My nightmare journal:)

Hi,
I've decided to post all my nightmares( i don't find them scary just gruesome and horror) because they are frequent with me.
red=lucid
black=non lucid.
il start off with the dream/nightmare the night before.

25/12/09
i was watching these little bald dark skin boys about six of them just arguing in someplace very dusty and you could tell they were in poverty. the boys stomachs were swollen and they just had ripped dirty shorts on.( at this point i couldn't hear what they were arguing about).i think they were standing out side of this cubby house which was quite small inside and they could barely fit in there.they moved inside of it very quickly, they started to gang up on one of them kicking him and punching him making him scream. there was a group of people just standing in a line and another line behind them just egging them on. I was standing right smack in the middle i wasn't thinking just staring and watching this boy getting bashed to death.
the little boy eventually got knocked out or died but they still continued to bash him. blood was squirting from the inside of his mouth and i don't think the boy was breathing.
i walked towards them people behind me still yelling and screaming i didn't know i had a sharp stone in my hand well i must of knew but i wasn't thinking about it but i kept on walking. i stood in front of a boy and stared him in the eye and placed the sharp stone at the top of his bald head and pushed it down till i couldn't see the stone no more...
the boy and i's eye contact never wandered and no pain showed.
it was odd...

How incredibly disturbing.

28/12/09
these aren't really gruesome but it involves death and spirits in all of them
One of my teachers (mr wade) had recently passed away in a car accident about a week ago.
1.i was in an assembly at school sitting beside my boyfriend and my best friend there was two doors just near me and mr wade had walked out and i thought he's alive!? i pointed him out to kim while he continued to walk but she couldn't see him. no one could except for my self and a few young boys that were surrounding them crouched like slaves?
he was wearing light colours and i know he had initials on his top but im not to sure what letters it was.
he looked lost? and quiet just wandering around without anything to say.
I thought he must be a spirit beside me kim she started to giggle at these two little boys/twins that looked like they were having a fit they kept miming something really fast over and over again with wide eyes.

2.i was on my bus and they had missed my bus stop i was furious cause i had to walk more. I stood at the front of the bus and saw my two friends brothers and i said woah two oliver's cause they looked extremely alike because they were standing in the same position.
I got off with kim? ( i'm not to sure if she was there when i got off or if she was with me the whole time) she kept walking but i stopped and saw my boyfriend and i was shocked because in my dream i knew he was dead ( but he is alive in reality) anyways i didn't know what to say because he was a spirit the first thing he said was i'm going to stalk you( not in a freaky way) and he laughed.
it comforted me that he wanted to be with me. I wrapped my arms around him cause i missed him so much and i looked him in the eyes and kissed him then i gave him another hug haha not wanting to let go.
I asked am i cold? and i'm not to sure what his reply was but i knew he didn't really care. Kim had stopped about 20 meters away facing me and matt hugging and she looked really pissed off.

3.i walked into my house and saw that my dad was there i ran up to him and hugged him while crying hysterically because i knew he had died( alive in reality) and i was so upset i was digging my nails into his back he seemed so calm and quiet and not angry??? which is weird because he is ALWAYS angry.
he let go and pulled out a black little velvet bag and pulled out two sluggish like stick i had to bite the end of it to "activate it"? and when i did i had to push the bulge down till it came out and id rather not say what it was shaped as... but my little brother had to as well and a half drawn Buddha image came out? and my dad didn't say anything and it seemed like he glowed a bit?

4.i had died and i was just watching my boyfriend talking to a girl she was interested in him but he wasn't at first...
the scene changed and everyone was at my funeral my coffin was facing up and it was leaning against something making the coffin tilted a bit.
The top of the coffin was glass and the bottom it was red.
there was someone speaking and a lady interrupted painting the floor with this shiny yummy like paint all over the floor the speaker was asking what she was doing and the painter had something to say when she was speaking ( i don't know what she said) it basically woke me and i was a spirit.
I walked through my coffin and headed towards my boyfriend who was at my funeral as well he was with that girl again and she offered her self and a blow job and he gave up and allowed it they went off into the bushes.
i was furious and i ran off out side and i saw them two getting married i thought about sitting at a tree to try but i didn't want to instead i walked over to a clown/joker like person and tried to scare him. i had a sign behind me and i didn't know what it meant( i cant remember what it said starting with an R?) and a boy said that it meant beautiful.

