Thread: Caradon's Dream Journal

Originally Posted by Pancaka

Well Shinji was an old screen name from my anime days. Also Pancaka is also the name of my email address and I just like it more... later I'll put some pancakes in as my avi lol. BTW. How'd you think of the name Caradon?

I looked through the character name index of a recent Tad Williams novel. Saw the name Caradon, and decided that would work. I new I wanted some type of fantasy style name. It took me a while to find something. Caradon just sounded right to me at the time. And I was getting tired of trying to come up with a name I liked, so I used it.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

I'm in another dry-spell like you too, Caradon.

Sucks!

Originally Posted by mark

yeah I will join you two in this lack of recall thing

Sucks!

Originally Posted by Pancaka

mine is still dwindling in the "medium" to "crappy" range

Sucks!

Have you been sick too Mark?

Mine is starting to come back, little by little. I think, writing every little bit I can remember in my online journal is helping to bring it back.

And I somehow managed a moment f Lucidity last night! It was pure luck, a completely random reality check. Though it didn't turn into much of a Lucid, it was enough to get me psyched up, and motivated.

Originally Posted by Caradon

Mine is starting to come back, little by little. I think, writing every little bit I can remember in my online journal is helping to bring it back.

I should do that too. Nowadays I don't feel much like recording fragments, but I should.

Originally Posted by Caradon

And I somehow managed a moment f Lucidity last night! It was pure luck, a completely random reality check. Though it didn't turn into much of a Lucid, it was enough to get me psyched up, and motivated.

Maybe my luck will change too!

Brief moment of Lucidity
I don't remember much for visual details, just the feeling of it. So I'm not going to officially count it. I'm actually a little confused by the whole thing.

The first thing I remember is pinching my nose and I can breath! But it's dark like my eyes are closed. I think the dream is slipping away, and I'm about to wake up. So I start rubbing my hands together hoping it Will pull me deeper into the dream. As I rub my hands together, I'm amazed at how real it feels, and I try to focus all my attention on that feeling. It worked without me even realizing it worked. Because the darkness fades away, and I think I woke up. But I'm still sitting there rubbing my hands together. I had smoothly slid into a false awakening and didn't even comprehend that I was seamlessly rubbing my hands together through the whole process, so I was still sleeping. Once I thought I had woke up, I thought I was rubbing my real hands together. (I still need much practice overcoming false awakenings. I get confused easy in those situations.)

Werewolf hunting
I'm up at the cabin with my mom and step dad. I'm outside, it's night, and I have a sword. I'm out near the front of the property, when I'm attacked by a werewolf. I don't remember much of the details of the fight. But I kill it. In the distance, I can hear many more of them howling. I realize that the werewolves are mentally connected somehow. And they are all aware I had just killed one of their own, and that they will be coming for me.

I run back into the cabin, and wake my step dad. I tell him about the werewolves, and that I'm going to be needing his help in fighting them. As he gets up and gets ready, I step back outside. A single wolf, steps out of the forest, then shape shifts into the form of a woman. My heart sinks, I recognize her as a friend from earlier in the dream.(That I don't remember.) She is the leader of the werewolves. I lower my sword and say, "I don't want to fight you!" To my relief, she smiles and says "There is no need for us to fight. Not all of us are your enemies."

I see two more wolves step out from the forest. I gesture in their direction and ask, "What about them?" "Your on your own with those two." she answers, "They are a couple of wild ones, and out of my control." She then shifts back into the form of a wolf, and disappears back into the forest. A little afraid, I try to step back into the cabin. But the door is locked. Just then, my step dad walks out. he has a sword as well, and the door shuts behind him. Now we are both locked outside, with the two hostile werewolves crouching to wards us.

I feel confidant though, and step out to meet them. The wolves attack with blinding speed. One comes at me, the other at my step dad. Just as they attack they shift into human form. They are so fast, it's like fighting a blur of motion. I somehow get my sword up in defense, and I hear the ring of steal as our weapons clash. I deflect the attack, and step to the side. The wolfs speed of motion, carries it past me as it shifts back into wolf form.

