Caradon's Dream Journal

Thanks Moonbeam, I won't stay away, I love Dream Views. I just really want to get back to Lucid dreaming the way I was at the end of january. Dry spell not quite broken yet. But I have been getting pretty close. Even last night I almost became Lucid twice. Once while Talking to my dead grandmother. I was really confused, because in the dream, I knew she was dead. And I didn't understand how she could be there talking to me. I was just on the edge of getting it. when my grandma turned into my aunt instead. And I realised I was mistaken.

And in the next one, I had this really strange dream, that a lamp fell over in my house. I was trying to pick it up, but there was something wrong with my body. every time I tried to pick up the Lamp, my hands would just pass right through it. As if I was a ghost or something. Then for some reason, I thought I would try levitating myself. I levitated myself up to the ceiling the same way I would if I was Lucid. But I didn't quite become fully Lucid. I woke up soon. I'm about to take a nap and and see what dreams I get.

Luv2dream Thanks for replying. I don't know many people here yet, so I don't get a lot of replies. so far Moonbeam is my only dream views bud, But she is a good one to have. Well I could probably count Clairity as well.

As far as my disoriented spelling:) I was not sure how to spell it, so I looked it up, and thats how I found it in my dictionary. I knew it was wrong but just decided to leave it that way. I need to down load the spell checker. to save me some time looking stuff up, because my spelling sucks.

Just trying to get spell checker working. It does not seem to be. I can't delete this post either. I will try again later.
I went on the iespell web site and it said thank you for downloading. But if it actualy did, I guess I don't know how to make it work.
When I click on the abc deal at the top right of this page. It still tells me I should go to iespell.com and download the spell checker.

You are not such a bad speller. I wouldn't worry about it.

(Knew you couldn't stay away...:)...you've got to try the tasks this month!)

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You are not such a bad speller. I wouldn't worry about it.

(Knew you couldn't stay away...:)...you've got to try the tasks this month!)

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Yeah, there seems to be some kind of force, that keeps pulling me towards the computer. I will try to limit my time on it though. Thats the main reason I want the spell checker. It doesn't seem like my spelling is so bad, because I spend so much time looking up words I'm not sure if I'm spelling right. I am getting better though. I did just go back, and I got it downloaded, even though my computer warned me that I should not use it. It said it may not be safe to use. I decided that Dream Views, would not suggest I use something that is not safe for my computer. Hope I don't regret it! Oh cool, it works now. It tells me that towards is not in dictionary and I should use to wards. But that does not seem right to me? Oh well maybe it is.


I will try the tasks if I can. My first Lucid task of the month is to get Lucid!
But when I do, I guess I will be looking for you. I promise to be the gentleman:) Maybe we'll go flying or something. I don't have much practice summoning stuff. we'll see how it goes.

I am going to try and get back into my books. For some reason, reading fiction novels really helps me to become Lucid. I think it's because it gets me into a certain frame of mind thats good for Lucidity.

I stayed up to late last night. So I didn't sleep to much, I didn't want to sleep through my whole day off.

I Had a strange dream, that I got really pissed off at some dream character.
I grabbed the guy and threw him down the stairs. As soon as I did it, I regretted it. I actually threw him into the air, and he did a somersault and landed on his back at the bottom of the stairs. I was afraid that he would land on his head and be killed. He seemed to be alright, so I was glad about that. I'm not sure if it was the same dream, or another dream. But later I was in trouble with the law for attacking this guy. And I had to go to court for assault. For some reason, I knew what happened, happened in a dream. I was trying to explain, that I should not have to go to jail, for something that I did in a dream. But the authorities did not agree with my logic. They told me that assault is assault, No matter where it takes place. When I woke, up I was pretty happy to find out, that I was not really going to be going to jail.


OK, a few dreams back I had a dream about a horse with the name Rancher. I thought it was a pretty strange name for a horse. But I don't know much about horses. So it could be a normal name for all I know.

Anyway, Yesterday I went out and bought this really powerful chainsaw. For cutting fallen trees, out on my trails at the cabin. (I'm a little afraid of the thing I might add. With all the information, about the dangers of the thing kicking back and cutting me) The name of the chainsaw is, Husqvarna Rancher. I didn't buy it because of the name. I bought it because it was the most powerful and best quality chainsaw I could find. It's one of those strange connections between dreams, and something that happens in real life.
So I thought I would mention it in my dream journal.

Well I'll look for you too. I am trying not to be pessimitic, but that seems like a really hard basic task.

