I just recalled one of my 1st ...?s, and I just had to put it down for laughs....
Timeline of my ...?s:
1st one occured somewhere in the fall of 2003
Events:
First ...? I ever had
First time for another 2 years I would visit another dimension
After trying to awaken myself, I found myself trapped inside a box of some sort, and I wasn't scared, only frustrated as I kept trying to get out, which I did, and it was inside my room. Knowing I usually don't wake up like this, I go into my parent's room, telling them it was time for school, but they did not listen for some odd reason, and I got irritated, telling them I would go to school myself. As I did head towards the school, and was right next to a school Seminary, I felt something wasn't quite right. Puzzled, I look down to see my feet are about a foot off the ground. Startled, I think it is a dream, and say I will be fine as long as I am not in a white robe, which I was, and had a blue sash to boot, and this all was so frightening, I started to shriek, and kind of fell on my face, still floating above the ground. After a while, I found myself in another dimension (I only went here once, and saw a whole bunch of people that had white robes like I did. I was thinking, "Where on earth am I?" I saw more and more people, and one of them hugged me, and knowing that I was probably dead at this point, I freaked out, but one of my friends told me everything was going to be alright, and I relaxed a bit, and fell back into my bed. Freaking out still and very cold (I usually don't get as cold as I am after a ...?), I relax, and remember....
My 2nd ...?
Events:
First time floating sensation
The First time I felt true peace from it
First time I realize I cannot wake up from this type of dream without returning to bed.
First time I see my unconscious duplicate
Still freaking out!
I felt the vibes, and felt the floating sensation for a minute, and realized I must now be in a dream, but I was still in my bedroom, but I still thought it was a dream, and flew away to another area kind of gorgeous with trees, water, and beauty, and I decided to relax, and felt at peace, and I thought, "This dream couldn't get any better, could it?" Some people in white robes asked how I was doing, and I told them I was feeling fine, but I would soon had to go home, and awaken myself. I then yelled out for myself to awaken, but nothing happened, and they said that I would need to go back to bed to awaken. I went back, and the first time I saw my unconscious duplicate, I was confused, thinking, "Now, why would someone sneak into my bed while I am exploring?" and I take a closer look at her face, and realize her face is just like mine, the one I had before! I then am like, "Oh my goodness!! AAAAAAHHH! I must be dead!! Noooo!!" The friends I had in that area grabbed me just as I was trying to go back, and said, "Stop, don't go any further! Just relax, and you'll be fine!" I was freaking out as I was shrieking, "How am I suppose to relax if I am dead?!" They just took me back to the lush land, and then I settled down a little, and realized that a dream could not hurt me in the least, but this dream in particular was much more different than those other ones I was used to and have ever so often. I just started to fly around, knowing I would wake up in the morning soon. Then I was a bit settled, and they allowed me to go back, saying that I was required to go back to bed in order to wake up. I took one last look at my unconscious duplicate, and seeing she was breathing, and looked like me, I concluded that I had successfully divided myself into 2 different people (for a while, then I realized she was nothing more than an unconscious duplicate that appeared whenever I ...?ed!), and decided to try to wake her up, and after trying, I woke up myself!
The 3rd ...? I had (in school, too!)
I was evading sleep as much as I could, but suddenly, I started for some odd reason flying through the ceiling, and I think, "Oh no! Not this dream again!! Will it ever stop haunting me?" I then saw my Uncle whom I heard was doing poorly in the hospital, and we started chatting a bit. Then he had to go, and I had to go back to class, or they would count me as a sluff (even in my dreams), and I headed back to my seat. I then thought to myself, "These dreams are most certainly unique that I am having, but they do seem a bit more like real time than they do my typical LDs, but still, I think they are probably only dreams, but no matter what they are, they are not going to hurt me....so I accepted it, and whenever I would feel like I was going to do it again, I could accept it, but that didn't mean I was going to enjoy it!
The 4th ...?
I felt myself get the floating sensation and knowing it was not going to hurt me, I accepted it, and I went exploring, thinking I was dreaming again. I then found my boyfriend in ...? form, and I asked him what he was doing here, and he said that he did this all the time, and that he was glad I joined him on this outing, so I went with him. I was a lot more calmer, and knew now that these were not only not going to hurt me.
Although I did learn a lot more, if it wasn't for my boyfriend helping me out of my fear factor, I probably would have tried to quit too many times.
I have learned to do many things during the time since then, luckily, and can now control myself a lot better than I could, but still sometimes still have them by chance. I can enter dreams, read books, found out about my sash, went to XP5/5PX.
Sometimes, I still get afraid of them though, and that makes them more likely to happen, especially if I speed up my heart rate during the trans state.
to be continued
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