Thread: Widow Killer!!

Hi peeps

The following is a dream I had last night...

"It started off as either a narrative, or like someone/some higher voice telling me what to do. I had to kill 200 widows! There was this huge apartment where 200 male widows were living. I was in, what I think was, another apartment opposite. And I had a gun, a sniper to be precise, with a target, etc - a bit like a game really. I knew what I had to do, and I got on with it straight away. Again, I will relate it to a game. The idea of a game has only just struck me, but in the dream there was no such thought. But, like a game, I just started shooting the first men I could find - and like a game, there was no feelings aroused from the murders, just cold killing, it was just something I knew I had to do (for whatever reason). Like a game, you just get on with it, you never get upset at how many people you kill. Lol. And after the first couple of killings, I turned behind me, and there was this old man. In the dream I presumed it was one of the widowers who had escaped from the apartment over the road. And so I killed him! Then afterwards, my sister and one of my cousins entered the room. My sister was screaming and shouting (like she does in real life). I can't remember specifically what she wanted, or what she wanted to do, etc but her shouting was along the lines of "I WANT THIS; I WANT THAT; I WANT TO DO THIS; I WANT TO DO THAT". That kind of thing. Typical teenage attitude, if you like. (Just like she is in real life!) And I'm like really p***** off with her - and my cousin - cos I thought I was gonna get caught, etc. And I'm like "I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT (etc), JUST SHUT UP FOR GOD'S SAKE." And she carried on and on... and she just wouldn't shut up! And that was when I woke up. (Lol. I don't remember killing anymore widowers!)"

A very strange dream. Most of my dreams in the past I have tried to interpret myself, and I've basically got the jist of them. I've tried to interpret this one, but I'm finding it difficult. But this one seems/feels significant in some way, and I need another perspective on it.

As it happens, a few days ago I had a right go at my sister. It was like 11.30 at night, and the whole household is asleep, until my sister starts screaming and shouting with her demands (just like in the dream), and she woke everyone up, including me. I mean, this has been happening for years, but this time I'd had enough. So I got out of bed, went downstairs into the kitchen, straight towards my sister and I shouted at her "DO YOU HAVE TO F****** SHOUT AND SCREAM, etc etc. And I pushed her head up against the door. I shocked myself to be honest, but still I went straight back to bed. She weren't hurt or anything, just a little lump on her head.

As for me, well I'm a 24 yo man. I'm going through a difficult time at the moment. You could say I have severe depression. I haven't seen a doctor about it yet, so its not clinical. I'm at a point in my life, and have been for a good 6 months, where I feel totally cut off from the world and everyone in it, including those close to me. I have almost totally withdrawn completely from the outside world, and have isolated myself more than I have ever done. I go to work, etc. But most social functions I now avoid. I have always enjoyed my company, but the last few months I haven't. And I just feel really sad, lonely and depressed. Not gonna mention much more, but I just thought I'd give a brief summary of whats going on inside me at the moment, cos I think it may have some link to the dream.

So what do you think? Haha. Any ideas?
It would be appreciated, thank you