Some months ago I stopped "training" my lucid capabilities, actually I have stopped nearly everything, it wasn't a good time in my life.

In my last lucid dream, I have met Chad, my dream guide, and he wanted to tell me something really important, but I woke up prematurely from that dream. After a DEILD, I could manage to see him, but he was more trying to make me re-enter my dream than telling me this "important thing".

Since then, I have had stopped doing RC's, I have stopped being mindful, I even stopped doing the things I love, my lifestyle slipped away from my hands...

After some time (6 months or so) I started again looking into lucid dreaming from time to time, and I got an email about an interview with a guy that is a LDer (if you wanna watch it heres the link: clickity click here) and how he met his dream guide.

Chad!, I have forgotten completely about him, he looked worried last time we have met! Maybe he even wanted to warn me about what could happen. I even shed a tear when I remembered it.

So I started improving my dream recall, bought myself a new journal to start clean with a DJ, formatting it correctly etc...

And I went to sleep.

First dream (non-lucid): Someone who looks exactly like Chad (brain, oh you...) is teaching me how to do a RC. I wake up.
Second dream (non-lucid): A really old-looking Chad looks at me with a disappointed face, like wanting to tell me: Why you stopped?

What do you guys think?

TL;DR: I have abandoned everything due to depression, including my dream guide, now he is disappointed with me after 6 months.