Do be careful with the chainsaw. Those things are the scariest things in the world, I think. I hope you have the protective gear. Be careful of your toes; cutting them off is a common injury.

Last night I had an elevator dream

Last night I had the first elevator dream, that I have had in years. But this time it did not fall, even though I did have problems with the elevator. I get into the elevator, and I push the buttons to make it start moving. But it's not working! For some reason , I keep opening the door and stepping out of it. then going back in, and trying to make it work again. Finally I get it to start moving, and it is lifting upwards. Now I am suddenly afraid it is going to fall.( I sure wish it would have, it would have been instant Lucidity) Now the elevator seems very small. I brace myself by putting my hands on the ceiling. I make it to the floor that I want, and the door opens. I try to step out, but the door closes on me before I get through. I get pinned between the door and the wall. This elevator only has one door that slides all the way across. Now I am worried that the elevator is going to start moving with me stuck there, and I am going to get torn in half. I am trying to push the door open when I wake up.

It would be so cool if I started getting falling elevator dreams again. It would be such an easy way for me to become Lucid.

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Well I'll look for you too. I am trying not to be pessimitic, but that seems like a really hard basic task.

Do be careful with the chainsaw. Those things are the scariest things in the world, I think. I hope you have the protective gear. Be careful of your toes; cutting them off is a common injury.

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Yeah I know, both Tasks seem pretty hard.

I will be as careful as I possibly can. I plan to get some of the gear before the next time I go out there. At least I wont be alone. I have been going up with family members this year, to help pay for the gas. But I plan to spend a week out there by myself in the fall. So I will try to get most of the work done before then. I can see how people could lose there toes pretty easy.
I'm mostly worried about getting a kick back. It's something I wouldn't be able to control if it happens. The saw I have, doe's have an emergency chain brake. that is supposed to stop the chain, in the event of an violent Kick back. But the manual says even with that, there are situations where it won't help. Well, I have read about all the proper cutting techniques to avoid having that happen. so it should be OK.

The first Lucid, after a couple of years of not practicing Lucid Dreaming.

2006 was a year of retraining myself to Lucid Dream. And this is the first one of the year.

Monday/February/13/2006

I was having a wild and crazy adventure dream, about being on some kind of prison world. I suddenly became Lucid for no particular reason. I took off running across this landscape, faster than any human being ever could. I leaped off of a hill and flew straight into the sky. Far below me, I could see rolling green hills, stretching away to a far distant tree line. Once the land was far far below me, I completely relaxed my body, and leaned backwards into an end over end spinning free fall.( My favorite Lucid activity.) The feeling of joy I am experiencing at this moment is beyond words.

Before hitting the ground, I fly back into the sky. I have this staff in my hand, I think it is supposed to be some kind of weapon. I begin doing a dance in the sky, like nothing I have ever done in a Lucid Dream before. I start spinning the staff around me, like some kind of Martial arts expert. And the whole time I am spinning and diving and doing backwards somersaults through the sky. I can feel the wind flowing over me and through me. I am in a state of pure Ecstasy. I drop the staff and I think I had lost it. But I am able to fly far faster, than it can fall. I catch it easily.

I notice on a hill, there is a line of tall telephone poles, with power lines stringing between them. I dive for the power lines, and I use the staff to catch onto them.
I have one hand on each end of the staff, and I am using it to slide down the power lines. When I get to each telephone pole, I swing out to the side and let go.
Then I catch back on, on the other side. When I get to the end, I swing off and spin through the air. Then I soar into the sky once again. I notice that there are some people on the ground watching me. After a few more minutes of acrobatics in the air, and swooping around I wake up. And I am just stunned, because of the awsome time I had just had.

PS. Today I went to go see the Transformers! This movie was the coolest, and most fun, action sci fi movie I have ever seen in my entire Life! I realized
the first fifteen minutes into the movie, That I had a new favorite movie. And it just kept getting better. I plan to see this one again, before it leaves the theater. I hope they make many more.

[quote=Caradon;454448]Yeah I know, both Tasks seem pretty hard.

I will be as careful as I possibly can. I plan to get some of the gear before the next time I go out there. At least I wont be alone. /quote]

Yea I don't think you should cut alone. Especially if you are not experienced. The horror stories I've heard...

OK, I'll stop sounding like your grandma now.

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OK, I'll stop sounding like your grandma now.

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LOL,I don't mind, I appreciate the concern.
I have a little practice with a smaller saw. But I would not really call it experience.

