I fell back asleep focusing on the moon. I was already half asleep since this was a WBTB so I ended up in the dream state semi-lucid. My goal was to find Allison. But I had also intended to take Nomad with me… he'd said he wanted to help. Somehow I found myself on the moon…
I was on the moon. I looked around. I was not alone. There were other people there. I thought they were all acting strange. One of them was acting different. He was half jaguar, half human. I immediately thought I had found Nomad. I went over to him and said we could go find Allison. He said sure. I used Through the Never and focused on finding Allison. A portal opened and we both went through…
On the other side we were in an empty room. Or mostly empty. Allison was there. She looked like she was focused on something. A star gate appeared. I told Allison that was cool. I asked if she wanted to go somewhere through it. She looked at me and smiled… and then disappeared. I pulled a Homer Simpson (D'Oh!).
I turned to Nomad and shrugged. I asked Nomad if he wanted to use the star gate anyhow since it was there. Before he could answer again Allison appeared. I told her welcome back and she was dreaming. She said something about doing a WILD. I said that was cool. I have my best luck with WILD's. So let's go before she… Allison disappeared. I pulled a double Homer (D'Oh, D'Oh!).
Since she had returned last time I suggested to Nomad that we wait around a bit before leaving. She might be back again. We waited around twiddling our thumbs. Or at least I did. Nomad was changing forms. From jaguar man to full jaguar to his normal form and then back to jaguar man again like a kid who just discovered a new toy. It was interesting to watch. A bit later Allison appeared. I grabbed her shoulders. I said she was dreaming, but DON'T WAKE UP! Please… I told Allison we could through the star gate and find something exciting to do light fight the Goa'ulds. She said that sounded cool. I told her to go through the portal and I would be right behind her. Nomad mentioned a reality check. I just wanted to get going before she woke up again. I said if we were ready we should go. Just don't wake… Allison disappeared. I pulled a triple Homer (D'Oh, D'Oh, D'Oh!).
I was hoping Allison would appear again. Nomad went back to his transformations to amuse himself. He was choosing more unusual cats now. He changed into a snow leopard. I told him to stop there because he had taken the form of one of the most beautiful cats in the world. I told him I wanted to pet a snow leopard. He rubbed up against me, almost knocking me down. His fur was sooooo soft and silky. I petted Nomad in snow leopard form. I saw something happen. I thought Allison was coming back. But instead a tornado formed and pulled me into it… and through a portal. Nomad grabbed at me as I went but he missed…
I was in a post apocalyptical city again. I recognized the place. I knew what that meant. I looked around and spotted Damion. I asked him what he wanted. He said if I was too stupid to figure that out then he wanted to know how it is that I am able to keep breathing on my own. I had the idea that would've annoyed me at one point. But now it just sounded sad. I walked over to Damion. I asked him how many friends he has. He said he has plenty, and they aren’t a bunch of fools like me and my friends. He continued insulting me, but I was tuning out his exact words now. I could just hear the insults in the tone of his voice. I finally interrupted him.
"You know," I said, "just because one person screwed you over doesn't mean we're all like that. It's not like I want anything from you. You attack me because you are out to get me before I get you. But I'm not out to get you. I get pissed sometimes and think I'm out to get you for a while, but really I'm not."
"What the fuck are you talking about?" Damion asked impatiently.
"You attack me to cover up your own insecurities. To cover up your own wounds," I said, "But I'm not here to hurt you. Don't hide from me, I'm actually a healer. You are a sick patient hiding from the doctors who have the medicine that can save you."
"Don't you stand there and try to psychoanalyze me!" Damion said angrily. "I don't have to listen to this!"
I looked in Damion's eyes. "I see pain in your eyes," I said, "Pain from a wound that won't heal. I have wounds that won't heal. Knives in my back from people I counted friends. A broken heart thrown back at me from a boyfriend I thought loved me. These things still hurt. It takes so long for them to heal. But positive energy and love will heal them, or at least soothe the pain. I told him I wanted to share that positive energy with him."
"You've gone even more insane that you already were!" Damion exclaimed and backed away a step.
"I know what you need," I told Damion, "You need a hug! You need to know someone cares!"
"A what?" Damion asked, "No! I don't need a…"
I didn't wait for him to answer. I went straight over to him and embraced him like a long lost brother. I whispered comforting things in his ear such as, "Everything will be ok," and "Be your true self and people will accept you," and "Don't be afraid to love again." Damion was struggling to get free. I held him tight. I focused positive energy into him. He was cursing at me and telling me to get off of him. Finally, probably not knowing what else to do, he went still and just stood there as I hugged him. I pulled back and smiled at him.
"See?" I asked, "That wasn't so bad, was it?"
"You're a complete lunatic!" Damion exclaimed before he disappeared. Everything around me faded to black and I woke.
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