I glance over to see that my step dad has survived the attack as well. "Be careful!" I call to him,"Their damn quick." I get attacked again, and deflect it in the same manner.
this time I take a swing at the wolf as it's momentum carries it past me.

I then wake up with that intense wow feeling you get from a cool adventure dream.

Nap dreams
There was some really strange hard to describe stuff in my nap. Something about a war that is happening in a place that looks like a mall. I'm afraid and hiding. I look down from an upper level. And see a huge pile of mangled ripped apart bodies all thrown together. The people have been all shot to pieces, by machine gun fire. It's so gory, that I feel sick to my stomach.(Influenced by the new RAMBO movie. Some pretty sick visuals in that movie.)

Elevator dream!
I'm in a hurry to get into the elevator. I get in and the door closes. I noticed that there was a woman coming behind me that missed it. So I push a button to open the door.
She steps in, and the door closes again. I push the down button. The elevator begins to fall so fast, that the woman and I are pushed up against the ceiling. I'm not worried though, because I somehow know this is normal for this elevator. We continue downward at high speed for what seems like forever. Then, the elevator comes to an abrupt stop, throwing us to the floor.

I'm surprised I didn't get Lucid in this dream. I sure hope I get more elevator dreams. I wonder why that one came up, after so long of not having them.

Cool exciting dreams. I like the werewolf one, like a movie.

Looks like your (very short) dryspell is broken.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

I should do that too. Nowadays I don't feel much like recording fragments, but I should.

yeah, you should. During times of bad recall I think it's especially important to record anything at all. That's how you force more recall. By making the fragments important. I've been reinforcing the importance of them, by writing them here, instead of just in my paper journal.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

Maybe my luck will change too!

Yeah, I hope it does! good luck tonight!

Originally Posted by Caradon

yeah, you should. During times of bad recall I think it's especially important to record anything at all. That's how you force more recall. By making the fragments important. I've been reinforcing the importance of them, by writing them here, instead of just in my paper journal.


Maybe my luck will change too!
Yeah, I hope it does! good luck tonight!

You're right...

thanks!

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

Cool exciting dreams. I like the werewolf one, like a movie.

Looks like your (very short) dryspell is broken.

Thank's, yeah, I sure hope it is.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

I should do that too. Nowadays I don't feel much like recording fragments, but I should.

I don't always post fragments, but I try to get them on paper. It's the same with un interesting Non-Lucids, but I still get some good notes down.

Originally Posted by Caradon

Sucks!

Sucks!

Sucks!

Have you been sick too Mark?.

he he thats funny with all the sucks nah im not ill just I have not been sleeping well recently, plus I think I have lost alot of motivation this month with my lack of lucids I just need one to get me in the mood you know.

Originally Posted by Caradon

Werewolf hunting

that is just dam right brilliant!

I love the way the shift between forms! mate this is who your attack dreams are always going to be the best!

Originally Posted by Caradon

Nap dreams

ha yeah I just downloaded the rambo movie lol it looks sick!

Originally Posted by Caradon

Elevator dream!

he he thats cool! bet that woman regretted getting in the elevator with ya ha ha

Originally Posted by Pancaka

I don't always post fragments, but I try to get them on paper. It's the same with un interesting Non-Lucids, but I still get some good notes down.

I'm like that when I'm getting a lot of recall. But if recall is bad I write everything I can remember, to help inspire more dreams.

Originally Posted by mark

he he thats funny with all the sucks nah im not ill just I have not been sleeping well recently, plus I think I have lost alot of motivation this month with my lack of lucids I just need one to get me in the mood you know.

Oh, I see. Yeah, thats the worst kind of rut. I hate that feeling. It may help if you go back through your journal and read through some of your favorite Lucids. Try and relive the moment, and get a sense of how good it felt to be Lucid during those dreams. I do that when I'm struggling. It can help set the excitement and determination to get Lucid again.

