Date: 4-2-06 Morning & Afternoon Nap

Attempted MILD last night, the same 10 breaths plus "reality check in dream, after dream wake", but I could not concentrate for shit. Waking up early, after three hours, this time stayed in bed, was up for maybe 15 minutes? I don't know, I wouldn't be comfortable saying any time for certain, I can't recall, and I was really drowsy. Either way, couldn't concentrate then, too tired. So just fell asleep. During after noon, attempted WILD, and drifted in and out of consciousness, several dreamlets, but I succumbed to sleep in the end. Though had a "WILD" in my dream.

At one point in these underground mines, with baddies it seemed, sort of skeletosish. The viewpoint was that 3rd person whatever the SIMS perspective is called, iso-something. So, there's a video game cue. Then there were plenty of family members in my dream, another missed cue that I can't seem to ever recall. Worst of all, at one point I'd found a broken guitar, I was mad, distraught, thought it was mine. I couldn't believe it so I reality checked, and it FAILED! I just held the nose. I should have done more reality checks! missed goddamned opportunity. But there's another dreamsign, really distressing situations. During one of the nap dreamlets, there was another case of me trying to talk to someone out of sight and not receiving any response. Then there was a weird semilucid one in which I couldn't control anything or move or change perspective. I don't know what was up with that. Then there was more family member stuff, all the kids. I can't drop this dreamsign, though it never works, I've just got to take it more seriously in real life, any mention of family reality check. Also, stop making the nose one your primary. Then there was part of a scene where I was studying abroad, in Japan though. No matter, being abroad should be a dreamsign, because I'm in New York. Then there was writing in my fucking dream journal. This has happened before. When writing about dreams, make sure you're not dreaming. Finally, a successful dreamsign was the WILD sensation. Which is about as obvious as you can make it.