Thread: Zhaylin's Dreamlog

I didn't go to sleep until the very last one of my cigarettes was smoked, which was after 5AM. I was very sleepy and kept falling asleep playing Oblivion, so I watched a movie and that kept me going til the end

Little wonder, though, that the majority of my dreams last night involved me finding a couple cigarettes and giving in to temptation Though I had several dreams during the night with different themes, cigarettes ALWAYS came up. I'm just going to have to get used to that now and accept it. When I had quit for 8 years, I frequently still dreamed of smoking

I dreamed I was on visitation with my kids and my sister Tonya was there. We were arguing and I mumbled under my breath for her to "bite me". When she asked my kids what I said, they told her and the visit was almost canceled.

In another dream, I was a Watcher and there was a teenaged guy in a tub. A really old, ugly woman gets into the tub with him (well, she was really in the tub first, because I remember wondering why in the world he would get in the tub with her)... The boy was very nervous and freaked out. Then the woman grabs her face and rips it off. Underneath was an attractive transvestite. He told the teen that the teen needed to go and be with the one he loves. But he looked so sad when he was telling the teen that, that the teen said he would, but making out with the transvestite just one night couldn't hurt.

In another dream, I was going out to eat with my family (mom, dad, sister, kids). But I could be there only 2 hours (the length of the visit) and I couldn't find any socks or underwear. When I found panties, I stuck them on my head at first, fo some strange reason (???). And I wanted to bring my carton of cigarettes because I used it as a flying aide. I would sit on the carton, and then tilt it in the direction I wanted to go
My mom was talking to me, saying how I had no idea how hard it is for her and how since she hurt her toe, she's in constant pain.
Then she left and when I looked out the window everyone was loaded and ready to leave.
There are other aspects I'm skipping out of laziness... my kids were cleaning a couple areas, my oldest son was dating, my mom not thinking he was ready to date, my boys were late getting home.

My vallium is starting to kick in so I will have to close thi for now.
Hints about other dreams I had to help me recall:
I was on my period, a town of men ran and hid shouting "Unclean"; tried rescuing a woman but she had her head cleaved in, saved her husband, set himn free by flying him away to his home an hids.... Was at my grams house- the Big House; rabbit houses being disposed of, 4 or 5 baby bunnies in a cage on front forch. In the back yard, saw rabbits that looked like dearly departed Neevil (Dutch Bunny), but I realized on of the "bunnies" wasa HUGE dog. Dog wouldn't leave me lone because I was on my period.
That's not all of it, but the important ones.

I've gotta get back to lseep now.

Blllaaaahhhh.
Over the course of several hours yesterday, I took 3 valiums to keep me asleep. I woke up at some point and took the trash to the road, but I fell in the process and laughed my butt off. The rest of the trip was uneventful.
Now I feel like I was drinking all night. The room is spinning very slightly and I want to puke. Waking up to the RV at about 90 degrees didn't help in the least.

I dreamed of everything from family to flying to sex and war. But I couldn't even begin to try to make it coherent .

I'm trying not to leave the the RV so I wont be tempted to buy any smokes.
I've still not used my patch or had any mints.

Now, time to drink a bottle of water and go back to sleep.

The only dream I remember from last night was of being at my congregation. Only the seats were like those found at school with desks attached to the chairs. And there was a flurescent (sp) bulb above each desk.
We were having a Book Study but I didn't study before hand. Debby R. brought me over a box of bulbs and told me she wanted them back after the meeting.
And I had 2 copies of the same book for some reason.
Ron H. was conducting the study and he asked me what an image was (the image was shown via a projector lol). I looked and looked through the book but couldn't find it. And I was confused why he asked me because disfellowshipped people don't answer questions during the meetings.
He eventually said he couldn't wait any longer when the rest of the congregation started grumbling and said it was the wheel from a chariot.

I also dreamed something about my grams and it was a negative dream too.