If I did ever use it alone. I would at least make sure I had the cell phone with me. There is a very small town about five miles away, And they do have a fire department. So that parts good at least.

LOL it looks Like I'm quoting myself, How did that happen

A past Lucid
Friday/march/31/2006

I had four other Lucid dreams before this one. But they were not really worth writing here. Well one of them I may go back to some other time.

There was a very large polar bear chasing me. At some point I became Lucid, I'm not sure exactly when. I flew into the air to get away from it. this was a pretty long Lucid dream. But the whole time, the bear was after me. I was actually kind of playing with it. Every time I would land, the bear would be there coming for me. I would wait until the last moment, then do a back flip into the air to get away from it. this went on for quite a while. Eventually the bear transformed into a small child. I then landed and was talking to some people. Somebody asked me how I could fly around like that. I told them it was simple,all you have to do is realize you are dreaming. Then I woke up.

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LOL it looks Like I'm quoting myself, How did that happen

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Yea that is weird lol!

A past Lucid

Tuesday/June/13/2006/

I had lost my focus a little bit, and it took me this long to get my next Lucid. I was at the cabin, and I was feeling a little down in the dumps because I was not getting to far with my Lucid Dreaming. I had been trying hard for the last couple of weeks. Then I took a nap, and had a fun full blown Lucid dream.

Before I became Lucid there was some stuff about watching some fish. Then I was driving some big tractor. Then I was flying through the air, and there was this plane spraying some stuff on crops. Then the next thing I know, I am walking along taking in the beauty of this very amazing mountain landscape. Then I suddenly become Lucid.
This is one of those times when I became Lucid, just from the intense vivid beauty of the scene I am viewing. I am thinking about how strange it is, that I became Lucid now, but I didn't become Lucid while flying. I am very happy to be aware that I am dreaming again. I see some building. I run up to it, and leap and climb to the top of the roof. I can now see a whole sea of roof tops stretching out before me. I decide to run and jump from one roof to another. As I am jumping from roof to roof, the distance between them is getting farther and farther apart. The next one is really far, so I crouch and spring into the air with all my strength. As I leap through the air, I am wondering why I am using so much physical effort. When I know full well It is all mental volition.
I land easily on the next roof, Then something on the ground catches my attention. There is a young child playing. I do not want to spend the whole dream jumping roofs, even as fun as it is. So I jump down to see what he is doing. Him and some other children are playing some strange game. I see A young girl playing, and I decide to try an experiment. I visualize light flowing out of me, and into her. A strange thing happens. As she absorbs the light, she begins to grow. And as I watch she grows into an beautiful adult. Then she walks over to me and gives me a hug. Nothing sexual happens, but the next thing I know, I am in a different scene all together. I am sitting outside with some guy that I work with, And he says to me,"you are really dreaming hard aren't you." I tell him that it's because I am Lucid dreaming, and I am having so much fun, that I don't want to wake up. But as I tell him that, I do start to wake up. For a moment, I am in two places. I am still sitting there with the guy from work. But at the same time I can feel my body on the bed, and I can hear the birds outside the cabin.
Then I end up fully waking up.

I'm new to this whole computer thing, and I just figured out the easy way to save pictures onto my computer from web sites. This Avatar is kind of scary huh? I will have to change my Avatar often, because there is so many cool pictures out there. And I really love fantasy art. I kind of like this one, But maybe a little to dark. I didn't realize,That there is a little save picture icon I can click on, when I put the cursor on the picture. I'm kind of slow sometimes!

A Past Lucid

Monday/June/19/2006

The very next week, during another nap at the cabin, I became Lucid twice.

Lucid #1
Well the first one was pretty short. I was climbing a hill, and when I get to the top, The hill becomes a cliff. It is to steep for me to get down. I slip and fall, then become Lucid right away. I just surrender to the fall, and I fall for a little while without fear, then I end up having a false awakening.

Lucid # 2
This one was better. I was in a mall, and I was with some people. I become Lucid for no reason. I say to somebody "hey check this out" Then I try to levitate to freak them out. But due to lack of lucid practice, my levitation skills are failing me. I do get into the air just a little bit, then fall back down. I give up, then just start doing all sorts of acrobatics. I am running around and doing handsprings all over the place. And doing somersaults and back flips off of and over everything. I am literally bouncing off the walls. I am running around doing this stuff until I wake up.

June/30/2006

I became lucid, while waiting to buy this cool old roller coaster. But I didn't stay lucid for long. When the Realtor showed up right after I became Lucid, I got to distracted by my excitement over buying the roller coaster, and completely forgot I was dreaming.
But I went into this cool non lucid dream about exploring this roller coaster. that was part of a building that you could live in. I was just having fun checking the whole place out.