Thanks for the comments on those dreams. Yeah, that werewolf dream had a really magical feel to it. I wonder what triggers those kind of dreams. They seem to just come out of nowhere sometimes.

Caradon has good advice, mark--he made me remember my lucid last night. I'll never just give up because I don't think remembering fragments is worthwhile anymore. We shouldn't become slack with recall if we want to be good lucid dreamers.

Thanks, Caradon!

Twice Lucid in my nap!
I can hardly remember them though. so not going to officially count these either.

Lucid # 1
I'm not sure I was 100% Lucid in this one. But I remember it more clearly.
I was with a DV member. Not sure who it was supposed to be. Or not sure of the surrounding events. But, we are in an outdoor location when I become Lucid somehow. I'm not even sure what triggered it. But, I decide I want to show the DV member I'm with, how I do my free falling. So I fly up into the sky, and begin a backwards end over end freefall. Once back to the ground, I land on my feet with a smile. That's all I can remember about it.

Lucid # 2 A WILD within In a dream.
This one is really strange, and I lost most of it. But I forced myself into Lucidity from a non Lucid dream.

Again I'm not sure what was going on. But I had Lucid dreaming on my mind.

Not quite sure how to describe this, but without laying down, or closing my eyes, I started focusing my mind in a specific way. I could distinctly feel this mental shift. And I stepped right into a completely new dream scene fully Lucid. I can't hardly remember what happened during the Lucid part. But after waking, I layed there for quite a while trying to pull the dream back. All I was able to get were a few flying images. And there were some powerlines. I was flying for a while and having quite a good time, I know that. I can remember the part where I started to lose the dream.The dream faded, and I found myself standing in the original dream no longer Lucid.

You lucky dog. I know I had a dream in my nap, but it disappeared instantly when I woke up.

Other dreams
Didn't sleep much last night. The first dream I had was kind of long. but I can't remember it well enough to describe it in detail. There was a lot of weird confusing stuff going on.

At some point I was in an over crowded bathroom. And there was a restaurant involved.

Dream # 2
I was driving my step dads van, on a road with so much traffic, it was stopped. I notice the person in the car in front of me is an old friend of mine. And he is driving backwards, so that he is facing me. But, since traffic is stopped at the moment, he is not moving. The hood of his car, is sloped down like a ramp. And I drive the van right up onto his car. Then I decide that's probably not a god idea so I back up. But then the person in the vehicle behind me, rams me and pushes me right back up onto his car. I drive right up over the top of him like I'm in a monster truck or something.

Next thing I know I'm out of the car and walking along. There is junk all over the place along the road, and people are going through it.

The dram shifts here and I'm no longer outside. I'm in some place, and an auction is being held for all this junk, and people are making bids on things.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

Caradon has good advice, mark--he made me remember my lucid last night. I'll never just give up because I don't think remembering fragments is worthwhile anymore. We shouldn't become slack with recall if we want to be good lucid dreamers.

Thanks, Caradon!

So glad I could help. Going to go check out your journal.

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

You lucky dog. I know I had a dream in my nap, but it disappeared instantly when I woke up.

Oh, I hate when that happens so much! But I guess it's better than not being able to remember you had the dream at all. At least you get the feeling of it.

Very cool that you had two lucids during your nap. Good job!

But, I decide I want to show the DV member I'm with, how I do my free falling. So I fly up into the sky, and begin a backwards end over end freefall. Once back to the ground, I land on my feet with a smile.

Oh, that is so fun. It feels so good.

At some point I was in an over crowded bathroom.

