Hmmmmm. yeah, i think i've figured it out now, i'm in this religious club at school and my friends and i have been in opposition with the guy who runs it lately because he is extremely conservative when it comes to religion and we have a more liberal view.he basically thinks that everyone who hasn't read the bible needs to burn in hell while i think he's a little too over zealous. i am basically going against this guy who thinks he's an angel already, so it kind of feels like i have to fight against god cuz he thinks i'm wrong.anyways i think lucifer came into it because i am one of the few people who actually took the time to read about his fall and not just call him an evil git.also i think you are right about some level of attraction there. it is said that lucifer was the most beautiful and glorious angel in heaven before his fall so i like to think of him when he was good.

lol thanks oniman i don't connect things so sometimes i need them pointed out to me. unfortunately i'm pry going to still have these dreams as long as the whole thing with the club lasts. hopefully i can become lucid and change the dreams around so they're not as creepy.