I saw this thread and just thought I'd share some things from my journal. I don't usually write anything down, but when it's particularly distressing I might jot some quick things.

"Well I realize now I just keep having the same dreams.
They all involve someone who I love and loves me back.
I woke up crying after the dream. I couldn't take it. I don't usually cry because I just don't care enough. But it hit me when I woke up this time. It hit me hard. The moment I woke up. I just sobbed like a baby. For love.
I can't keep having these dreams. All it is is me and a girl. In love.
Well dreams can't get any more generic and sappy than that huh. It sounds that way, but the dreams really are deep. I love you. Whoever you are in my dreams. But you already know that.
Please come true dreams. Please.



Another dream about falling in love.
This time it was an old ex's sister.
But I realize the people I dream about are just people I've known being tools for the essence of love.
We were making music together outside. It was a game where you put together samples and make your own music. The interesting thing is we were in bed, outside in a fantasy world, playing it. Basically, everything I love about everything was contained here. Falling in love, beauty, music, and fantasy.

It took a little turn though. While staring at the clouds together, her mom (played by an ex ex's mom) showed up, but it was her dad (no one I know) who ended up driving us both to some exotic location that he wouldn't say.
We ended up going up and up a large hill. Up higher, and higher. Where we were going was just on the other side of this last hill, but as he drove up it, the car fell off and we all fell very far down to our deaths.
I remember then, seeing the news that me and the girl had died together while her dad barely made it out alive.

Can someone make these dreams stop. Please. I can't stand only living in my dreams. It's the only place I actually live anymore.
I want them to be true and all I can do is cry when I wake up."