I was just mentioning in Moonbeams DJ--why is it that our minds can't help us find a good clean normal private bathroom?? I mean, I 'm not sure I have ever found a normal bathroom in a dream.

glad you dropped by TS, but did u see my comment bout u earlier? hm? hm? (it was pretty funneh)

Originally Posted by Caradon

Oh, I see. Yeah, thats the worst kind of rut. I hate that feeling. It may help if you go back through your journal and read through some of your favorite Lucids. Try and relive the moment, and get a sense of how good it felt to be Lucid during those dreams. I do that when I'm struggling. It can help set the excitement and determination to get Lucid again.

thank you Caradon, I appreciate the advice and I most certainly will look into it. I have a few other ideas which I will outline in my dj.

nice one on the 2 lucids there. I especially like the way you got into the second lucid thats great

EDIT: oh I watched Rambo lol how gory is it! ha ha I thought it was really good, The action was really good and the bore was just funny ha ha

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Very cool that you had two lucids during your nap. Good job!

Thanks, I had been very focused all day at work and when I came home and went to sleep it just happened. I guess that's how I get Lucid in naps sometimes. I just wish I would have been able to remember them better.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Oh, that is so fun. It feels so good.

Yeah I just love doing that. I guess I felt like I needed to show off.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

I was just mentioning in Moonbeams DJ--why is it that our minds can't help us find a good clean normal private bathroom?? I mean, I 'm not sure I have ever found a normal bathroom in a dream.

Yeah, I saw her bathroom dream too. We had them on the same night. That is so strange about bathrooms in dreams. Now that you mention it, I can't think of any time I ever found a normal bathroom either. I always watch for those dreamsigns, and do reality checks in bathrooms. So far have not noticed it in a dream yet. Maybe writing this will trigger the memory next time.

Thanks for stopping by. Interesting timing! I was just thinking about checking
out your journal because I haven't been in there for a while. And you show up here.

Congratulations on the promotion to dream guide.

Originally Posted by mark

thank you Caradon, I appreciate the advice and I most certainly will look into it. I have a few other ideas which I will outline in my dj.

Your welcome,any time.
Looking forward to seeing what ideas you came up with.

Originally Posted by mark

nice one on the 2 lucids there. I especially like the way you got into the second lucid thats great

thanks, yeah that was so strange. I can't remember if I ever did that before. And at the time I thought I had figured out how to WILD.

Originally Posted by mark

EDIT: oh I watched Rambo lol how gory is it! ha ha I thought it was really good, The action was really good and the bore was just funny ha ha

Mild spoiler
Yeah, I was so shocked by how graphic that was. wasn't expecting that. I guess I had mixed feelings about the movie. I liked it, and was disturbed by it at the same time. The graphic slaughter of the women and children in that village is what got to me the most I guess. I couldn't believe they showed some of that.

But I have to say, I absolutely loved that scene where those mercenaries were afraid and hiding from the enemy. And RAMBO just walked out into the open with that bow of his. And started firing one arrow after another, taking out every enemy, in just a few seconds. that was so cool. And that one arrow went right through that guys head.

Head injury
I'm in the hospital, in a coma. I had fallen while roller-blading, and hit my head, hard on the pavement. But though my body is unconscious on the hospital bed, I'm awake and aware, in an out of body state. I don't remember all the details, but at some point I was trying to get through to my brother that I was alive and OK outside of my body.
I was able to make him aware of me. I was somehow able to impress my thoughts into his mind. But he was unsure if it was me, or his own thoughts he was hearing.

I eventually wake up in the hospital, And I'm telling people about my out of body experience.

Heart attack
I'm a little kid, and I'm with my dad. Both my dad and I are not the same people as were are in real life.(In my dads case was.) My dad looks like a completely different person. Anyway my dad has some land, and we decide we are going to build a golf course on it. Only we are going to do it by hand, using gardening tools. We are working hard tearing up the ground with digging tools and rakes. getting the ground ready to plant the smooth green grass.

My dad suddenly begins clutching his hands to his chest, and falls over in the dirt. I panic. I have a cell phone, and call for help. The rescue people come and take him away.

Old job
I'm at an old job working. It's busy and somebody is trying to help me, but they are getting in my way, more than they are helping.

