs about God. Then when I said I believed into him she told me I shouldn't and did something to me that I forget. I had a bad dream about my neighbors being vampires and ganging up on me. I never had a clue that I was dreaming. Even if

I did a check on a dream I would think its normal to breathe through your nose. I can never take a hint. I feel like quitting and I don't want to. I decided to quit this morning since I was very emotionally unstable. I started to cry and I didnt know why I was crying. I guess I just want to lucid dream pretty bad. I feel like my time has been wasted. All that I learned was from the Internet and not my progress itself. Which makes me pretty upset.

Just put yourself in my shoes. You've researched about lucid dreaming at the start. You tried to mild and dild but had a terrible encounter (im very religious and I get scared that demons are with me 24/7) for my first mild. I then do a few reality checks for a few days (20 each day) and then after about 3 days you try it and have a very strange dream (I'm an undercover cop and someone tries to tell me that im Olaf and I start to fly in the air searching for Anna like wtf?) and I never got the hint.

I looked at the watch in my wrist and it was just white. There was no time on my watch. So I just shrugged it off. Then imagine trying to WILD every night and saying no to your cousin for playing Xbox on the weekends and being able to stay up late playing amazing games with basically your best friend (Yes I'm a girl).

Then going to school exhausted and almost falling asleep and not being able to focus. Then going to sleep and doing wbtb every night and lay there. I just feel so crappy and stupid right now and I feel like I really can't do anything unless it's playing a video game. If you could help me get back on my feet it would be appreciated because I'm on the verge of giving up this lucid dreaming...

-Rose