I am 15, i have lucid dreamed 3 times, and none of them were WILD. i am wrighting a scifi/fantasy novel and thought lucid dreaming would be a very good way to inspire myself to wright, or act out the scenes in my book for better characterization. Last night i tried to WILD, and i got into SP, but i didnt really hallucinate, i just saw flashes of pointless lights dancing in front of my eyes that never turned into real pictures, just color. Then i started to get exceedingly heavy and almost felt like i was losing my body. (i found info on all of this in the form) but what i need to know is this: when i felt like i might have started to fall into the dream, i ddnt see anything, only black, and my heart was racing at a speed so fast that i thought i was going to have a heart attack. (which is the part i need most help with.) and also, it all finally mellowed out but i could still feel my body, so i opened my eyes and thought maybe it was a false awakening and did a few reality checks but it wasn't. and when i really am dreaming, will i be able to move freely in the dream like in reality, or will i have to just think about moving like I'm a vague imaginary figure.

All and all it seems like i got almost done transitioning, had a near heart attack, and in fear backed out of the transition. which is a huge disappointment. And i just need some1 to instruct me on how to WILD a little more detailed than the tutorials.