Both dreams came about because I was in an extremely grumpy mood about my spiritual state and my family when I fell asleep. I realized it was just the Valium "talking" (it's a depressant after all) but I was blaming people for things that aren't true and my brain exaggerated those to snap me out of my "woe is me" mood. The people in my congregation are loving and NEVER behave in the way I dreamed.
I'm actually in a better mood because of the dreams lol

I really don't know how long I was awake for- at least 2 days. And I don't know when I finally fell asleep last night. It was some time after 3AM but before 6 because the birds weren't singing yet. I was playing A Kingdom for Keflings. I felt sleepy and decided to save my game and get some rest. I saved it, then promptly "passed out" lol. I woke some time later and the screen was darkened from inactivity and my controller had shut itself off. I told myself to turn off the TV, but I fell back to sleep before I could lol.
Sometime later, I woke again and saw the same darkened screen. I managed to hit the power button on the remote and I fell back to sleep

The only dream I recall was about zombies which is interesting because I've not watched anything concerning them for some time now.
At one point, I had my map view of the world as a "presence" and nothing more.
My dream memory is jumbled, so instead of trying to place the dream in a proper timeline, I'll just write of specific events that I recall.

At one point, I was at a gas station, wanting a fountain drink or some water. The sizes of the cups were unusual. Two sizes were free but one of them was little more than thimble sized lol. The third cup cost $3.00 and it was a squat glass that could hold maybe a cup of fluid. I was very thirsty though, so I decided to get the $3.00 cup.
The dispenser was even more unusual and I could quite figure it out. You had to place the cup on a sort of metal stand that fit it precisely and then push it forward to get ice. A man commented on the trouble I was having and I laughed and said I couldn't figure the darn thing out. Then I noticed it had tiny tubes where the ice dispenser was for the filling of the "thimble" sized cups.
I eventually got it to work and checked out but I don't recall actually drinking anything.

That part of the dream was inspired by my trip home from visiting Myles yesterday. I stopped at a BP/7-11/Subway for gas, a drink and a snack and a lady beside me was getting a Slushie but the cup she used was the smallest, most squat cup I had ever seen lol. And when I went to put ice in my own cup, the ice didn't work at first. I had to push the dispenser harder and then I had no trouble.

Some other point in the dream I had been rescued by a guy, dropped off some place safe and as he drove off in his truck I was filled with certainty that a zombie was clinging underneath the truck and the man would die.

That was inspired by watching Heroes. I was certain Sylar had followed Claires dad's and was hiding somewhere and would kill him or the entire family when they met up in the desert.

Then I recall a man getting out of a truck. He barged into someone's home, thinking it was vacant but it wasn't and another guy asked: "What's your problem man?!" The driver stepped back outside and was going to leave peacefully, but then he changed and attacked the three occupants of the house and "I" (who had no part, presence or role in any of this) realized there was a strain of the zombie disease that was now airborne.

At some other point I HAD to see some lady. I drove my car straight into her building (whose entranceway was big enough to accomidate (sp) it and then I hid it in the only apartment that was to my immediate right. The vehicle simply disappeared when placed in the room lol. But then my attention went to a oddly colored mouse at the wall. I was amazed it wasn't terrified and hadn't darted back into its hole. There was a sort of dust on the floor where it was and it was happily rolling around it in, in the fashion of a cat showing affection. And then it dropped to its side, had a series of seizures and died.
I recalled seeing dust like that someplace else but couldn't remember.

I then went out into the hall. There were three apartments and at the end of the hall (but still on the left side) was the managers office. I avoided it like the plague for some reason... and I couldn't remember where the woman lived lived, then guessed the middle door. I went to knock and the door opened. I couldn't see her, but there was a TV and it was showing scenes from the news. Her bed was next to the door and I saw her shape under some rumpled blankets. I called her name and apologized for my intrusion. She got up right away and said she was always available. Wasting no time on small talk or false friendship, she asked how much pot I wanted lol.
I felt guilty for only seeing her when I needed something. I truly liked her and wanted to get to know her as a friend, but everything was hectic and I hadn't had the time to pursue friendship.
I wasn't there for drugs though. I wanted to hide or help her or both.

During another point of the dream, I was running down a street. Others were ahead of me and zombies were quickly gaining up on us. I told everyone to take to flight (literally) and we started flying.

