I still fear God even as an atheist. I don't know why but I was a bible thumping God-loving and God-fearing at the same time. It fucked with my head.

I went through a nasty period of suicidal thoughts and depression and God only made it worse.

If you ask me, he abused me more than anyone ever could. I might post my story later.

Also, if you watch Richard Dawkins documentaries, he visits a rehabilitation center for children who have been abused by religion. It's quite sad really.