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Dream Within A Dream Firstly, a warning for explicit content. I'm leaving my old dream journal behind because reading through it, I realized I've seriously moved on from that era in my life. So new era. Comments will be in green. Afterthoughts in gray. Dream reminisces will be in teal. Lucidness will be indicated in title. I use a lot of pictures. ~ Thanks for looking.

[Jeff777]

Can't wait to read what transpires in here.

[nina]

Yey...I look forward to this. (and need to get to work on my own )

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Shitty & shifty dreams; shitty recall. To get motivation I'll start off with a reminisce. August 2009 Had a dream about F after a very long time (years). I think this is the 2nd dream I have ever had of him. A shadow from the past. their identity unknown. I felt familiarity as we talked, but I couldn't place my finger on where it was coming from. Just the feeling, the essence empowered me. And I didn't care, let the identity be temporarily lost. Maybe I subconsciously knew, trying to avoid lucidity. Because lucidity would reveal the truth of reality. So I dreamed. A gathering in a large one-floored building, in a foreign city. Many people were present, most of them family and friends of family. As if we had never met, we approached each other. Strangers, technically. Immediately I felt drawn. The whole conversation is a blur. So be it. The feelings associated are much more important than inadequate and meaningless words. A part of it stuck out to me. The question about religion has been bugging and bothering me since I switched. I had been reflecting on it last night, just before getting to bed. Wondering, wanting to know the truth. So in the dream I asked him, to get a satisfying answer. Appreciation of history, but accepting the falsity of it. I was relieved as I never had been. What was it? My desire to know the idealized truth manifesting in my dream? Or a message from him? Probably the former. But suddenly, it was revealed to him that I was a vampire. [probably influenced from True Blood] I recall my fangs coming and him being revolted at the sight. Everything was destroyed, from that single fact. Regret, pain, sadness, everything. I couldn't bring myself to question the authenticity of us, I never have in the past and never will. I was hurt, and I wondered why it was so important, that one thing, that it could change it all. I knew past happenings were true, but why did one thing hold such value to him? He left. I went outside, observed the city, got in a car, and drove away. Regret. It has always been there. During the drive the realization came to me that he was human. Human psychology, the different. A great loss to me, because we all want someone who is different. Someone who doesn't fit into the standards, someone who doesn't believe in the norms. But when it boils down, we are all human. And he was too, no matter what super-human qualities I gave to him. More than anything, this dream just represented my fear. My fear of "it" not being what I thought, of just being . . . Whatever. It was a sad dream.

