Hello everyone,

I joined the forum a few days ago. I thought i'd make my first post a sort of confession.
I want to learn about myself through my dreams, and I don't want to hold back when describing
my dreams no matter how effed up they may be.

The way I see it is that in order to learn anything about myself I have to step aside and look
at myself as objectively as possible. That means not judging my thoughts and not being ashamed
or afraid of what I may learn

So I will share with you the most disturbing dreams i have experienced. I don't know much about
dream analysis but im sure Freud would have something to say about these.

A common theme in my dreams has been violence, which I think is pretty typical of a boy who
grew up on the ninja turtles. I find fighting an extremely exciting release. That's why i do Kendo.

I have had several dreams where i am confronted with an enemy who i see as a threat, and i go
a little bit overboard in my reaction. In all three of these dreams I hit the enemy with a blunt object
repeatedly until the person is long dead and all that remains is a puddle of blood and some bone
fragments. I always totally obliterate them. Afterwards i feel i have gone too far, but don't feel any
remorse.

As for sexual dreams- well they of course are relatively frequent, but the ones i will mention are the
rare ones i wake up from feeling confused about why i did what I did.

5 years ago, or earlier, I happened to have been sleeping in brother's bed (not with him) and that
night i had a dream that I gave my mom cunnilingus (oral). Similary i had a dream a couple years
ago where me and my dad were kissing. I dont remember how i felt during the dreams, but i woke
up feeling pretty grossed out.

Recently i had a couple disturbing dream as well. I was fooling around with a girl much younger than
me (she's 13 and I'm 19). I find this girl completely uninspiring and have no physical attraction to her.
While we were having 'dry sex' her stomach was huge like she was bearing quadruplets. I was lucid,
why didn't i summon Scarlett Johansson? I wasted for first 5 lucids on failed sexual escapades.

I also had a very homoerotic dream recently, i was completely passive, but a guy was liking my face,
and i just sat their feeling awkward.

The point of this post (sorry about the length) is to get out of the way my nasty secrets, but for the
most part to encourage people to feel no shame when they have strange dreams, if they happen to
have any.

I welcome anybody else to share these types of dreams they may have been keeping to themselves,
and maybe we can make some sense of them. Feel free to post anonymously, as this is a dream confessional...