5.i was at my naunas house and my parents had died ( alive in reality)and i was starting to rebel.
I was in the bathroom with two guys and they had a machine imm pretty sure it was a hand drier but they turned it up side down and we were throwing fruit in it so we could make a mess everywhere.
i had a shower ( that scene didn't show) anyways i walked into a room and looked at my self in the mirror my hair looked slightly different longer.
my body turned invisible except my head and hair and then i fully turned invisible and ran out to the street screaming and jumping on the bonnets.
i ran back inside and i wasn't invisible no more ... i wasn't embarrassed more ashamed i started to cry hysterically and ran into a room and crawled up into a ball tears pouring from my eyes and me barely breathing.
I was thinking No one knows what its like no one.
my nauna came in and basically ignored me and fixed something on the wall... and my little brother asked if i could help him with his ds game.

not so scary... but i woke up being teary.
if anyone is reading this could you tell me what all those dreams mean???
anythign will help
thankyou:)

Heyy im back again.
well this one is gruesome.
firstly i was in my art rooms and my teacher who i sometimes have for music sat next to me and was going through my art book and he was criticising every tiny thing he wouldn't shutup and i remember him starting to get angry at me and said harsh words and stormed off.
the scene changed and i was in my room ( i'm not sure where the teacher was trying to kill me ) but i knew he was trying to kill me and i had killed him first.
( didn't really see that scene but i knew it happened.
i was in my room without guilt and i heard my boyfriend and i opened my window and asked if he wanted to cuddle ( Lol it gets more gruesome ) and he got excited and said yes i told him to hold on because i should tell mum theres a body sitting in the lounge room.
i walked out of my room and saw one of those spinny doors that they use in hotels and banks sometimes? haha anyways and in one section i saw his body blood was everywhere and i had cut his limbs up and organs laying beside him with his body all cut in section squeezed into the one section of the door.
i spun the door around and said mum look what I've done and my god it was disgusting.
mum said alright il call the police and i said alright then and i looked at the parts of the body only once more before returning in the room thinking what do i say when they ask how this happen?

when i can i try to draw my dreams ill try to draw this one if i get a chance.
oh btw i got lucid:) but only for 10 sec's trying to blow up my school diary in front of a friend it didn't work:(
Epic:)

hey I'm back again
this isn't a nightmare its another one of someone dying and being a ghost?
more of an emotionmare i guess so sorry readers not really thrilling.

31/12/09 ( happy new years eve)
i was sitting at my grandmothers long table in her backyard and there was a wedding soon to be. i was upset because my boyfriend had died and i was thinkingno one knows what its like ( i keep saying this is my dreams lately and i keep dreaming of dead people and ghosts? new dream sign probably)
i was thinking about the only ways of having contact with him cause of him being a ghost.
I thought i cant cuddle him or feel him and he was no senses?
i started to cry hysterically still thinking how no one knows what its like.
then we were near her garage and everyone was standing and talking about the wedding and matts friend came around the corner with a white suit on i think he was the groom? but who was the bride??

have a happy new years ever and day :)

I'm sorry you had a dream about me dying,
maybe it's cause you're never on here and we don't talk anymore.

JK,
The first nightmare was creepy:)

uhh?
i didn't dream about you dying or dream of you???
...
well I've been off and on the past few weeks i got my laptop taken away sorry.



last night i dreamt of someone trying to kill me but it turned into some weird animal dream.
so no night mares today sorry.

8/1/10
I was walking in the country side with matt and I kept saying I needed to find him. We were pushing the leaves out of our way and I started to run because he was just over the corner I got half way there and I turned around and saw massive tall tulips and the beautiful country side I said wow that is amazing next time il bring my camera.
I kept running and found who I was looking for I got really upset it was the horse (?) and he was dead and I kept saying things to him and he started to move and said you saved me analise…
Then matt started to shoot at its head over and over again saying "he's was dead hes dead!!"
my horse:(.