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Lucid Flying, Skarsgård, and Vamps Night time. My house's main door was open. I was walking across my lawn, and I saw that a large group of dogs entered my house. My uncle was standing outside. I grew angry at him, his stupidity of leaving the door open and thus allowing the dogs to come in. I told him I wouldn't enter the house unless he went through it and carried the dogs out. He did so. I went inside to an empty house, it seems to be much more bigger than it is. I went into my room and went to sleep. I woke up. Sunlight streamed in to my window. I was dressed in black and wearing boots. The house was now occupied with my sleeping family. My colleague was up, and it was time for training. (I was aware of the fact that we were all vamps) I stared outside. She told me that someone was going to come in a few mins to attack my family. I had to learn how to defeat them. There was a small piece of paper lying on the ground. I used psychokinesis to move it into the air. I was pretty amazed, as I did not know vamps could do this. I figured the attacker would be scared shitless if I used a random object lying around to attack him. And then he came. He was a "Snake," as in some sort of serpent-human creature. Like Reptile from Mortal Kombat. I was shocked, my partner and I were not expecting this. He'd come to rape a woman that was living inside. I launched myself on the window ledge, positioning myself tightly against the wall. My vision shifted to third person. was watching him now, my own self that was on the window was not visible. He was about to enter the house, when suddenly a bullet shot at him. He crumpled to the ground. My vision shifted and I saw that it was me shooting at him, and I continued to do so until the bullets ran out. Pretty shocked needless to say. My dreams never contain violence, and certainly not done by me. I jumped back into the room and I saw that Alexander Skarsgård was there, clutching on to a woman in a white gown. The woman was the one Snake had planned to rape. Skarsgård thanked me and quickly left. My oldest brother had decided to come with me, which irritated me. Transition. We were in an open place, mostly covered with water. I thought about flying, so I did. I simply launched into the air, avoiding the water. I thought about how easy it was to fly, and then thought about Axel telling me about his previous lucid and how he had difficulty flying. Thus I became lucid. There were trees in the water, and I just flew higher and higher and the trees kept on growing. It was amazing. All my senses were multiplied, I could smell the water and feel it spray on my face. I could feel the wind. The leaves of the trees brushed my body. I saw that my brother was flying with me, which made me irritable. There was a building that came into view. I launched on the ground, right outside of it. I was having difficulty getting back in the air. I smashed the window and entered the small building. Kind of weird, seeing a building situated on a body of water. The building was narrow, and it led to another that read "Reptile House." Sensing that if i went there, this lucid would quickly become a nightmare about snakes, I decided to leave. My brother insisted that I go to the Reptile House, he knows about my extreme fear of snakes. I told him no, and went to leave through the window. But I saw that my jerk of a brother had decided to close up the windows. They were narrow and I could not fit through them. I could have, probably squeezed through, but I knew it would be a slow escape and my brother would attack me from behind. So I simply ended the dream. I found myself in a dark hotel room, standing in front of the mirror. My grandmother and father were sleeping in beds behind me. The bathroom to the right of me had a small window, through which I saw that Skarsgård was shaving, but I awkwardly noted that he was shaving his crotch. I couldn't see anything besides his upper body, so I assumed it was his crotch. I thought, my grandma better not see this else she'll flip out about manners. I think Skarsgård was a guest of mine, so I'd get the blame for his misbehaviour. I left and got into my bed. At some point he got out and I talked to him about vamp affairs. Interpretation of first bit is obvious. I've been living alone with my uncle for about a month. No one else is there, and he's a freakin' pig. Very bad manners. Doesn't clean anything, trashes the house, etc. It's pissed me off quite a bit. And the bit about my brother. He's been begging me to go food shopping with him and design a diet plan for him. He asks me everyday about it, and I would if I had the time. Our sleep schedules are completely the opposite, so it's difficult to find a time where we can eat the same meals and go to the supermarket. He's been on my ass about it though, and he takes offense to me not giving me my undivided attention to him.

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Very Scattered. - I was at the NY house and a bunch of people were gathered. I roamed around the house, and had just woken up. I went to the window and saw R&R[sisters] there. We were all then looking up at the sky. It was filled with stars and it looked as if the whole sky was sparkling. I stared for a bit and saw a star shoot across in a huge loop. Then, to the right, a star that seemed to be made out of rainbows was snapping in and out of view. I'd never seen such a phenomenon and asked R&R whether they saw it. They said no, so I told them to keep staring in that general direction and it appeared again. I left to get my glasses so I could get a clearer view, despite the fact that everything was crystal clear. Out of habit, I suppose. Just like this but with a dark blue overtone. I transitioned into another dream. I was in my old bedroom and there was a badminton tournament. I went downstairs somewhere and played for a bit. I was pretty good {n my dreams }. Everyone at the tournament was staying over my house. So I headed off into the master bedroom to go to sleep, but I saw that one of the guys at the tournament was sleeping in my bed. he kind of looked like Xain, and he was certainly attractive. I politely told him and woke him up. He was slightly embarrassed, and then he offered that we go outside and do something. I accepted, and at some point we were outside some stores. There was one instance where we had to run from the store's employee's, and dash [or more like smash] out through a window. (Why do I always smash through windows in dreams?) We decided to go flying after that. Next thing I knew, we were on a helicopter with Axel flying it. It was amazing. We were roaming over mountains, but they were rectangular shaped. They were all covered with snow and the whole atmosphere was a cool blue color. Kind of like this, if the mountains were all uniform/rectangular shaped and it was snowing really hard. So some of these mountains were just protruding from the air, it seems. I told Axel that I wanted to land on the top of one so we could walk around, but he said it was too dangerous. This dream faded. - Showing up to midterms on Monday and realizing I didn't study at all. - My brother telling me he'd get me an ipad if I helped him with his diet. I told him I didn't want one and he got really frustrated. Edit: - My friend from GMU telling me he knew that one Turkish guy, and would introduce us. I was like.."What!?" Shame it was a dream. :'[ - Me coming to the decision that I would indeed choose Global Studies over History. I was so sure..I think I've reached my decision.