At some other point, I was hiding with a group of people. One of them was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She had wavy black hair and piercing green eyes. She was a Social Worker and she was protecting a small child who sat on her lap. The others wanted to kill the child because they thought she was infected. She spoke in a strange way and said things that didn't make sense. The woman calmly told the group the girl was psychologically troubled and had some disorder that made her behave that way.

At another point, I was in a shopping center with a lot of people. Zombies were closing in on us and parents flew high in the building and set their children "down" in the air high above the floor, lol, thinking it would keep them safe. I thought to myself "until one of the children catches the airborne virus and it spreads and they kill each other". But I kept my cynical thoughts to myself because I didn't want to take away the last of their hope.

And that's all I have.

As I was waking up though, "I" was in a classroom and the teacher was telling a male student that the results of his test showed he was highly intelligent and capable of greatness. His demeanor changed right away. He had instant confidence and resolve toward being more serious and studious.
Then the teacher asked: "Now, what if I lied?" The guy snapped out of his mood and put on his old personality and said he would laugh and announce that no one had believed her to begin with. No one would ever believe the class clown was anything more than that.
As I went to the restroom, I was still partially in dream and the teacher, for some reason, likened his behavior to the theory of adaptation.

I slept away this afternoon until 10:00PM and I had some very "dark" and familiar dreams.
But I got lazy about writing it down when I woke up and I have forgotten a lot of it.
Danko and Sylar were DC's at one point. Sylar was from another planet and had an chance to be a hero and change life for both worlds for the better or remain and villain and destroy both worlds. Not even Sylar knew what he WANTED to do. He wanted to be good but having power was so addicting and made him feel wonderful.

The scenery of the dream was very familiar. I've dreamed about the areas before (even the space scenes). I was running through some woods trying to escape Sylar and others. I set up some false trails then headed in another direction for a cave.
I remember hearing the ocean.

In another dream or some part of the one above, I was driving along a mountain road with many sharp turns and no guard rail. I nearly drove off the road several times.

At some other point, I was living in an apartment with my ex-hubby and a hoard of baby roaches came streaming out of some electronics. I freaked out and asked why they were there.

My mom and/or grandmother were in another dream that was emotionally a nightmare. I don't recall the specifics but I do recall their displeasure in me and some verbal conflicts.

Time to go back to sleep before I give in and buy some smokes...

Only dreams I recall from last night were of my 13 year old daughter trying to go on a date, lol, and I told her it was too late, but maybe she could invite her guy friend over one night for dinner.

I also dreamed of my cat Rogue I miss my boy.

Uhhhhhggg.

I went to sleep just a little after 6AM and my sleep was very restless.
I was too hot then I was too cold then I was too hot again lol, and THEN the neighbor decided to mow his lawn He's retired and his yard is immaculate. Too bad the "Clampetts" moved in next door (my hubby and I).
Then, when I sat after waking both my head and nose "snapped"... Sinus pressure.

The only dream I recall was inspired from video games and "Lost". I was in a temple of some kind and at the end were four kids taking pictures of a beast that looked like a "Big Daddy" from Bioshock. 2 of them were blasted away immediately....

Might lose power, gonna save then add to this...

I rushed to their aid and we hid behind an archway. I scanned the room for concealment or escape but it offered none. Then the creature was in the archway and I had to fight it to protect the "kids" (older teens of about 15 years). I fought it like Sonic in Sonic Unleashed which I played for two hours before going to sleep
I defeated him and he lay in a corner of the temple dying and disappointed at his defeat. He was "supposed" to be or become the King and he didn't want any pictures taken of him.
I was very gentle with him and kept the kids away.

