The title pretty much says it all. As much as I want to still have lucid dreams, I can't find the motivation to practice.
Part of the problem is general school stress. I always feel stressed out and think "what's the point of trying to lucid dream, I am so stressed now it won't work anyway." Plus school sort of fries my brain and I don't have the will to keep thinking about lucid dreaming as I fall asleep.
Another part of the problem is I am having trouble confirming my reality checks. For example when I first started lucid dreaming back in May, I could do a nose pinch RC and it would be very easy. But now, I've done that a billion times and it's hard to pay attention to If I can actually breathe. This makes RCs a lot of work and I no longer want to do them anymore.
Finally, I am disappointed in virtually all levels of my lucid dreaming capability. I can't recall one or two full dream a night. I cannot become lucid or stay lucid very long, and I cannot control my dreams as well anymore. I know this sounds sort of like a redundant problem because if I find the motivation to practice, these will improve, but I am saying even if I am at my full LDing potential, I am disappointed in these areas.
An in all, I sort of have a cycle where I pick up a hobby then drop it after a couple months and I don't want that to happen to lucid dreaming, because I have had so much fun, and there's still so much stuff I want to do!
I want to reach a comfortably high level of motivation perhaps by the end of the month.
Thanks in advance for your help.
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