I haven't really been trying lucid dreaming, but I was just feeling tired today midafternoon and just plopped in my bed. Some few minutes later, I fell into a dream state. I had a super vivid view of everything in the dream. And yet, I knew I was lucid dreaming because I could still feel my real life body lying down on the bed at the same time feeling everything in my dream body. It was strange, because it was like feeling like you're lying, but at the same time feel like you're standing up. So I knew I was dreaming.

So anyways problem lies here. In my dream there was the big ocean below me and I kept falling onto it bouncing way back up like it was a trampoline. And at the moment I realized I was lucid I thought, "Hey, why not try flying?" So I try to fly and close my dream eyes and imagine myself flying, but when I open them, I'm not flying and still bouncing around over the ocean. It's kinda like this. Imagine yourself in real life. No matter how hard you imagine yourself flying, it's impossible. Well, in my dream, I kept imagining it and it wasn't happening.

HOWEVER, I did notice that I can control my dreams, yet not in the way I like. So I stop bouncing and land floating in the ocean. I keep thinking, please don't let a shark appear, don't let a shark appear. And what do you know? A shark appears. So I think to myself, if that shark appeared because of my thinking, I should just as easily be able to make it disappear, right? Well I think really hard and the shark still doesn't disappear. And right when it's about to attack me, I start bouncing again off the ocean continuously. So I'm thinking, "Thank goodness. Just keep bouncing and don't stop and the shark won't get me." And right when I think that, I stop bouncing. Then the shark almost gets me once I land but magically saved by a random stream of water that washes me away from the shark.

So my questions: Why is it when I want something to happen, it doesn't happen. Why is it when I desperately hope something doesn't happen, it happens. And even more, in my dreams, why is it that when I desperately hope something will happen because I'm in danger, I get saved at the exact last second, but the way I'm saved is not the way I was hoping to be saved. Example: I was desperately hoping I would start bouncing again once the shark was coming for me a second time. However, I end up getting saved by what I least expect. A jet stream of water. In fact, things ALWAYS happen in my dreams that are completely random and I don't expect, even when I'm lucid. And funny thing is this thrilling enjoyable bouncing action packed dream only lasted 10 minutes when I checked the time in real life, yet it felt like 30 minutes.