Hello there fellow Dreamviews members! As some may know, I have been here a while, I am a fairly active member, and am obsessed with lucid dreaming. Yet I am incapable of having them (so far, at least).

When in a dream, it doesn't seem like I am placed in a world of my subconscious creation, and un-aware that it isn't real. For me it seems like I am viewing a dream on some monitor or something, or like I am viewing someone else's dream in my head.

In each and every one of my dreams it is in my conscious train of thought that I am dreaming, but it feels like I am spectating the dream so I can't do anything with it. I am not actually conscious in my dreams though, it is still like a normal dream, but my dream self is obsessed with the fact I am dreaming.

As an example: In my dream last night, well... I don't want to go over the details... but at one point I clearly said out loud "It is all 'cause i'm dreaming". Me saying things or thinking things similar to this is an occurrence in every single individual dream that I have ever had. I am pretty sure that I have never actually been lucid in my life. Both when I was 7 and a couple months ago, I had what appeared to be lucid dreams, but I am almost certain that they just normal dreams where the story was about me being lucid.

Now, could anyone please explain what this means? I have literally driven myself mad due to frustration of this many times in the last 5 months. What could I do to fix or even harness what I have explained in the last few paragraphs?