I've been thinking about this a lot lately. The issue has been bothering me daily, about every time I'm by myself and start thinking. I've noticed that I tend to think negatively, I observe my surroundings and think about life with a sort of depressed mindset.
I've been especially noticing people who seem positive all the time. When I try to imagine being positive, it seems like it would be so fake. It seems like there's some fundamental honesty in negativity that could never exist in a positive mindset. Some truth in depression that's missing in happiness. I've been trying to decide what this is, whether it's just a feeling; maybe I consider negativity so much a part of my identity it just feels more comfortable to be negative. But it seems like more than that. It seems like, while being critical and negative I'm able to think more deeply, more clearly, I'm able to uncover truths about things that I wouldn't while happy. Any thoughts on this?
Where on the negative-positive scale should we strive for our thoughts to be? As positive as possible? As negative as possible? Some balance? What's the balance? Or should we just think however we automatically feel like thinking?
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