Driving
I'm driving a car down the road way to fast. I keep trying to slow down to the speed limit. but my lead foot keeps making the car accelerate far beyond the legal speed.
My perspective shifts so that I'm looking out the back window, but still trying to steer the car. I'm trying to anticipate the curves, and keep the car on the road. still going way to fast, it's very difficult and stressful. But somehow I manage to keep the car on the road. After a time my perspective gets really screwy, everything is spinning and I'm getting dizzy, almost like vertigo from fear of height.

Nap dreams
Possibly three separate fragments, from one longer dream. I'm not sure.
Video game
I'm playing a first person war shooter on the computer. Cartoon looking army characters are coming at me in force. I'm open firing on them with a machine gun. I'm tearing them apart, they are just getting mangled. Limbs are getting blown off, and holes and chunks taken out of their bodies, and blood spraying everywhere.
(More RAMBO influenced gore!)


Fence climbing
Next, I'm with somebody, and we are climbing this series of tall chain link fences, with barbed wire at the top. I decide to just completely ignore the barbs and climb over them. Once over the last fence, I look at my hands, and there are what appears to be long rusty needles embedded in the palms of my hands. I realize, it's from climbing over the fences. I joke around feeling like I have metal hands like wolverine from X-men.

I make a few claw like swipes through the air.

Taken prisoner
I think I may have gotten pulled into the video game dream, and it lead to this.
I'm walking down some corridors. there is a woman with me. We are on some kind of mission, I'm not sure what. We are in the place of are enemies. And I have the idea that this is a video game we are in. I have some kind of powerful claw hand now.

As we walk along the corridor, two men wearing suits come out of a door and begin following us.(they look like some kind of agents.)
I turn to confront them. I think, that I'm supposed to be able to hit them, and they will explode, or die or something if I hit them hard enough. I take a swipe At one of the men with my claw hand. His head is slammed into the wall, but other than that, it has no effect. he just bounces off the wall and keeps coming. I try again with the same results. We continue walking away faster. And the agents follow. Two more of them step out of another doorway. I take a swing at them, as hard as I can. again, the guy just bounces off the wall and keeps coming at me. Around a bend in the corridor, two more agents appear.

They overpower us, and drag us away. Locked in an interrogation room. The place now has the feel of a police station. And we are being questioned.





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Originally Posted by Caradon

Mild spoiler

ha ha yeah that part was so class! the bow thing was great. I couldnt believe the violence though. I dont think it cvan be claimed it was glorifying violence like it was just nasty.

I like the bit with the gun on the car!


great great night of recall man so many dreams

ha ha it looks like the roller blading hit back in the head injuries. cool with the bit of telepathy there to

ah no the heart attack does not sound like a nice experience, such horrible dreams they are

ha ha I am loving the rambo gore in your dreams, its so true as well that is the only way to describe those sceens...people getting mangled lol

Wow, that was a load of dreams. Spinning around in the car and getting dizzy actually sounds like fun.

Originally Posted by mark

ha ha yeah that part was so class! the bow thing was great. I couldnt believe the violence though. I dont think it cvan be claimed it was glorifying violence like it was just nasty.

yeah insane huh. I guess he had to make the movie stand out somehow though.

Originally Posted by mark

I like the bit with the gun on the car!

If thats the part I think you mean. Yeah, just like dropping a group of people into a giant blender.

Originally Posted by mark

great great night of recall man so many dreams.

Thanks.

Originally Posted by mark

ha ha it looks like the roller blading hit back in the head injuries. cool with the f telepathy there to

I just hope it's not a prophetic dream. maybe I should listen to it and wear a helmet this summer.

Originally Posted by mark

ah no the heart attack does not sound like a nice experience, such horrible dreams they are

Yeah, I woke up right away though so it wasn't all to bad.

Originally Posted by mark

ha ha I am loving the rambo gore in your dreams, its so true as well that is the only way to describe those sceens...people getting mangled lol

You can tell that movie had an impact, since I had so many dreams about it.