[XeL]

Dope. Keep em coming.

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[Forgive me for being highly agitated, I just wrote down my dreams and the browser shut down, luckily not saving anything] I was back to high school, which was weird because I was supposed to be in uni. I wasn't really going to bother going to class, I just glanced at my new schedule. I walked around with Jake (not cloud), which was weird because we were in a relationship. (He's my friend's boyfriend, though she's been thinking about ending it with him for a while.) I went into the office, which was completely changed with a new desk/position. I wondered why they were there. Observing the changes, it felt pretty weird. On my schedule it said I had a class called "Door to Door," and I wondered what in the world it was. I supposed it involved walking form door to door.. I glanced at the time and suddenly realized I was supposed to be in math. Jake and I walked to class, and Dr. J was teaching it. DR. J was mad at the fact that I was late, and she shot me a disapproving look. I hastily got into my seat, looking at this girl Summer. I wondered what class I was in, I'd already taken Math Analysis last year, but Summer was in here, which had to mean it was indeed MA (she dropped out of it last year). Dr. J instantly called on me, asking me to name this function. Luckily, I remembered it (sin^2x + cos^2x = 1), and luckily it was the easiest one. Slightly confused, I wondered why we were going over functions if this was indeed MA. We didn't do those until the end of the course. In any case, Dr. J started to explain what we'd be doing today. She had the smart board up with a 3-D illustration of a cityscape. It was an aerial view of a long road stretching on for many blocks. She zoomed in, and i saw that every block had a single letter on it. She said we'd be measuring/creating something on that road according to our first initial using calculus. So apparently this was calculus class. I got a little lucid, and decided to leave class and jump into the illustration. I did. It was weird as hell, and felt like a real city. But everything had a golden glow to it, and there was construction going on. I jumped from the road into a tunnel, and then into the side road. The world was so weird, every different place was like a different layer. They were all thin layers that you had to jump into. (Think of a stack of photos, really big building sized ones. You have to jump in from the top and the little photo becomes a world unto itself) The creator of this weird world glanced at me from the next fold over, and told me to come take a look. I did, it was a vividly green place with huge-ass mountains ascending above the ground. Suddenly, I found myself in this world. I was atop a huge building, but I was a frog. There was a field below me, maybe a corn field. But it was rally small, and neatly constructed in a square shape. Bravely, I decided to jump into it, thinking it'd cushion me. I jumped. [I was on top of a tower, jumping below] So when I jumped down there, I had the sudden realization that my assassin was out there. Lurking. In the field. I was scared, my little heart pounding in my little frog body. I wondered who it was. I searched around, but I thin the assassin kept running away. Finally, the grass uncovered it. It was a small stuffed bunny, and I was terrified of it. (I didn't even think of at all about how silly this was, despite my slight lucidity and high control) I quickly transitioned out of the dream before the bunny could get to me. I was back into my human self, in my old NY house. I was talking to Devir, and it was his birthday. We chatted for a bit, it was a funny conversation. I think he sent me some video. Then, I got online and saw this weird tumblr post. In it, Brian (O, not CanceledCzech) had tagged me and Mr. Robinson (old History teacher) under a post wherein he called Robinson out for being a bitch basically. I recalled an incident in class where Robinson had accused me and Brian of something, namely Brian, of something we didn't do. Now that we weren't in that school anymore, he decided to call Robinson out and tell him the deal. There was something illegal about the post. Brian called my on my cell, and I warily responded. It was so weird, talking to him after these many years. I hadn't realized how much I had missed his presence. I tried to talk him out of the post, telling him to delete it. I told him that we both could get into legal trouble because Robinson was a teacher. Brian finally agreed, albeit reluctantly. We decided to meet up after that, and it was like walking an old dog or something. When I woke up I felt a little depressed. - False awakening at some point where I got up, turned on PC, and wrote my dream down.