WOW! Your pictures always amaze me TwoShadows!! Both views are gorgeuos 
Am I completely weird or do other people do what I do? During a long hike, when my back is tired from carrying a pack, I simply wear it in front of me. (Granted, I have a small chest.) I've found it's often MUCH easier to carry it that way.
I'm smoking has continued until Monday night. I abuse Valium to get through the withdrawals and because I had to drive on Friday as well as tomorrow and Monday, it would be no good to have a Valium hangover. But if I can succeed in quitting from Monday night until Friday, I should be good to go. But the cursed meds have a half life half the age of the person taking it. I'm 34 years old, so 34 hours after taking it, I still HALF of the meds in my system. Another 34 hours later, I have half of that.
BUT, nicotine counteracts the effects of the med, so if I take my usual 30 mg on Monday night, if I wear a nicotine patch on Friday and take a Provigil I should be fine. If not, I'll just reschedule my visit with my 3 kids.
I've quit several times this past year so I know I can do it. I just have to REFUSE to give in to a negative attitude.
Because I'm doing this for spiritual reasons, I need to tell myself I'm quitting for God even if I am never reinstated into the Congregation (which is a lie I tell myself. I tell myself they don't WANT me back, so I light another smoke). I just have to remember THEY'RE not the reason I'm quitting.
Cardio workout(s) done today: Cleaned for several hours
Weight workout(s) done today: ditto
Areas of body worked today: over all, mostly arms and legs
Current weight: 127
Foods consumed today: Snack sized Chocolate Cake, a can of coke; 8 oz. Sunkist Petite Peaches drank the natural juice, 20 oz. bottle of XXX Water; about to have some Beef Jerky. I've stayed away from fries!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mood: 6
Meds: Blah... nothing but 2 Acid Reducers, a Provigil and Celexa. Haven't had enough food on my stomach to brave taking Strattera.
Health: 7 Depressing dreams last night put me in a good mood lol and Provigil has given me some energy. I've done MANY chores and I've been playing a Puzzle Game on XBox 
Studied: 30 minutes so far
Ministry: 1 hour informal
Cleaned: 7
Recreation: 5
Groomed: 3
Total Sleep: about 8 hours
Quality of Sleep: 5
I am absolutely amazed I've not had any headaches since taking Valium. I feel like a new person lol. I ALWAYS have a headache. But... it won't last. I HATE Valium because I HATE sleeping all the time But there's definitely something going on and if I ever see a doctor, I'll be sure to mention it. My blood pressure has been low-normal instead of normal-high, so perhaps that's all it is.
**Edit**
At 1AM hubby decided to take me out for breakfast. A new place opened up practically right across the street from us called the "Huddle House" (like a Waffle House or Denny's).
It was surprisingly very good. I had a bowl of grits with butter and 3 packets of Sugar, 2 pieces of Sausage, a few bites of Hashbrowns (the shredded kind and they were too crispy for me for the most part), 3 eggs Sunnyside up (but I ate only the yolks lol dipped with 1 1/2 slices of toast) and a glass of Pepsi.
Now I'm pleasantly filled up and was able to take my Strattera.
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