I am 23, have felt as if I have lived a thousand lives, experienced more than an average soul can handle. I wont tire your eyes with a drawn out love story or a face that I cant put my finger on. This is a matter of fear, of sanity. *Before I scare anyone away I will start with the 2 dreams from the last few days... ~~~~ First one, I am with my ex (dated 3 years and cheated on) and shes crying and packing up things and my mother is screaming "get her the fuck out", and see the girl I cheated on her with, walking away from my house in the front yard. I ran after her and begged her to stay. And she said "you know after what I have seen, I could never see you again" heartbroken, I realize I am dreaming because Its been 1.5 year since I put a nasty wedge in my exs relationship and 6 months since the girl I gave it all up for, naturally there was no logic behind them both being in the same house at this point in time, my ex is 8 months pregnant with the new guys baby and they each moved to opposite states (both from maryland, ex to wv, other to pa). I wake up and grabbed my phone to text the girl I gave it all up for, and ask her if she remembers her dream at all. I laid and waited for a response, and then realized I dont have her number anymore, and therefore must still be dreaming. This continued for what seemed like an hour of waking up and knowing I am dreaming. I finally woke and grabbed my phone and started sifting through contacts for the missing "Taylor", and at last, I was awake. Would you be relieved? Because I was utterly terrified for my sanity. I told some friends, no one wanted to listen... Then the next day I become aware while standing in my kitchen, because all of the clocks are flashing "10:22", im admiring the new samsung stove I just purchased and am reading the features near the LCD display, then suddenly a downward roaring noise. Like a rocket just flew by. As I hear this, the dream gets dim and all of the lights/clocks in my kitchen dim to off. POP. Awake, in my bed, I think to myself "how oddly detailed of a dream, down to the stainless steels grainy reflection on the glass" and slowly fall back asleep. Awoke 2 hours later to find my heat was off, computer was off, and all clockes in the house were reset and flashing. If it werent for these two recent dreams, I would continue to be a casual lurking on this forum but now, I need your help. Dreaming use to be fun. I never controlled my dreams, always saw beautiful faces, voices, ideas, that woke me in wonder. Now, its fear. Do I have anyones attention?