This is gonna be a long one 
My earliest memories are a mesh of tons of different things and I have trouble distinguishing reality from illusions of the mind when it comes to them. I would consider my earliest dream to be the one of the demonic clown. I think I had the dream when I was around three or so. For the longest time, I believed that these events really did occur. However, it makes sense that it was all a dream. Since these memories are a mix of different things, I'll share it in the way I remember it now.
The Dream
I am in my bedroom. The room is small and there is a shoe-holder mat placed over the door. For some reason, the room looks like the house I live in now. In fact, this memory is engrained like it happened in the house I live in now, so I "remember" the upstairs hall being my current upstairs hall, the steps and the railing being the ones they are now, etc. etc. But we moved to this house when I turned six. The bedroom has a bluish type atmosphere. On the opposite end of the room (from the door) are two small closets. They are next to each other, side-by-side.
For whatever reason, I am in the room by myself with the door closed. This is strange, because I am usually accompanied by one of my parents. I look around the room and something strange happens. The small head of a clown-doll pops out of the area above and between the two closets. I have no idea why, but we begin to talk to each other. This experience happens several times, again and again on an almost day-to-day basis. It becomes a regular thing. When I am in the room by myself, the clown appears in the exact same spot. Just his head. There are several things I am not supposed to do. I am not supposed to tell my parents about him. I am not supposed to leave until we are done talking. There are other rules to follow, but I don't remember what they are. Since I have no reason to distrust him, I listen (I didn't exactly know that clown heads were not supposed to pop out of the wall). After several of these interactions with the clown, he disappears. He just stops showing up.
Some time passes. We are still living in the same house. I am not sure why, but I end up going to my bedroom by myself again. My parents are downstairs. I close the door, I think to play. As I close the door, I am facing the direction adjacent to the closets. I remember the clown. I wonder if he will appear again. I have not seen him in a long time. Hell, I can't even remember how he SOUNDS like.
The head of the clown pops out again above and between the closet doors. I see him and he says something to me. His voice is deep, demonic and inhuman. I start to get scared. He says something along the lines of "Don't yell for [dad's name]!" I panic. I run out of the room down the upstairs hall and around the banister of the stairs. I am getting ready to run downstairs to get my dad to help me. A LONG arm wearing an equally long white clown glove follows me as it stretches down the hall. It grabs me and pulls me back into the room.
The memories REALLY start to blur here. Something about my dad coming upstairs and talking to it. As if my dad were negotiating something so it would leave me alone.
Hindsight
For years after the dreams, I thought these things really did happen. I would be afraid to be in a room by myself as I thought this thing would appear. These are a few of my earliest memories period. There is no way I can distinguish reality from dream when it comes to these memories.
However there were a couple times I have talked to my parents about this clown to see if I had ever mentioned anything about it to them. According to them, it must have all been a dream. Not once when I was a child did I mention anything about a clown to them.
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