Another dream I now recall was very odd.
I was in a hotel with my hubby (we weren't ourselves but other people). It was announced that a room had just been vacated so hubby and I went to it for sex and sleep. When we got to the room though there were clothes everywhere and furniture and even a cat. We went to the bed and there was no mattress. There were just wooden slats running the width of the frame. We lay on the bed and sex was out of the question but we were too tired anyhow. Hubby tried to cover up but the blanket was stuck on something, so I pulled it completely out from under the bed.
Then the radio was playing about a local resident who lived in the hotel long-term with her two daughters and cat. There was a rustling at the door and hubby and I jumped up and out the door, apologizing, explaining we thought the place had been vacated, though we should have known better when we saw the clothes and cat. She just laughed as if it happens all the time.
The dream continued for some time as did my interaction with the woman. She gifted me with several items I no longer recall, saying she didn't need them anymore or they looked better on me. She was extremely likable.

In another dream or perhaps part of the one above this, I was in a large house. We were being attacked by someone or something. A kid was venturing out onto a balcony type area that was very unstable to feed his cat, but I became aware that the area was dangerous. So I rushed out and told the boy to get back inside. He almost fell through some old boards, but he made it.
And that is all I recall.

I had a multitude of dreams last night but I was too lazy to record them and they've been forgotten... except for one that was particularly disturbing in a gross kind of way.

I was riding a horse naked. Someone was calling me fat and I was disagreeing. Then the person gave me an enama (sp!!) and I started involuntarily shooting out diarrhea everywhere I kept changing the direction of the horse so people couldn't see my butt. Then someone pointed out all the stretch marks on my rear and said something along the lines of even though I'm not THAT fat now, I'll be very fat in the future

This dream was inspired, in part, by my hubby implying I had a fat butt the other day, and also from my son complaining about stretch marks. I don't know where the horse or diarrhea came from lol.
But the dream shows I am more self-conscious about my weight than I seem to pretend. My hubby likes the "twiggy" look and will occasionally pick on me about my weight. My knees HATE the fact that I've gained over 20 pounds in the last 6 or so years. I'm afraid of becoming like my relatives, who ALL (on my moms side) have problems with extreme obesity.
I vowed as a kid that I would NEVER be fat (because my dad was verbally abusive to my mom about her weight), so I have a lot of issues concerning the subject.
I want to return to the 98-105 pounds of my past, but I'm afraid I'm stuck at 125 pounds and I don't care about what people think enough to make a real effort.


I also dreamed of being at my grams house and my Uncles Jimmy and Hank were there. Both are now dead and I used to hate my uncle Jimmy because he had me masturbate him when I was a teen. But I was happy to see them both. They were both retarded in life and seemed almost normal in the dream and I thought they had been resurrected or something. My Uncle Eddy was there also, but he was upset about something so I didn't actually see him.
There was a LOT more story to the dream but I've forgotten it.

I also dreamed of my cat Rogue at some point, of flying, of being in space, of fighting monsters, of being pursued, of my children... but I can't remember any more than that. Oh yeah, at one point I was also driving and at another point, I was ordering pancakes at a restaurant

**Edit**
In the dreams with my Uncles, many more of my relatives were there as well. I don't know if my grams had died or what, but many possessions were being divided between the relatives. A lot of clothes and pictures were places into my car. The pictures were framed and old but they weren't items my grams had in real life.
???

I'm not sure if I was dreaming or it this really took place. But I *think* when I went back to sleep after my last post, I dreamed that I spoke with hubby on the phone and he was asking what we were going to do about the Farm (it needs 2 doors- one for an out-building that's used for storage and one for the basement because a glass panel was broken and it also needs to have new appliances switched over and the gas lines connected to those appliances).
I told him I needed to bomb the place for flees and I picked up a bunch of foggers yesterday but they might not do a good job but it was worth trying (I bought 12 of them, on sale, for $2.00 each).

And last night I dreamed that I was checking on the dog to see why she was crying and the floor of her doghouse had been flooded.
I had that dream because she was barking her head off and it was raining outside, but I fixed her doghouse and wondered why the silly creature wasn't inside of it, so the dream provided an "answer" lol- untrue though it was

Wow... I slept almost all day yesterday but officially went to bed at around 10PM Hubby called at 11 and I asked him to give me another hour of sleep before I went over. I woke at 11:30 and ran to the bathroom with severe diarrhea and I felt like vomiting.
Hubby called back at almost 12:30AM and I told him I was going to stay in the RV if it wouldn't make him too lonesome. He laughed and joked that he'd just start going to the strip clubs again

I fell right back to sleep but woke often. I was freezing. Some time this morning, my dog woke me up, spazing over her doghouse which had fallen on it's side lol. I went out, reassured her and fixed the doghouse, came back in, posted the event then fell right back to sleep.

