How do I meditate without making myself so much more angry and miserable than I was before? It seems to bring all these negative feelings up to the surface whenever I attempt it. Maybe it's because I associate meditation with a being a very delicate, difficult task that I know I'll fail at so I usually put it off, as if it's preparing for a speech in front of lots of people or diving off a cliff. Also, whenever I try to breathe softly and let go, I'm filled with deep anger because I feel too submissive and defeated when I just "let things happen". I can't even begin to describe the intensity to which I feel submissive, weak and worthless for not being angry and headstrong, and I do have a daily problem with anger (needing to hit things/myself at even the smallest things that don't go my way), so that's why it's very hard to stop myself from those habits, like I'm "losing" if I don't do it. I assume that during meditation, you're only supposed to feel better, not worse.