I love my non-lucid dreams. They give me a second chance to deal with problems that I am simply not dealing with in my daily life. I believe that they are very useful and sometimes necessary for maintaining a balanced mind. Especially nightmares, when I am truly terrified of something or just upset by something in my dreams, I find that I can discover a lot more about myself. About the things that are too close for me to see normally. It's sort of like being forced to confront them, so I think it's a great idea to try to regain the non-lucid dreams more.
Yet I also find that some of the most healing dreams are nightmares in which I am somewhat aware, so that I can turn lucid and confront the source of my disturbance, charge headfirst into the problem and resolve it. While being non-lucid is great for realizing what some of your latent problems are, I believe that being lucid during a nightmare and not running from it is a great way to resolve some of these problems.
Por ejemplo, I used to have nightmares all the time of zombies trying to bite me and turn me into one of them. I realized upon waking up that it was a reflection of my own troubles with being attacked and ridiculed for being different than other people. I eventually had a dream in which I was aware during a zombie dream and I let them bite me, and I turned into one of them - No more fear, never had a zombie dream since.
But this led to another dream in which I was running down a desert highway, racing with other people my age. All along the sides of the road were snakes that would bite us as we ran along. This venom did not kill us, it turned us into snakes. As I noticed my competition turning into snakes, and I noticed that I too was turning into a snake, I stopped running and walked into a cave that was in a cliffside. There was an old sage in there that gave me a remedy to the poison. He taught me that I don't have to turn into a snake to become immune to other peoples' attacks, but that I only need to learn to love them and to love myself.
As for your dream on 12/04/13, I can't specifically interpret your dream because it has a meaning that is specific to you. But if I had that dream, I would interpret it as my own shame and embarrassment about something that happened with my father. And how I really didn't want anybody to know because I would feel as though it would reflect upon me, as being his son. Especially it would show me how much I am trying to keep this thing bottled up, but there is a part of me that really wants to get it out because it is eating me up inside, not being able to share this trauma with the people that I love the most. But I feel as though I can't tell anybody because I don't want it to hurt how they feel about my father. It's a very difficult situation with no easy answers, I hope you the best in resolving it
edit: Also, I think another option is channeling your unconscious mind. I don't know if you have any experience with this, but it's basically connecting your conscious mind with this other aspect of yourself (it sounds like, from your posts that you are always connected) and then just stepping aside and letting this other part of you speak.
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