I only remember the dream I was having right before I woke up this last time at almost 3PM.
I was an interplanetary explorer and I found myself (as the smart scientist guy from Star Gate) on a planet with reptiles. They were afraid of me because humans were known for being barbarically warlike and short-lived.
My team was trying to extract me and my vision transferred to space scenes that were very gorgeous.
Then I was being transformed into a dinosaur with different shaped horns growing from my head and body. Then I woke.
I don't know what inspired the dream.

But I'm humored that a dream from yesterday/day before yesterday was about me having severe diarrhea. I think I've been sleeping so much because I'm fighting off a sickness. I woke several times last night wanting to vomit and now my ear is hurting a little.
Oh yeah, at some point last night, I woke when I sat bolt upright in my sleep. I don't remember what I was dreaming about though.

That's it... I'm going to go back to sleep now...

After sleeping almost all day yesterday, I went to bed at around 10PM and slept until 4:44AM. I went back to sleep at around 7:30AM and woke up a few minutes before 11AM. I'm still a little sick with diarrhea, but only when I eat something sweet. I woke up this morning, several times, cracking my knuckles which were very stiff, sore and weak which is normal for me and probably most people when they first wake up

The only dream I recall was of living at home with my parents. My dad was sitting in a recliner working on his vocabulary and spelling and asked me to rhyme "urgency". I couldn't and he said something like "purgency" but I told him that wasn't a real word. But he said it was because it was accepted by his electronic device lol
I was trying to drive back to where I live now, but there was only one vehicle that worked and dad needed it for emergencies though mom was trying to pull some strings. I kid I used to babysit eons ago came into my room wanting me to get my mom. My brother was a little kid in my dream and as soon as I got my mom to come to my room, she had ran off with him.
Little kids were playing in a tub, pretending they were being attacked by sharks or drowning and such and a mom told me to listen to them. I thought it was cute but she (?) was very agitated and said she blamed their behavior on television.
There was a secret entrance in my second story room that went above a garage and I think there was a dead body there.
Someone (Frank from my congregation, I think) was repairing my room and found a secret tree which had been growing there for 6 years. The fruit looked like oranges. He showed my dad and Frank (?) said he didn't think they were oranges. But my dad peeled it and tasted it and it was an orange, though very tiny.
My dad went to get more and my mom asked me why I ran away. I told her I didn't know what she was talking about. She said, when I was a kid- why did I run away. I told her I didn't want to talk about it and continued cleaning my room which had laundry on the floor in piles.

That's all I recall and I think the dream was triggered by thinking about my ex-boyfriend as a kid and my mom having ran into him recently.

Blah... I feel like puking, so I'm going back to sleep...

This is going to be abbreviated for lack of time. Hopefully I'll recall the details and fill in the rest later.

I dreamed Russia was attacking America. They somehow blinded our satellites and started dropping soldiers onto US soil. One of the soldiers was a Tiger hybrid. It had the intelligence of a man and walked upright for the most part.
A certain branch though would calm it down and make it peaceable.
When the satellites were operable again, I saw scores of the hybrids being parachuted down all over the US.
Where I was, many people were being killed. I was a civilian, trying to help people to a safe area. I was attacked at one point, but got away.
There was a fence around an area, but a hole in one section made it possible for them to crawl under and into our area. I tried to fill it up with rubbish laying around and one of the items was my pillow. I decided not to use it lol, and grabbed something else instead.

In another dream, someone asked me if I planned on becoming pregnant before I was 42 because I was at the prime age until that time. I laughed and said no. Then the person (?) said I should avoid folic acid then and focus on something else I think was called something like cadimun.

That's it.
Hubby and I went to bed at about 6AM and we woke for the last time at almost 5PM.