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I'm new to this whole computer thing, and I just figured out the easy way to save pictures onto my computer from web sites. This Avatar is kind of scary huh? I will have to change my Avatar often, because there is so many cool pictures out there. And I really love fantasy art. I kind of like this one, But maybe a little to dark. I didn't realize,That there is a little save picture icon I can click on, when I put the cursor on the picture. I'm kind of slow sometimes!

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:rolllaugh: That's funny; I just PM'd you because I thought your distrubing avatar change reflected some bad thing that happened to you. So when you get the PM, realize that I hadn't seen this yet.

Another thing that's funny; I'm the same way; I still don't know what I'm doing with pictures. It's only just random (or sometimes somebody helps me, thanks Burns) if I get a picture in. When I joined DV, I wanted a sleeping animal as my avatar, so I googled that, and finally found one that fit, and that's why I have an albino koala. I never changed it tho.

I like fantasy art too; I like the Yes album cover guy; I can't think of his name right now. Stuff that looks photo-real but could never really be. I guess with computers the magic is gone tho; anyone can do it now. Well not you or I; but anyone else.

You have a lot of lucid dreams. Tell me your secret.

It's Late I will try to write fast.
I was on on an haunted trail. there were these two giant gorilla monster things after me and some other people. I hear the wonder twins say. " Wonder twin powers activate". One of them says,"form of a wagon!" I am thinking what the hell good is a wagon going to do. I can't remember what the other formed into. Something equally useless. Then I see Scooby doo and Shaggy, grab the wagon and take off running. With the giant gorilla monsters chasing them, in classic Scooby doo fashion. I am wrestling with some purple skeleton ghost thing when I wake up.

I am driving my car. I am not going to fast but I try to stop. The brakes work, but I don,t get any traction and I start to slide. Instead of hitting the car in front of me, I turn and go over a curb. I am sliding sideways through the grass, then I end up back on the road. I still can't stop, so i somehow put my feet on the ground, kind of like the Flintstones. I lift the whole car off the ground and I am now stopped. I get out and look at my tires. The tires are bald, and this seems like a perfectly logical explanation for mot being able to stop.

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I hear the wonder twins say. " Wonder twin powers activate". One of them says,"form of a wagon!" I am thinking what the hell good is a wagon going to do.

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Lol, the Wonder Twins are the worst super heroes ever!

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Lol, the Wonder Twins are the worst super heroes ever!

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I think you are right. I was recently having a conversation with somebody at work about the super friends. I was making fun of the wonder twins. I was saying that if you could change into anything you want, why would you always be turning into a bucket of water? It's strange how a simple conversation, can turn into a weird dream like that.

My extreme technique for attaining Lucidity

Well it's not anything real special, but I will try to explain what I do.
It starts with the first moment that I wake up in the morning. I will ask myself If I am dreaming right now. And of course you have to think about what ever dreams you were having when you first wake up. I get up and start to get ready for work. I wont let any other thought enter my mind, except for the idea that I could be dreaming at any moment. I pay attention to every little thing that I do. I ask myself where am I, what am I doing? I am at home getting ready for work. Is there anything abnormal about my home? Is this the right house? is everything in the right place. I go into the bathroom and turn on the light. Is the light switch working right. I look in the mirror. Is there anything strange about the way I look in the mirror? stay aware this could be a dream at any moment. I proceed to brush my teeth and shave. I keep asking myself if there is anything dream like about each thing that I do.
Is my razor working right? ( I use an electric razor) OK I am leaving the bathroom. Does everything still look normal? am I still in the right place? I get dressed. is there anything strange about each article of clothing I am putting on. I keep asking myself every step of the way. what am I doing now? is there any dreamsigns present? when I leave the house. Is there anything abnormal about my yard? or the neighborhood? I get in the car. does the door handle work right? does the car start? are the headlights working? is the car operating right? does the steering work? Where am I going? where am I coming from? do the streets look normal? etc. etc. All the way to work don't let any other thought enter my mind. This could be a dream at any moment stay aware. when I am very motivated and serious, I will literally try and go through the entire day without letting any other thought enter my mind.
when I am at work, I pay close attention to if I am at the right job, doing the right work. And every step of the way through my work day, I try to pay attention to every little detail, of everything that I am doing. What people are around me? what are they doing and talking about? I will try and generate that feeling, of when you first become Lucid in a dream. and really try and feel if I am dreaming now. When I catch myself thinking about other things. I will stop myself, and try and go back over the things I was just thinking about. And ask if there was anything dream like about the things I was thinking about. This is probably a good time to do a reality check as well. because this is precisely the kind of moment you will find yourself dreaming.

