Well just a pre-face, looking back, I believe I had lucid dreams almost nightly when I was younger and then at some point 'lost it' (I used to look forward to going to bed because I would enter the world of 'Night Groups' where I would play/have adventures with all my friends). 3 Years ago I first read about lucid dreaming and at that instant realised what I once had. Since 3 years ago, I can probably count on both hands the amount of lucid dreams I've had (Not many T_T), though when I've had them I've had total control (Which I hope is promising). Recently a friend of mine and I have been getting back into training our abilities to induce lucid dreams and this is hopefully going to help.

Dream Journal

Thursday, 1 March 2007

I have scattered memories of scattered dreams today, so this won’t make any sense, but it’s a start… and that’s what I need to get me going I believe. No Lucid Dreams last night, but some decent-ish dream recall.

Game or Dream? - NL

The first dream I remember involved a group of assassins/special ops who looked like agents from the matrix. For some reason they were trying to kill me, my memories of the combats involve game-like sequences of shootouts where I was the better marksman, my shots always hit (I actually killed some people) but there were two who even when my shots were 100% guaranteed to hit and kill they had crazy things happen such as slow-motion or even in one instance plucking the bullets out of the air. Looking back the area in which this dream occurred was in my old Primary School grounds. I remember at one point ‘raging’ because I could tell something was wrong when he plucked my bullets out of the air just as I was about to get 2 headshots on the same person. When I say raging I mean that I understood that something was wrong and was angry that it was, but couldn’t make that step to understanding I was in a dream and attaining lucidity. In some points I felt like I was playing a game, this probably didn't help with recognising that it was in fact a dream. This is where more practice will come in handy.

The Final Fantasy Assassin - NL

The second dream I have memories of involves is more scattered, it seems to be a final fantasy-esque dream where I was an assassin (Cain, from the Bourne Supremacy books) and I was competing against Delta (A squad member from ‘my’ Medusa days). I have vague ememoris of driving a car, or being in the back seat talking to some hot chick. I also vaguely remember being inside a wizard’s tower receiving instructions (I think). One location that I recognise in the dream is a section of road outside Castle Towers connecting to the carpark from the ‘bottom’ area of Castle Towers.

The Carpenter - NL

The final dream involved me as a carpenter (which is odd enough) where I’d accept any contract and get it done almost instantly. To cut a long story short I built up a business empire in a relatively short time and the last memory I had was me sitting on a couch watching all my employees doing the work while I sat back raking in the money. For some reason as I was waking up and contemplating my dreams this one especially stuck with me because it made me compare business models with Pyramid Schemes. Essentially in my ‘Carpenter’s Business Empire’ I was the first person in the Pyramid Scheme getting all the money from the work my employees did. Just a random thought that struck a nerve.



Analysis

Enough recounting, onto analysis. I don’t know enough about Lucid Dreaming yet to make a detailed analysis (Working on that ) but this is an attempt. My dreams at the moment seem to be very patchwork. They seem to incorporate hundreds of little details from different aspects of my life or experiences (eg Any movies I’ve watched recently, though even past movies too) and combine them all into my dream. While I understand this is normal, the feeling I get the moment I wake up and take stock of what I’ve just experienced makes me feel that mine are especially ‘patchwork’ (The second one in particular, the different aspects of it were all completely unrelated). Please correct me if I’m wrong in this (That is if anyone bothers to read this, I don’t expect it ). Hopefully now that I’ve formally recognised this patchwork quality to my dreams I can recognise it as a Dreamsign and use it to gain lucidity. Time will tell.

So that’s the first entry in my online Dream Journal (I have a very poor quality one on my computer, but I’ll be scrapping that). Hopefully this helps with my goals of being able to control when I have lucid dreams and also using them as a Design Tool.

Friday, 2 March 2007

Well I only got four and a half hours sleep last night... so no vivid dreams, let alone lucid ones. I did have a few random thoughts that came back to me an hour after I woke up, one of which I was able to confirm as having not happened in real life. Ah well, more sleep next time