2nd dream
I was at mac square and sitting at the yougart place for some unknown reason? I was staring off to space and I saw dad holding another womans hand he was walking closer and closer to me not realizing I was there and I looked at him furiously and he let go of the womans hand but in the dream it zoomed up to there hands and in slow motion.
I started to scream at him saying how dare you!!! I stormed off to go tell mum at work but there was a stall outside of mums work he saw me furious and took a picture it showed up up on the screen I was ugly not looks ugly but the emotion I was showing was anger.
I stormed in and mum was sitting down at a table which had a piece of material not equal on each side. Dad appeared out of know where and hew as sitting down and I said ‘ Mum! I just saw dad with another woman holding her hand!!’ she didn’t seem to care at all like it wasn’t even a shock? She said ‘ we are getting a divorce next year’ out of know where I screamed ‘ WHY! Is it because of me??’ dad got angry and said ‘ its not fucken about you’ I kept moving the material equally on each side it was starting to bother me.
I started to cry and jayden kept taking pictures of me and I yelled ‘stop!!!’.


i forgot to put this in haha the first one was gruseome poor horse:( I SAVED HIM!! but my boyfriend killed it again
and the second dream more emotional.

well,
this dream is odd... and freaked me out.
Sorry i haven't posted many of my nightmares lately because i haven't had the time to or i forgot haha?
anyways

16/1/10
i was in a big forest quite dull and scary but me and my boyfriend were having sex near a big tree.
out of no where a big coloured man had fallen out of the tree on top of me him facing on me haha? it was so random and he started scraping down below... trying to scrape everything out my ovaries and all... ( weird huh?)
and i pushed him off in pain and me and my man stood up and the man had sorta turned into a girl? im not to sure and he started to burn inside out and his skin started to turn black and ashy and blood oozing out.
his/it's/her eyes were at the back of its head while it's/his/her body spasming.

O.O
odd ...


2nd dream
i dont remember much but there sorta fragments.
Anyways,
my nunul was standing with me and he started to have a heart attack and he fell to the ground and died i was greatly horrified and upset.


3rd dream
me and my nauna were standing up and she started to have a heart attack and i started to greatly upset she fell to the ground and i was helping her sit up she was trying to say something to me?
out of no where i tried to give her cpr cause she wasn't breathing and i kept pushing down on her chest i think she might of survived im not sure?

Dont remeber when i had these dreams but sometime in this week:D

I was with a boy and he was staring at this girl.
The scene changed and he was standing infront of a stair case...
He turned his head to the side and asked " Analise do you see the blood?'
i looked behind his shoulder and saw blood streaming down the stair case.
thennnnnn
he flew up the stair case with angel wings?

the scene changed again and i was in the room where he had killed her and i was trying to remove the steel in the stanley knife so he couldnt kill any more.





Last night
I was sitting up with a friend sorta... and he suddenly pushed me down and made sure my arms were behind my head he quickly pulled down his pants with one hand and i was wearing a dress and he decided to pull my undies down and he raped me...
I was screaming and screaming and i finally got out of his grip and pushed him off and ran away...



Sorry for my typos at school bells going to go for 6th period any moment!!!
BUH BYE.
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Oh, my god. I am sorry you had a dream of getting raped. that's horrible.

I was sitting on a windowsill watching a group of people play in a river.
The river looked amazingly disturbing filled with bloody reds, browns and blacks.
there was no way of me getting down besides diving into the water and i really didn't want to.
so i decided to just sit and watch everyone swim, this one man caught my eye though he was so perfectly toned, the way he moved and he looked so ... i cant explain it.
he looked up and saw me stuck so he opened his arms wide for a signal for me to jump.
I jumped and i ended up being on his back...
there was red marks all over his body and blood flowing from little holes i was running my hands over his back and saw so many leaches sucking blood out of his back.
I screamed not of being scared for my safety but for his.
I laid him down and i needed to get back to that window sill cause there was some moisturiser that i had with me and i thought it could help soothe the pain.
i don't know how but i did some type of ninja jump into the window sill got the moisturiser but i was to scared to get down cause i saw the river.
two people held a rope from each side and i assumed it was for me to get on to but they started to use it as a skipping rope.
i was confused because one, they had a skipping rope and two, they were standing on water.
i dived anyways but missed the rope and i started to swim to fast cause i was scared of the leaches.

The scene changed and i was on the beach standing by my self and i saw that man i was so interested in.
He was with a group of people but when i started to walk towards him the people disappeared.
we were standing watching this whale / massive sting ray that was trying to get back out to sea but the waves were pushing him to the rocks beside him after lots of struggle he finally got out back to sea.

i turned my head and saw two seals very close together snuggling and they were each others mates. it was quite cute.

The second scene isnt much of a night mare but the first one is kinda.

:)
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