I try to remember to really try and stay focused, during what I think of as critical points during the day. these are the easiest times to lose track.
When you get into a conversation with somebody! If you can, try and stay aware during the conversation, while still listening to what the other person is saying. keep asking yourself if there is anything dream like about the conversation or the person you are talking to.

when you end up getting to involved in any kind of unexpected activity. It's easy to completely forget to pay attention. Thats exactly what happens when you are dreaming!

If I am watching a movie, I will try to stay aware through the whole movie. I will try and pay attention to the fact that I am sitting in a room watching a screen. Because almost every time I am watching something on TV, or in a movie theater in a dream. I will get sucked into it, and what I am watching becomes the dream.

When I start to get tired of paying attention to every detail. I just go like this to try and keep my thoughts from wandering to much. I will start counting. 1 is this a dream 2 is this a dream 3 is this a dream. all the way up to ten and start over. And while I am counting and saying that. I will just try and observe everything in my surroundings. I also try to pay attention to sounds that hear.

I know that it's pretty much impossible, to keep a single thought in your mind for an entire day. But with enough motivation, it can be done for almost the whole day. I think it's the really trying to do it, that counts the most.

Another thing that I do, is during the day I will visualize my self back in one of my dreams. Then noticing a dreamsign, and becoming Lucid.
then I will imagine what I would do if I became Lucid during that dream.

I think this part is important. during the day, don't think of a Lucid Dream as something that will happen in the future. Pretend that you know for a fact, that you will become lucid the next time you are dreaming. And let yourself feel the excitement that knowledge brings.

Then on the nights, when I get more than three or four hours of sleep. I will do the wake back to bed thing. this works well for me. but only when I am already on the edge of getting Lucid. or already getting Lucid dreams. it doesn't really do anything during bad dry spells. unless I am already about to beat it.

What I do is, I wake up after a couple of hours sleeping. I walk around the house looking at everything. and I don't let a single thought enter my mind. except is this a dream right now. I will walk around for about ten to fifteen minutes doing this. then I will lay back down, close my eyes. and say this is a dream, this is a dream. over and over until I fall asleep. then a lot of times I will go right into a Lucid dream.

Note: It normally takes me, between a month to two months before I start getting Lucid. It also depends on how much I am able to keep my mind on it. It's a lot of work but its well worth it. I have had nights where I was Lucid all night long. And have gone through periods where I could get Lucid almost at will. Also remember that you only have to focus that hard during the beginning stages. once you get a good momentum going, you will be able to become lucid with a lot less effort. you will have to keep your mind on it to keep the momentum up. Just not quite so extremely. I have probably forgotten some things but I will add stuff as I think of them.

One other thing I want to mention. Once during a stressful time in my life. I induced a Lucid Dream unintentionally. I was actually just trying to relieve stress. What I did was, I went through my whole day pretending that I was dreaming. I pretended that all the people were dream characters. and that everything that was happening was a creation of my mind. So when ever I had problems with annoying people. Or events bothered me. I told myself that I was creating the situation in the first place. so no reason to get upset about anything. I would just be like "wow what a strange moment I just created." And I would just laugh about the situation. This really worked, I stayed calm and relaxed all day. And that night, to my surprise I had a lucid dream! I have not really experimented with doing that since. But it could be a good thing to try.

Today in my nap I had a strange experience with H.I.

Normally I try to do short little wilds as I fall asleep. If I keep my thoughts quiet I will start to hear sounds. Sometimes I will hear a word or two. or sometimes a spoken sentence. every now and then I will hear two people talking a little.

OK, if I told this to the average person they would probably think I was insane. But today I was actually able to have a conversation with a voice that I could hear in my head. I was having a hard time understanding because I was not fully under. at first I was just getting what I can only describe as sound impressions. but then they would get more clear and I could tell they were words. I had to keep asking the voice to repeat because the words would get clear then unclear. but every time, it would repeat what it said, when I asked. I can't remember the details of the conversation. But the voice was saying something about traveling south. eventually I started to see the image of a man with strange looking teeth. I came fully awake after a few moments. then fell into normal sleep. That was the first time I was able to communicate, rather than just listen to sounds as I fall asleep. so yeah, it was pretty strange, but fascinating as well.